CHAPTER 40
As Fate slowly opened her eyes, somehow she still couldn’t believe that the man he was dreaming of almost every night was finally sleeping beside her. She carefully faced him and started to memorize his face. She slowly smiled and started to play around with his eyelashes. Then after a few minutes, she suddenly stopped and then using her finger, she started to trace his nose instead. She was so captivated by his perfect face that she suddenly felt curious and insecure.
“Hmmm, how come you have longer eyelashes than me?” she asked in a low voice, while staring at the man sleeping beside her. “All girls should have long eyelashes. So how come I only have average eyelashes and yours is longer and so beautiful?” she uttered to herself.
Suddenly Max opened his eyes and stared straight into her eyes. “Who said your eyelashes aren’t beautiful?” he asked with a sweet smile.
Fate’s heart somehow skipped a beat. “Sorry, did I wake you?” she asked in a low voice. She then started to move away from him. She couldn’t deny the fact that she was feeling very nervous and she was afraid that Max would see right through her façade.
But before she could move away, he had already moved closer to her instead and he quickly embraced her. Fate like she couldn’t breathe. She was lying so close to Max that she could almost hear his heartbeat. Her own heart was already beating wildly. She knew that something was going to happen if she stayed longer in his arms.
“Max, please let me go,” she uttered in a trembling voice.
“Sshhh… let’s just stay here like this. I promise I won’t do anything. I just want to hold you in my arms. Do you know how happy I am right now? I feel like I am whole again. After you left, I have never been the same again. I am sorry if I have hurt you. I am sorry for all the things that I have done. I know I can never turn back the time and give you what you have lost. But please believe me when I say that I am willing to spend my whole life just to show you how sorry I am and how much I truly love you. I know I was a total fool when I did those things. I was stupid. I allowed my jealousy to control me and I didn’t believe in your love. I was blinded by my anger and I allowed our love to be destroyed by my foolish actions. Please give me another chance. I don’t know what I would do if you leave me again. Please believe me… I am really, really sorry… Please let me show you that I have changed. This time I will make sure that everything will be perfect. I promise I will never hurt you again,” he said as he started to cry.
Fate felt like her heart was being torn into pieces. She knew that Max was being sincere in everything he just said. But there was still that part of her now that he still didn’t know. ‘How could she tell him? Would he be able to understand and accept her after he learns the truth?’ Slowly a tear ran down her cheek. She didn’t want to cry but the sadness and longing in her heart was too unbearable.
“Why did everything end up like this Max? Why did everything change? Why…” she uttered as she cried as well.
Max lovingly kissed the forehead of the woman he was holding in his arms and he held her tighter. “I am sorry. It’s all my fault. I shouldn’t have hurt you. I know you’re afraid to trust me again. But I am willing to do anything just to have you back. Just tell me what I need to do and I will surely do it. Just say it and I won’t even ask why.”
“Max, I… I really don’t know what to say. I am so confused. What about Norman?” she asked in between sobs.
“Norman can find another woman to love again. As for me, I have already surrendered my heart to only one woman. And if I don’t get her back, then I will live the rest of my life without a heart,” he answered.
Fate sighed. This is what she was afraid of. Her heart was already softening. All her defenses were already crumbling. The cold wall that she had put was already melting away as she stayed longer and longer in his arms.
“Max, many things have happened since the day that I left you. I am not the same Fate that you knew before. Would you still be able to accept me if you knew all the things that I have done and all the dark secrets that I have now?” she asked as she started to cry again.
Max drew in a deep breath before answering. Somehow his own tears were building again in his eyes. He didn’t want to cry, not until he had already said everything he needed to say.
“I love you Fate. I already fell in love with you the first time I saw you. And I loved you more, as time passed by. Then I finally gave my heart and soul to you when we made love. You’re the very first woman that I have given my heart to. That’s why I was so hurt and blinded when I thought that you were having a relationship with another man. Please forgive me. I was just a foolish guy who was so blinded by his love for you. You ask me if I will still love you even if I learn about the things that you have done? This is my answer… Yes, I will still love you. I don’t care about your past. What I care about is the future that we will make… together,” he spoke as tears finally ran down his face.
Fate like her heart was dying with the words Max was saying. “Max…”
Slowly Max lowered his head and started to search for Fate’s lips. And once their lips were already locked in a loving kiss, somehow everything stopped. There were no problems to think of, no people to consider and no pain to hinder their true feelings.
They were alone in their own little world. Two people who love with all their hearts. Two people who have lost each other along the way but have finally found each other again.
Fate just closed her eyes as Max started to deepen his kiss. This is what she wanted and this was what her heart was longing for. She was willing to bear the consequences later. But for now, she was going to let go… She was going to be true to herself. She was still in love with him and for the very last time she wants to feel the love that Max was offering. Even though her mind was telling her to stop, her heart had already won. She was going to make one last beautiful memory with the man she truly loves.
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