Online Now (Fan Fiction) (Chapter 27)

 

CHAPTER 27

The next day at Hana's classroom . . . .

Hana looked at Ji-Young. She was standing near a window and looking outside. Hana slowly walked up to her. She wanted to talk with her bestfriend to clear everything up.

“Ji-Young . . . .” Hana uttered while standing in front of her.

Ji-Young stared at Hana. “Hana . . .” she uttered as well.

“I'm sorry . . . . Ji- Young. Please forgive me . . . .” Hana begged.

Ji-Young suddenly smiled. “Silly girl . . . you know how much I love you right? And no mater how much I dislike the things that you've been doing . . . . I still love you and support you . . . . So I can't stay upset with you forever . . .”

Hana smiled sweetly. “Thank you.”

“I understand your reason for not telling me . . . . I was just hurt because I never expected you would actually learn how to keep a secret from me,” Ji-Young explained.

“I'm sorry . . . .”

“It's okay. . . . So did Jong Soo take good care of you last night?” Ji-Young suddenly asked.

Hana frowned. “How did she know I was with Jong Soo last night?” she suddenly asked herself.

Ji-Young suddenly laughed. “I can tell you're wondering how I knew right? Jong Soo called me last night. He asked me if I could come over your house and help him look after you. I came and you were already sleeping . . . . so you didn't know. I left before 5 am so you didn't see me. . . . .Somehow now I am understanding what you said about Jong Soo. He isn't such a bad guy after all . . . .”

“I told you he was nice . . . . once you get to know him . . . .” Hana replied with a smile.

Ji-Young's expression became serious all of a sudden.

“Hana . . . . why didn't you tell him?” Ji-Young asked.

Hana didn't know what to answer.

“There's no sense in telling him . . . . since he's already involved with someone else,” she replied.

“But he has a right to know . . . .” Ji-Young uttered.

“No . . . he doesn't. All his rights to this child disappeared the moment we separated. This child is mine . . . . and mine . . . alone,” Hana said again.

Ji-Young shook her head. “Hana . . . .how will you take care of the child?”

Hana's eyes were suddenly filled with confusion. “Frankly . . . I don't know . . . But what I do know is . . . . I'll do everything just to take care of this child.”

Ji-Young stared at her best friend. She pitied her so much that her heart was aching. She suddenly embraced her friend. She wanted to comfort her . . . . and make her feel how much she loved her.

“Don't worry . . . . Hana. I'll always be by your side. I will help you take care of everything,” Ji-Young said with a sad expression on her face.

Ji-Young wasn't only pitying Hana, but mostly her unborn child. She was feeling sorry for the child because the baby will grow up without a father.

As Ji-Young and Hana were talking . . . . one of their classmates was busy watching a show on her laptop.

“Hey girls! Max is totally hot in his performance last night with Yun Hee. Come on . . . .Look!” the girl said to their other classmates.

Almost all the girls in the class all got up and started to watch the show within minutes. They were screaming . . . . everytime the camera focused on Max.

“He's so cute! I wish I could be his girlfriend,” one of the girls said.

Another girl laughed. “If you're his girlfriend . . . . then I think I can settle for being his . . . . wife.”

All the girls watching the show laughed.

“That Yun Hee is so lucky . . . . she can actually get so close to Max. I would do anything to get close to Max like that,” another one of the girls said.

“Max would never choose an ordinary girl for a girlfriend. Look at Yun Hee . . . . She's perfect for him,” another girl said.

Ji-Young suddenly became irritated with the noise. She also wasn't too fond of seeing Max. Everytime she saw him on tv. . . . her blood just boils. She wanted to slap him or better yet . . . just punch him. She hated Max for leaving Hana. And she didn't want to see him at all.

Ji-Young looked at Hana. She was looking outside the window. She was very pale. She had also learned yesterday from Jong Soo that Hana needed to be hospitalized. But she wouldn't agree. She could see the tears starting to form in Hana's eyes. She was starting to remember Max again.

Ji-Young's temper suddenly rose. She quickly walked up to the owner of the laptop.

“Can you please turn off your laptop? Or just change what you're watching,” Ji-Young said to the girl.

The girl looked at Ji-Young. “Why?” she asked.

“I don't know how to explain it. But please . . . . I'm asking you nicely . . . . Frankly . . . . I don't want to see that Max's face . . . . He's a jerk . . . . a total jerk. And I feel so sick just seeing him,” Ji-Young replied.

The owner of the laptop laughed. “Why did Max decline to have you as a girlfriend . . . . that's why you are mad at him?” the girl said jokingly.

Ji-Young didn't like the joke her classmate made.

“I'm not joking . . . . Just turn the laptop off . . . . or you'll be sorry . . . .” Ji-Young said as a threat.

Hana had already walked up to Ji-Young and the other girls.

“Ji-Young . . . . Stop it. Don't disturb them anymore. Let's just go,” Hana said as she tried to pull Ji-Young away.

The owner of the laptop laughed again. “Why should I follow you? You don't want to see Max's face? You're making me laugh. . . . All the girls in this class and the whole school would do anything just to get one small glimpse of Max . . . .”

Another girl laughed. “They're just jealous . . . . Because even if they paraded naked in front of Max . . . he wouldn't even dare look at them.”

“No . . . . no . . . . Max would surely take a look at them . . . . then he would sleep with them and then just leave them . . . .” a girl said with a laugh.

Ji-Young looked at Hana. She saw that Hana was hurt by what their classmate said. She suddenly became very angry. “That's too much . . . . Take back what you said.”

All the girls laughed again. Most of the girls in Hana's class were all jealous of Hana and Ji-Young because they were the smartest girls in school. So they always make fun of them as much as they can.

“Ji-Young. . . . just let it go!” Hana said.

“No! I am going to teach these girls how to respect others,” Ji-Young said angrily.

The owner of the laptop suddenly stood up. She went straight to Ji-Young. Then she pushed Ji-Young.

“That's what you both deserve,” the girl said with a grin.

The girl had pushed Ji-Young so hard that Ji-Young accidentally knocked Hana down as well. While Hana knocked over a chair and was obviously in pain.

“Aaaahhh. . . . .”Hana suddenly exclaimed.

“Hana . . . . are you all right?” Ji-Young asked with concern. She was hurt as well, but she didn't mind herself. She was more concerned with her friend.

Hana didn't answer she was already in so much pain. She didn't know why but her heart was beating very fast. And she was feeling very cold.

Then somebody started screaming.

“Blood! Blood! Hana's bleeding!”

Ji-Young hurriedly looked at Hana. Blood was oozing down her legs.

“Hana . . . .” Ji-Young said with fear in her eyes.

Hana looked at Ji-Young. . . . then she looked at the blood. Within seconds . . . . Hana lost consciousness. Suddenly all the girls started screaming for help. Jong Soo suddenly appeared and immediately scooped her up into his arms. Hana was already bleeding profusely. This is what the doctors have told him about. He knew she was in danger.

Online Now (Fan Fiction) (Chapter 26)

CHAPTER 26

Back in Hana's house . . . .

“Hana . . . . you're sick. You should be in a hospital. You can't stay here . . . . especially not alone,” Jong Soo said with concern.

Hana smiled at Jong Soo. “It's all right . . . . I can take care of myself.”

Jong Soo looked at Hana. He was very worried about her. He was also pitying her . . . . . and her unborn child.

“I know . . . . I have no right to ask . . . . . But please understand I am very concerned about you. Can I ask . . . .why is the father of the child not taking care of you?” Jong So said as he looked straight at Hana.

Hana smiled bitterly. “Because . . . we're through . . . .We broke up more than a month now.”

“Why?” Jong Soo suddenly asked. “Does he know about your condition? About the baby?”

Hana shook her head. “ No . . . . I never told him.”

“But why?” Jong Soo asked again. He was unable to believe what he was hearing.

“Because . . . . I don't want to be a burden,” Hana replied with sadness in her eyes.

“A burden? But you're carrying his child . . . . He has a responsibility to you . . . . and especially the child,” Jong Soo said.

“A responsibility . . . . I don't want to impose on him especially when he already has someone new . . . . “ Hana said.

Jong Soo was starting to feel very angry. But when he looked at Hana . . . . everything changed.

“So he dumped you because of another girl? And I thought I was already bad . . . . with the way I've treated you. I never thought you would actually meet someone more evil than me. You sure have such bad luck in choosing guys,” Jong Soo said jokingly. He saw that Hana was already very sad. He didn't want to add more sadness . . . . so he decided to just joke about everything.

Hana smiled again bitterly. She knew that Jong Soo was somehow trying to make her feel better.

“Sorry if I've bothered you,” Hana said to Jong Soo.

“No . . . . you're not bothering me. This is the least I can do . . . after all . . . . you know . . . . the things that I've done to you,” Jong Soo replied with a smile.

“Thank you . . . .” she softly said.

“But frankly . . . . I can't believe . . . . somehow I can't seem to accept . . . . before when we were together . . . . I never ever kissed you . . . . and you . . . . you just gave yourself to this guy . . . . How long have you known him?” Jong Soo asked.

“I've known him for several months now,” Hana answered.

“Several months? Hana . . . . I'm sorry to say this but how can you be so careless as to just give yourself to someone you just barely met?”

“I fell in love with him . . . . I love him. . . . That is my only reason for giving myself to him,” Hana answered.

Jong Soo was very angry with the Hana's former boyfriend. If he was the one who had gotten Hana pregnant, he would surely take good care of her.

“Hana . . . that guy has to know about you . . . . and the bay. Just because he has a new girlfriend . . . . So what? The least he can do is provide financially for you and the baby. You can't continue working and going to school, Hana. The school doctor already said that you should be confined in a hospital. Please Hana . . . . if you don't want to do it for yourself . . . . just do it for the child's sake,” Jong Soo said with concern.

Hana shook her head again. “ No . . . I won't tell him! I don't want to tell him. I don't want to ruin his life.”

“Hana . . . . Why are you so kind? You don't want to ruin that guy's life . . . . but have you ever thought about your own life? Or about the life of the baby you're carrying right now?” Jong Soo asked continuously. He was pitying Hana but at the same time, he was also getting upset with the way Hana was thinking.

“Jong Soo . . . . there are a lot of things that you still don't know . . . about him. If I could only tell you . . . . maybe then you would be able to understand my decision,” Hana said.

“I don't care about the guy's situation. What I am concerned about is . . . . you situation. . . . your condition. Hana . . . . the doctor said you need a complete bed rest . . . . or else something bad might happen to you and your baby.”

Hana smiled. “ Thank you very much for being concerned with me. But please . . . just respect my decision. We have already broken up. I don't want to have any more connection with him.”

Jong Soo just looked at Hana. He was really feeling very sorry for her. How he wanted to help her . . . and protect her.

“So what do you plan to do now? How are you going to support yourself? You can't work anymore Hana . . . . Don't be stubborn and just follow what the doctors are saying. Please think about the child you're carrying . . . .” Jong Soo said.

“Jong Soo . . . . I can't stop working . . . and I certainly can't stop studying. We will be graduating in two months time . . . . I can't stop now,” Hana replied.

“What if something bad happens to you . . . . or to your baby? Do you think you can handle it? Are you prepared to handle the consequences of your decision?” Jong Soo asked.

Hana looked at Jong Soo. She then smiled bitterly. “I don't have any choice Jong Soo. I will have to deal with this problem on my own. And I will have to bear all the consequences of my actions . . . alone.”

“Please . . . . I want to help . . . . Let me help you . . . .” Jong Soo said.

Hana gently shook her head. “ No . . . . I won't drag you into my personal problem.”

“Hana . . . . I can provide for you and the child. I can take care of you while you're still pregnant . . . . so you don't have to work anymore,” Jong Soo suggested.

“Thank you . . . . but I can't accept what you're offering,” she gently declined.

“Let's just say . . . . I am doing this for the child . . . . and not for you. Please accept my help. I am not asking or expecting anything in return. If that is what you're afraid of,” Jong Soo said again.

“Jong Soo . . . . please just stop,” Hana uttered.

“You know I don't take no for an answer. I'll talk to Ji-Young so she can accompany you to the hospital tomorrow. Remember. . . . the doctor at school said you need to have a full medical check up. You don't need to worry about the bill. I'll take care of it,” Jong Soo said again.

“Ji-Young . . . . Ji-Young was very upset with me this morning,” Hana uttered.

Hana remembered her best friend's reaction after hearing that she was pregnant.

“Ji-Young was very upset because you didn't tell her about your situation. Somehow she never imagine that you would keep such a secret from her,” Jong Soo said.

“Frankly I was afraid of her reaction . . . . That's why I kept it a secret from her . . . . I hope she forgives me,” Hana said as sadness filled her eyes.

“Don't worry . . . . knowing Ji-Young . . . . she will probably forget all about it by tomorrow morning,” Jong Soo said with a smile.

“I hope so . . . .” Hana replied.

“Hey . . . . cheer up! Don't be so sad. . . . It will have a negative effect on your baby,” Jong Soo said as he tried to make Hana laugh.

Hana smiled. “Thank you . . . . Jong Soo.”

“Please . . . . don't thank me. I haven't done anything,” Jong Soo replied.

“I still want to thank you . . . . Thank you for being a friend . . .” she said with a smile.

“If you really want to thank . . . . don't go to work today . . . . and just rest . . . . please. I'll stay here for the night and look after you,” Jong Soo said with love in his eyes.

Hana looked at Jong Soo. She could feel she was very tired. She was also thinking that it would be better if she just stayed home and slept. Somehow she felt like her whole body ached.

“Hana . . . .”

“Okay . . . .I promise . . . . I'll rest for today. But only for today . . . . okay?”she suddenly said.

Jong Soo suddenly became very happy. At least . . . . Hana didn't have to go to work and he wouldn't be worried about her collapsing again . . . . for the time being.

He knew he needed to do something about Hana. He needed to persuade her to go and allow herself to be confined in a hospital.

She was already very weak. Jong Soo could easily tell her health was in a bad state. The school doctor had told him that Hana needed to be taken to a hospital to make sure that she doesn't collapse again. Because if it does happen again. . . . it may be fatal for both Hana and the baby.

Jong Soo looked at Hana again. He didn't want anything bad to happen to her. He still loved her. And he will do anything just to help her.

Imeem Playlist

DBSK in Universal Studios

These are some of the DBSK pictures taken in Universal Studios.

Online Now (Fan Fiction) (Chapter 25)

 

CHAPTER 25

 

“Max . . . . why haven't you called me?” Yun Hee asked as she entered Max's room.

Max looked at Yun Hee. Somehow he felt he didn't want to see her anymore. Whenever he saw her . . . .he would immediately think about Hana. It was already driving him mad. He was missing Hana so much. And how he wished he could have her back.

“Max . . . .what's wrong?” Yun Hee asked as she slowly walked up to him.

Max just stayed silent. He didn't know how to say it. But he wanted to set things straight already. He had already made up his mind. He wanted to break up with Yun Hee and go back to Hana.

“Max . . . .” Yun Hee uttered. She was afraid of what she was seeing in Max's eyes.

“Yun Hee . . . . I'm sorry . . . . But I . . . .I can't be with you anymore . . . .” Max said as he looked straight into Yun Hee's eyes.

Yun Hee couldn't believe what she was hearing. She suddenly felt a sharp pain in her heart. She loved Max . . . . and she didn't want to lose him.

“Max . . . . please tell me you're just joking,” Yun Hee said with a trembling voice.

Max slowly shook his head. “I'm sorry . . . . Yun Hee. But I wouldn't joke about things like this.”

Slowly Yun Hee's tears started to fall from her eyes.

“Why?” she suddenly asked.

Max looked at Yun Hee.

“I'm sorry . . . . But I am still in love with Hana.”

“Hana? But she already broke up with you,” Yun Hee said.

“I know . . . . I've been such a fool to have ever let her go. At first . . . . I thought I was in love with you . . . . But after losing her . . . .it was only then I realized that she was the one who I truly loved. I'm sorry . . . . if I've hurt you. But I don't think I can live without her . . . . I want her back in my life . . . .” Max said.

Every words that Max said were like knives being struck at Yun Hee's heart. She was in so much pain.

“No . . . . I'm not letting you go!” Yun Hee shouted.

“Yun Hee . . . . please,” Max uttered.

“No!” Yun Hee shouted as she suddenly broke into tears.

“Yun Hee . . . . please understand.”

“I love you Max . . . . I can wait . . . . If you don't love me now . . . . You can certainly learn . . . . You can learn how to love me . . . .” Yun Hee said.

“No! I don't think I can ever learn to love you . . . . not like the way I love Hana,” Max said with pity in his eyes.

Yun Hee stared at Max. She didn't want to lose him.

“Then . . . . then it's okay with me if you return to her . . . . I still want to be beside you. I can settle to be . . . . your other girlfriend aside from Hana . . . Please . . . . just don't leave me!” Yun Hee begged.

Max was totally taken by surprise by what Yun Hee said. He never thought that she would even think of such a thing.

“No . . . . Yun Hee. Please give yourself some respect. I can't do that to you. . . . and to Hana. Please . . . . let's just end this . . . .” Max said.

“No!” Yun Hee exclaimed.

“I'm sorry but I've already made up my mind. I am going back to Hana . . . .” Max said.

Yun Hee cried uncontrollably. She knew it was already useless to keep on fighting with Max. He had already made a decision. There was nothing else she could do but accept the truth.

“I'm sorry . . . .” Max said as he slowly embraced Yun Hee for the last time.

“Goodbye . . . . Max . . . .” Yun Hee uttered as she cried in Max's arms.

That night . . . .

Max was waiting patiently in a van. He was waiting for Hana outside her house. Jaejoong and the other DBSK members all decided to go with him. Max was determined to apologize and ask for Hana's forgiveness.

“I will do anything just to win you back Hana. I promise I'll make you love me again,” Max said to himself as he silently waited.

A few minutes more and Hana finally arrived in a car.

As soon as Max saw Hana, his heart somehow jumped with joy . . . . But he suddenly noticed something . . . . Hana wasn't alone.

Hana was with another man. Max's heart immediately felt pain. He then looked at the guy who was with Hana.

He immediately recognized him as Jong Soo. Max's heart was suddenly crushed. He never imagined that Hana would go back to Jong Soo.

Max continued to watch as Jong Soo helped Hana with her things and he even helped her open the door of her house. Once the door opened, both Jong Soo and Hana entered the house.

Max wanted to scream. He wanted to cry out the pain he was feeling. Now he knew the pain that Hana felt.

Max suddenly smiled bitterly. “I deserve this . . . . I was a fool to have hurt you and to have let you go . . . . Now even if I want to go back to you now . . . . I won't be able to do it . . . . There's no one to return to anymore.”

Max's tears slowly flowed as he stared at Hana's house.

“Hyung . . . . Let's go,” Max said to Jaejoong.

The other DBSK boys stayed silent. They knew that Max was hurting. They pitied both Max and Hana. They didn't want the two of them ending in such a sad way.

As soon as Max returned to their apartment, he hurriedly went to his room and locked the door. He didn't want anyone to see him cry.How he wanted to just die at that moment. The pain he was feeling was too much that somehow he couldn't breathe.

“I still love you . . . . Hana. But I hope you will be happy with Jong Soo. I am sorry . . . I was too late in realizing that you were the one I truly loved. I'm sorry. . . . I can't be with you anymore,” Max said as tears flowed from his eyes.

Online Now (Fan Fiction) (Chapter 24)

CHAPTER 24

Max looked at the computer monitor silently. It has been a month since he and Hana broke up. And ever since that day . . . . he hasn't been the same. He had been thinking about Hana constantly. . . . And every night, he had been waiting patiently in Multiply and YM. He was waiting for her to log on.

But a month also passed . . . . and she hasn't logged on. He was already very worried. He was wondering what happened to her. How he wanted to talk to her . . . . He was constantly missing her.

“Max . . . . “ Jaejoong softly said as he gently tapped Max's shoulder. He had seen Max staring blankly at the computer monitor as he was obviously thinking of something . . . . or someone. And he already had an idea who Max was thinking of as soon as he saw Hana's homepage at Multiply.

“Max . . . . let it go. She already set you free. So don't expect everything will be the same just like it was before,” Jaejoong said with concern.

“Hyung . . . . why do I feel . . . .I feel so empty right now. Before I thought I wanted to be with Yun Hee. But now . . . . now that I am with her. All I can think about is Hana. Somehow I feel so lost and lonely without Hana,” Max said with loneliness in his eyes.

Jaejoong slowly shook his head. He pitied Max. “It only means one thing . . . . you made the wrong decision. Yun Hee wasn't the one you really loved. That's what we have been trying to tell you Max. There is a big difference between wanting and loving. You can always want something or someone, but it doesn't necessarily mean you love it or her. It's like . . . . a craving. When you see something new . . . you instantly want to have it. But once you have it . . . . you immediately lose interest. I think . . . .we all think that you were just attracted to Yun Hee because she's someone new and exciting. But the one you're really in love with is Hana,” Jaejoong softly said.

“Hyung . . . . what should I do now?” Max uttered as he cupped his face with both of his hands. He was very confused. How he wished he could turn back time and just go back to the time he was with Hana.

Jaejoong looked at Max. He wished he could help him. But he knew everything wasn't simple anymore. Max had hurt Hana badly. And going back to her was already impossible.

“Max . . . . I'm sorry . . . . But I can't help you anymore. You should try and decide on your own now. But all I can say is . . . . use your heart. Because your heart will surely lead you to the right path,” Jaejoong answered. Then he quietly left the room. He wanted Max to have some time on his own. So he could think . . . .about who he really loved.

Max silently stared at the monitor again.

“Hana . . . .I'm sorry,” he softly uttered.

The next day . . . .

Almost all the girls in Hana's class were all busy watching the latest performance of Max with Yun Hee on a laptop that one of the girls had brought.

“Oh! Look at Max . . . He looks so hot. How I wished I could have a boyfriend like him,” one of the girls exclaimed.

“Like him? No . . . . I want him . . . .” another girl said as she laughed out loud.

“How wonderful it must be to have Max Changmin as a boyfriend. Imagine . . . . a superstar as your boyfriend . . . . must be very exciting,” one of the girls said.

“I'll do anything just to be his girlfriend,” another girl said.

Hana just looked at he classmates as they all day dreamed about Max. How her heart ached as she saw Max singing and standing so close to Yun Hee while they were singing. She couldn't stopped herself. She still loved Max.

It has been a month since she walked out of his life. She has also stopped logging on Multiply and in YM. She was too afraid of what she would actually feel once she saw that Max was online. She was afraid . . . that she would actually start chatting with him again once she saw online.

Hana missed Max so much that she even dreamed of him quite often. She had also been wandering constantly if Max was also missing him. But she knew she was also day dreaming. Max already had Yun Hee . . . .and she was only a part of his past now. She no longer belonged in his life.

Slowly tears started to fall from her eyes. She didn't notice that Jong Soo was quietly watching her. He had been watching her from afar for the past month. He knew that she had a problem. He could tell . . . . just by looking at her.

Jong Soo was very concerned with her. He had noticed the sudden change in Hana.

For the past month, he had noticed that Han was always absent-minded. And he always caught her staring blankly at things. How he wanted to talk to her and ask her what was wrong. But he always refrained himself from doing so.

Ever since the last time he and Hana had an argument and he had physically hurt her badly, he had promised to himself that he would just leave her alone. He knew he was a violent person once he was emotional. And he didn't want to hurt Hana anymore. So he had decided it was better if he just stayed away from her.

“Hana . . . .” Ji-Young uttered. “You're crying again?”

“No . . . .” Hana replied as she quickly wiped away her tears.

“You're thinking about him again? Just let it go . . . .He's obviously forgotten you . . . . Have you seen his face? He's happy with Yun Hee right now,” Ji-Young said as she gently stroke Hana's hair.

“I'm okay . . . . So don't worry,” Hana said to Ji-Young.

“Okay? Are you kidding? Have you seen your face lately? Frankly you look like a ghost now . . . . You're very pale . . . and you look like you're sick or something. I told you you're lacking in proper sleep and rest . . . .” Ji-Young commented.

Hana looked at her friend. Ji-Young still didn't know about her condition. She didn't want to tell her she was pregnant because she knew once Ji-Young found out, she would certainly make a big argument over it.

Hana was still very confused on what to do. She knew in a month or so, she no longer would be able to hide the fact that she was pregnant. Her belly was already growing . . . . but she just kept on hiding it with the clothes she was wearing.

Hana looked at Ji-Young again. She knew her friend would ber very angry with her once she knew she had kept a secret from her.

“What are you thinking about?” Ji-Young asked Hana.

“Nothing . . . .” Hana replied and then she tried to smile.

Ji-Young looked at Hana. She was very worried with her friend. She knew she was keeping something from her. But she didn't want to force her. She wanted Hana to tell her what was bothering her when she was finally ready to talk about it.

Several minutes later . . . . Hana's professor finally arrived. All the students went back to their proper seats and everyone suddenly became quiet.

“Hana . . . . can you please come here for a minute. I have a question regarding what you answered on the exam yesterday . . . .” the professor said.

Hana immediately stood up and was about to take a step . . . . when she started feeling like her whole world was swaying. She was feeling very dizzy . . . . She then looked at her professor. She could tell he was saying something but she couldn't understand. Her world was spinning . . . . and within seconds . . . . she totally passed out.

TOHOSHINKI 3RD LIVE TOUR "T" 2008 SCHEDULE

TOHOSHINKI 3RD LIVE TOUR ‘T’ 2008
2008.3.19 Yokohama Arena 17:30~18.30
2008.3.20 Yokohama Arena 15:00~16:00
2008.3.26 Osaka Castle Hall 17:30~18:30
2008.3.27 Osaka Castle Hall 17:30~18:30
2008.4.01 Fukuoka Marine Messe 17:30~18:30
2008.4.12 Hiroshima Green Arena 17:00~18:00
2008.4.15 Japan Gaishi Hall (formerly: Nagoya Rainbow Hall) 17:30~18:30
2008.4.16 Japan Gaishi Hall (formerly: Nagoya Rainbow Hall) 17:30~18:30
2008.4.19 Sendai: Hot House Super Arena (Grandy 21) 17:00~18:00
2008.4.26 Makomanai Sekisui Heim Ice Arena 17:00~18:00
2008.5.03 Saitama Super Arena 17:00~18:00

March 29 (Sat) - Osaka Jo Hall
March 30 (Sun) - Osaka Jo Hall
April 13 (Sun) - Hiroshima Green Arena
April 20 (Sun) - Sendai Hot House Super Arena
May 5 (Mon) - Saitama Super Arena
May 6 (Tues) - Saitama Super Arena

Jaejoong (3rd Live Tour) (Clap).avi

U-Know Dancing.avi

This is a cute video I found with U-Know dancing. It really is very cute........

Online Now (Fan Fiction) (Chapter 23)

 

CHAPTER 23

 

The DBSK boys had just arrived at their apartment. As soon as they entered, they immediately noticed that everything had been cleaned and arranged. And there was the aroma of food coming from the kitchen.

They hurriedly went to the kitchen. There they found Hana already preparing dinner just like she always does.

Max’s heart somehow stopped. He was feeling so sorry for Hana. Then other DBSK boys looked at Hana and then at Max. They all knew that Max had already confessed everything to Hana. And seeing Hana now . . . . they all pitied her. Their hearts were aching as they watched Hana.

“Hana . . . . what are you doing here?” Jaejoong asked.

“I’m preparing your dinner . . . . for the last time,” Hana replied. She tried to hold back her tears and she tried to smile.

“Hana . . . .” Max uttered. His heart was hurting so much. He didn’t like seeing Hana in such a pitiful situation.

“I’ve already cleaned and arranged all your things. . . .Jaejoong . . . I’ve already made a list of some of the things that you need to take care of after I’m gone. And I’ve also made a list of the recipes that you’ve been asking me about. And I’ve also bought a nice cookbook I saw . . . . I already placed it on you bed,” Hana said with a smile.

Jaejoong just nodded. He couldn’t say anything. He was trying to control himself from crying.

“U-Know . . . . I’ve bought a new cds of your favorite singers. . . . .Xiah . . . . Micky . . . . I’ve also bought some new dvds for you to watch and some new video games . . . . I hope you will like them. I’ve already placed them on your beds as well,” Hana said.

“Hana . . . .” Micky and Xiah both uttered.

“Thank you everyone for accepting me and treating me nicely. I will never forget all of you. Thank you for all the memories,” Hana said as her tears finally fell one by one.

Xiah, Micky, U-Know and Jaejoong couldn’t control themselves anymore.

“Max . . . .is this really what you want?” Jaejoong asked angrily.

“You’re hurting Hana all because of that Yun Hee?” Xiah asked.

“Max . . . .now I am wondering if you even have a heart . . . .or if you really know what the word love truly means,” Micky said.

“We don’t want to interfere but it really hurts us to see both of you end up like this,” U-Know said.

Hana looked at the DBSK boys.

“You don’t have to be angry with Max. He was honest with me . . . . that is the most important thing of all. And I thanked him for it. I want him to love me and not pity me. So it is better if we separate now . . . . or it will be more painful in the end,” Hana said.

Suddenly someone entered the kitchen.

“Max . . . .I forgot to give you back your cell phone. The door was open . . . .so I just came in . . . . I hope you don’t mind,” Yun Hee said as she entered the kitchen.

Everyone’s attention suddenly focused on Yun Hee. Hana tried to wipe away her tears.

Max looked at Yun Hee and then at Hana. His heart was breaking as he saw the hurt in Hana’s eyes.

Yun Hee had immediately felt the tension as soon as she entered the kitchen.

“Am I interrupting something?” Yun Hee suddenly asked. She already knew who Hana was. Max had already told her about Hana.

Hana tried to smile.

“No . . . . you’re not interrupting anything. I was just about to leave anyway,” Hana replied. She hurriedly grabbed her bag from the kitchen table.

Hana slowly walked up to Max. She looked straight into his eyes. It was the last time she was going to see him. Hana smiled. Then she slowly and lovingly kissed Max for the very last time. As she kissed him her tears started to fall again.

Max’s body felt numb. He wanted to hold her . . . . but there was something holding him back.

Hana then looked at Max again after kissing him. Tears were already streaming down her face.

“Thank you Max. Thank you for all the memories . . . . Now I am letting you go . . . . You’re free now Max . . . . Please take care of yourself . . . . and I hope you will be happy . . . . Goodbye Max . . . .” Hana said as she slowly walked out.

Max’s mind and heart were screaming Hana’s name. He wanted to run after her. Somehow he wanted her back in his life.

But Yun Hee suddenly grabbed Max’s arm and she suddenly held his hand. Max couldn’t do anything. It was really over. He had to accept it.

As soon as Hana stepped out of the apartment, she started to run. She didn’t want anyone to see her cry.

Somehow even the sky wanted to cry with her. As she walked down the road, rain started to fall. The rain drops tried to hide the tears continuously flowing from her eyes. The pain in her heart was too much that she wanted to cry out. She wanted to scream and let out all the pain she was feeling.

“I love you Max . . . . I hope you’ll be happy with Yun Hee. I am sorry . . . . I never got the chance to tell you about our baby. I am sorry . . . . that you will never know. I promise I will take good care of our baby. . . . Just always remember . . . . . I love you Max . . . . Goodbye . . . . “ Hana thought as she continued to walk further and further away from Max’s life.

Online Now (Fan Fiction) (Chapter 22)

 

CHAPTER 22

“Hana . . . .” a voice called out.

Hana looked around she had just got off from work, when she saw a familiar figure waiting for her again on the side of the store.

Hana smiled. “Max . . . . what are you doing here?”

“Waiting for you . . . .” he replied.

“You should have just gone to bed . . . .” Hana said with a sweet smile.

Max looked at Hana. Somehow he couldn't bear to break he heart. She was too precious to be treated in such a heartless way. But he knew he had to do it. She would get hurt more if he prolonged what was definitely inevitable.

Max smiled. “I . . . I needed to talk with you . . . that's why I came.”

“I see . . . .what about?” Couldn't we just talk about it on the computer or on the phone perhaps?” Hana asked.

Max shook his head. “No! I need to talk with you personally. It is something very important.”

“Come on . . . . we can talk on the way home or at home . . . . you choose,” Hana said cheerfully.

Hana had already sensed that something was wrong. It has been more than a month since Max and Yun Hee started to work together. And ever since then, Max had spent less time with her. There were times during her days off that she would just find Xiah, Micky, U-Know and Jaejoong were the only ones waiting for her. Max always went out to go to practice with Yun Hee. She knew it was work and she understood Max's side. But somehow her heart was telling her something else . . . . something she didn't want to know. She was already seeing the truth but she just kept on denying it. She was too afraid to know what was really going on. She just pretended to be blind about everything . . . . She was too afraid that her heart wouldn't be able to handle it. She loved him too much . . . . and she didn't want to let him go . . . . especially not now . . . she was carrying their child.

On the way to Hana's house . . . .Max stayed silent. He was still trying to figure out how to tell Hana.

“We're here . . . . Max. Let's talk inside,” Hana said.

Max quietly followed Hana into the house.

“We can talk here . . . .” Hana said as she gently sat down.

Max sat down infront of Hana.

“I have to do this . . . . for everyone sake,” Max told himself.

“So what is it that is so important that you have to talk to me personally?” Hana asked with a fake smile.

“I . . . . I . . . .” Max uttered. Somehow he couldn't find the right words to say.

“Max . . . .”

“I'm sorry . . . “ he softly said.

“Sorry for what?” Hana asked.

“Sorry . . . . I'm sorry . . . .Hana . . . . But I think I may have already fallen in love with Yun Hee,” Max was finally able to say.

Hana couldn't believe what she was hearing. She felt like it was the end of the world for her. How could she tell him now about the child . . . .their child, she suddenly thought. She tried to hold back her tears.

“Fallen in love? Are you sure you're already in love with her? There is a big difference between wanting and loving . . . Max . . . “ Hana said as she tried to control herself.

“I'm sorry . . . .But these passed few days . . . . we have already grown close . . .And we can see and feel that we both have special feelings for each other,” Max replied.

Hana's tears started to form. “I see . . . so the reason why you're breaking up with me is because you want to be with her . . . I understand.”

“Hana . . . .I'm sorry. I don't want to hurt you . . . But it just happened . . . .” Max said. He already saw the tears starting to form in Hana's eyes.

Hana shook her head. “It's okay . . . . I'm fine.” Slowly the tears started to fall one by one.

“Hana . . . .” Max uttered. His heart was slowly breaking as he saw her tears falling. How he wished he could take back everything that he had said. He couldn't bear to see her so hurt.

Hana looked at Max. She couldn't bear not to see him . She didn't know if she can live without him. But she knew she had to let him go. She couldn't force him into a relationship he no longer wanted. Now she knew the truth . . . and where she should stand.

Hana smiled. “Thank you . . . Max. Thank you for being honest with me. Thank you for telling me the truth . . . . Thank you for keeping you promise.”

“Promise?” Max asked. He couldn't remember any promise that he made.

“Remember . . . .I made you promise me that if you ever fell in love with someone else . . . you would tell me . . . Now . . .you have kept that promise . . . so I am thanking you . . . “ Hana said as tears continued to flow form her eyes.

Max couldn't help but cry as well. Seeing Hana cry was breaking his heart into pieces.

“Sorry . . . Hana . . . . Sorry ,” Max uttered.

Hana suddenly embraced Max. This was going to be the last time she could hold him in her arms.

“I love you . . . . Max . . . And I am willing to let you go . . . . But please . . . .give me more time to accept this,” Hana said as she cried uncontrollably.

Max felt like his heart was going to explode. He suddenly felt like he wanted to hold Hana forever in his arms. He still loved her. But then he suddenly thought about Yun Hee. How he wished he didn't have to choose. How he wished he could just divide his heart into two. He didn't want to hurt Hana . . . but he wanted the chance to love Yun Hee.

Max felt like he wanted to die right at that moment. He couldn't bear seeing Hana cry. But everything has been finished . . . . and no matter what he did . . . . he can never undone it. He has already hurt Hana more than anyone can ever do.

Online Now (Fan Fiction) (Chapter 21)

 

CHAPTER 21

 

Days passed, and Max and Yun Hee's project finally started.

At first, Max felt very uneasy interacting with Yun-Hee. But because she was very sweet and friendly, Max finally learned how to be comfortable with her.

A month had already passed . . . .

“Max . . . .no . . . . no . . . . you should try singing the song like this . . . .” Yun-Hee said with a laugh.

Max laughed also. “ I think it sounds better if I sing it like this . . . .” Max started to sing.

Yun-Hee looked at Max, with love in her eyes.. She was already in love with Max. Before she thought it was a simple crush or infatuation. But now she was very sure . . . she was already in love with him.

Max then looked at Yun Hee. He couldn't understand why but he felt like he was already too close to her. Somehow whenever he looked at Yun Hee, he couldn't stop himself from being attracted with her. He was already thinking that he maybe starting to fall in love with her.

He knew what he was feeling for Yun Hee wasn't right. He was already feeling very guilty whenever he was talking or chatting with Hana. He already wanted to tell Hana the truth and ask her forgiveness. But he couldn't do it. Hana had been very god to him and all his friends. He couldn't hurt her. He still loved her . . . .but there was still the fact that he was attracted to Yun Hee. And Yun Hee obviously was attracted to him as well. How he wanted to stop and just forget about what he was feeling for Yun Hee. And just go back to the way it was before with Hana. Max was so confused. He didn't know what to do.

He knew he was already neglecting Hana just because of Yun Hee. He had been spending much more time with her than with Hana these passed few days. He felt guilty and sorry for Hana. He never intended to hurt her in anyway. And now . . . . he knew once she learns the truth . . . .he will eventually hurt her. He was afraid of that day . . . . he was wishing that day would never come. The day when he would be forced to tell Hana that he had started to have feelings for someone else. He didn't want to see her cry. Just thinking of her crying made his heart ache.

“Max . . . .Let's go home already,” Jaejoong shouted.

Max suddenly went back to reality, and stopped everything he was thinking. All he could think about was he needed to decide and do the right thing. He didn't want to end up hurting Yun Hee and Hana both at the same time.

The other DBSK members had all been waiting patiently for Max for over an hour. He had been practicing with Yun Hee since morning. The other DBSK boys have already noticed the instant closeness and sweetness that Max and Yun Hee suddenly developed. They were all concerned with the way Max was treating Yun Hee. They were sensing that Max was somehow starting to fall for Yun Hee.

They all pitied Hana. They knew Max had been neglecting her all because of Yun Hee. And they were all angry at Yun Hee and Max as well. They have decided that it was time that they talked with Max. They couldn't stand around and watch anymore. They were all afraid of what would happen once Hana found out the truth. They were all afraid of Hana getting hurt. Sh had constantly been patient and understanding regarding Max's sudden change. She thought it was all because of work . . . .she would never have guessed it was all because of Yun Hee.

As soon as the DBSK boys arrived at their apartment, Jaejoong spoke out everything on his mind. He was already very upset with the way Max was treating Hana.

“Max . . . you do know that we all love you and support you . . . right? But this time . . . you're going a little bit too far . . . . Do you even know what you're doing right now?” Jaejoong asked with so much emotion. It was as if he was going to explode any minute.

“Hyung . . . . “ Max uttered.

“Don't you know that we've already noticed that you've been spending more time with Yun Hee than with Hana. Don't you think you're being too unfair? You have a responsibility to your girlfriend . . . and your girlfriend is Hana . . . not Yun Hee!” Jaejoong said again.

Max didn't know what to say. He knew that the other DBSK members would eventually notice his sudden change towards Hana. He knew what he was doing was very unfair. But he didn't know what else to do. He was totally confused on whether or not to tell Hana the truth.

“Hyung . . . . I'm a bit confused right now,” Max suddenly uttered.

“Confused? You mean . . . yo do have feelings for Yun Hee?” Xiah asked as if unable to believe what he was hearing.

“Yes . . . “ Max softly replied.

“Max! How could you? Before when you still didn't know anything about falling in love . . . we always thought that you would eventually end up marrying the first girl you will fall in love with. But now . . . . I guess we were wrong. . . . very wrong,” Micky said as he gently shook his head as if unable to believe also.

“Sorry . . . hyung,” Max uttered.

“Sorry? Sorry? The one you should be saying sorry to is not us but Hana,” Xiah said irritatedly.

“Max . . . what are you planning to do now?” U-Know suddenly asked.

“I . . . I . . . I don't know,” Max replied.

“Are you really sure that you even like this Yun Hee? Maybe you're just attracted to her because she's obviously seducing you, “ Micky said.

Max shook his head. “I don't know. . . . I'm confused on what I really feel right now . . . both for Yun Hee and Hana. I know I love Hana . . . but I also know that I have feelings for Yun Hee.”

“You can't have two girls in your life Max . . . .that's too unfair for everyone,” U-Know commented.

“I Know . . . .” Max uttered.

“Frankly . . . I'm quite disappointed with you Max. I never imagined that once you learn how to fall in love . . . . you will eventually fall in love . . . here and there. It's just so disappointing seeing you like this,” Jaejoong said.

“Hyung. . . .” Max said. He didn't know what else to say. He knew everything the other DBSK members were saying were right.

“The best thing to do now is to try to sort out what you really feel for both Hana and Yun Hee. You have to decide Max. You can't have them both. If you wait any longer, you'll just end up hurting both of them. So better decide now . . . . who you really like . . . . Yun Hee or Hana,” U-Know advised Max.

“But . . . I don't know want to hurt Hana,” Max suddenly exclaimed.

“So you mean you're really dumping Hana for that Yun Hee?” Xiah asked angrily.

“Xiah . . . calm down,” U-Know said.

“How can I calm down? Hana has been so good to all of us . . . and this is what she gets? “ Xiah said.

“I'm sorry . . . hyung,” Max said again.

“Sorry? Say that to Hana when she's already crying . . . .” Xiah said sarcastically.

“Would choosing Hana make you guys happy?” Max suddenly asked. He was totally confused. He didn't want his friends to be angry with him. He felt very lost.

“Yes . . . it would certainly make us happy . . . But only if it is what you really want . . . “ U-Know answered.

“All I can say is be true to yourself Max. Choose the girl who you really want. Because that is the right thing to do . . . .” Jaejoong said.

“I . . . I . . . I don't know how to tell Hana,” Max said.

“Just tell the truth. Yes . . . . she will be hurt now. But she will eventually learn to accept it,” U-Know said.

“Just do us a favor Max . . . . When you do finally tell her the truth . . . . Please be gentle with her,” Xiah said as he looked at Max.

Xiah, Jaejoong, Micky and U-Know all loved Hana. They all cared about her like the way they cared about Max. They all felt sorry for her. How they wished they could just make Max forget Yun Hee and just go back to her. But they all knew that they couldn't do it. Max already had decided but was just too afraid to do anything about it.

The four DBSK boys were all afraid of what was going to happen next. They all knew that the next time that they see Hana may also be the last.