I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 15)

CHAPTER 15

 

 

            The rain continued to pour as Jaejoong and Lena quietly held each other.

 

            Suddenly . . . Lena started to shiver. Jaejoong immediately released her from his embrace and worriedly looked at her.

 

            “I think it's time we head back to the apartment,” he uttered.

 

            Lena smiled. “I'm fine . . . . Don't worry.”

 

            “You might get sick if we stay out in the rain any longer. You're already shivering. . . . Come on . . . .” Jaejoong said as he held out his hand to her.

 

            Lena looked at the hand in front of her . . . . He heart was beating very fast. . . . Slowly she reached out and held on to it . . . .

 

            Jaejoong smiled as soon as he held Lena's hand.

 

            “Come on . . . . Let's hurry . . . .” he said as he gently pulled her.

 

            Jaejoong and Lena started to ran back to the apartment . . . . while holding each other's hand. Somehow right at that moment . . . . their hearts were beating as one.

 

            They had already arrived at the apartment building when Jaejoong suddenly remembered something.

 

            “Do you still remember the time when we were little . . . . we went out to play in the park . . . . but suddenly it rained . . .?” Jaejoong asked.

 

            “And then we ended up running back to your house, even if the rain was pouring hard . . . and then we both ended up being scolded by your mother because we were both drenched in the rain . . . .” Lena continued to tell what happened as if it was only yesterday.

 

            Jaejoong nodded happily. “I could still remember my mother's face when she saw us . . . .” he said with a smile.

 

            Lena smiled as well. “Your mother was very nice . . . . she immediately helped me to change my clothes . . . .”

 

            “Yes . . . . my mother loved you like you were her daughter . . . .” Jaejoong uttered. “I remember I asked her why she took care of you first . . . . before she took care of me . . . .Do you know what she answered?”

 

            “What?” Lena asked curiously.

 

            “She said you were a part of our family . . . and since she knows that you're very fragile . . . That's why she took care of you first,” Jaejoong answered.

 

            Lena smiled again. “ Jaejoong . . . .” she slowly uttered.

 

            “Why?” he asked.

 

            “Thank you . . . .” she uttered.

 

            “Thank you for what?” he asked again.

 

            “For  . . . . everything . . . For searching for me, even if it was raining. . . . For trying to understand . . . . For not being mad . . . . For being my friend . . . . “ she said as she looked straight at his eyes.

 

            Jaejoong smiled sweetly. Then he gently caressed Lena's face . . . .”I can never get mad with you . . . . . And you don't have to say thank you for anything.”

 

            Lena felt the warmth of Jaejoong's hand as he caressed her face. She couldn't stop herself. . . . but her heart was somehow rejoicing. Everything was almost perfect . . . . The only thing missing was for her to see love in Jaejoong's eyes.

 

            Lena smiled bitterly as she suddenly turned away from Jaejoong. She was day dreaming again. She knew she had to teach herself to finally accept the truth.

 

            Sadness suddenly filled her heart . . . . She knew she will never have the chance to see love in his eyes.

 

            “Let's go . . . . I . . . . I'm already cold,” Lena suddenly said. She just made up an excuse so she could  break away from Jaejoong.

 

            Jaejoong looked at Lena. Her sudden change had somehow made him very confused. He somehow understood what was happening to her and why she was acting in such a way. But he still couldn't stop himself from being confused and disturbed.

 

            They silently went to Lena's apartment. It was as if their special moment in the rain had never happened.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly felt the coldness and it was hurting him just seeing Lena being distant with him.

 

            The moment they stepped into the apartment. . . . .

 

            “Hyung . . . .”

 

            “Lena . . . . “

 

            Xiah, Micky, Max and U-Know hurriedly went up to Jaejoong and Lena.

 

            “You're both very wet . . .” Xiah said with concern.

 

            “I'll get some towels . . .” Micky said as he hurriedly searched for towels in the bathroom.

 

            After a few minutes, he returned with two towels in hand. He immediately gave one of the towels to Jaejoong, and then he gently wrapped the other towel over Lena. He was very concerned with her.

 

            Jaejoong was looking at Micky and Lena. And somehow he couldn't stop himself from feeling jealous. He didn't want Micky beside Lena. . . . . He felt he didn't want to see Lena beside any other man except him.

 

            He was already going mad. He couldn't understand why he was feeling that way. He didn't want to become jealous just because of Micky. . . . He was his friend. . . . And he knew he had no right to be jealous. He wasn't Lena's boyfriend or fiancee . . .

 

            “I have no right to be jealous . . .” Jaejoong kept on telling himself.

 

            Jaejoong sighed heavily. “I'm going back to our apartment to change my clothes . . . . Can you guys stay here with Lena?”

 

            “Sure . . . . hyung . . . .” Max answered.

 

            Jaejoong hurriedly left Lena's apartment. He was feeling very guilty because of the fact that he was jealous with Micky.

 

            He entered his room . . . . with his mind all messed up. He laid down on his bed. Somehow he felt so tired. His whole body was wet . . . . but he didn't care.

 

            He closed his eyes. His mind and his heart were all running in different directions. His mind was being rational while his heart was being emotional.

 

            “Aaaaahhhhh!!!” he shouted to let out his frustrations.

 

            “If you're feeling something for her, then you should try to be true to yourself . . . .admit it . . . . and let her know . . . . “ a voice suddenly said.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly opened his eyes and sat on his bed.

 

            U-Know was leaning on the door of his room and was looking at him, with a serious expression on his face.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly cupped his face with his hands. He was totally confused.

 

            “What are you talking about?” he then asked U-Know.

 

            “Still trying to deny . . . . I see . . . .” U-Know uttered with a smile.

 

            “Denying . . . . what?” Jaejoong asked again.

 

            “You're denying that Lena means more than a friend to you . . . .” U-Know said.

 

            “I . . . . I'm still . . . . undecided about that,” Jaejoong slowly uttered.

 

            U-Know suddenly approached Jaejoong. And then he sat down beside him on the bed.

 

            “She's a nice girl . . . . And we can all see that she's not happy with her pre-arranged marriage with Daichi. Frankly, I sympathize with her. If I were put in that kind of situation . . . . I wouldn't know what to do . . . .” U-Know said.

 

            Jaejoong sighed heavily again. “I know . . . and I can feel her sadness . . . and somehow it's hurting me seeing her in such a pitiful situation.”

 

            U-Know looked straight at his friend. “Tell me . . . . what's wrong? . . . .Why can't you let out your true feelings? I know that something is preventing you from being true to yourself . . . .”

 

            “I'm confused . . . .” Jaejoong uttered.

 

            “I know you're confused . . . . but aside from your so-called confusion . . . . I know something else is bothering you . . . .” U-Kmow said.

 

            Jaejoong stared at his friend. U-Know was right . . . .something else was holding him back.

 

            Jaejoong smiled bitterly. “Frankly . . . aside from being a singer . . . . there is nothing else I can be proud of . . . Lena comes from a very wealthy family, while I come from an ordinary one . . . . She's an only child . . . So she's basically going to inherit all her parents' businesses later on . . . . While I don't have anything to expect from my parents . . . . She finished her studies abroad, while I haven't even finished high school. She's lived her whole life in a pampered and secured environment . . . while I have already experienced a lot of hardships . . . .” he suddenly smiled again as he was thinking of Lena. “You have seen Daichi . . . compared with him . . . . I am nothing.”

 

            U-Know shook his head. He was right. . . . His friend was really hiding other reasons for controlling his emotions for Lena. “Jaejoong . . . .love isn't based on the things you have in your life like money, wealth, educational attainment or social status . . . . love just happens . . . . Most of the time . . . . you just fall in love without even knowing it. You say you can't fall in love with her because she's your best friend. But frankly . . . . looking at now . . . . I can say that you're already in love with her. You're just denying it.”

 

            Jaejoong tried to laugh. But his heart was already aching. “There was a time when my mother talked with me seriously regarding my relationship with Lena. I was already fifteen then . . . . I arrived in our house with Lena. We were both very wet because we ran home even if it was raining. That time . . . . no one was home except us. Lena was already shivering and coughing. So I was very worried. I didn't know what to do. I got some of my own clothes and asked her to change her clothes. She immediately went to my room to change. But almost fifteen minutes passed, and she didn't come out of the room. I started to worry. I knocked on the door continuously . . . while asking her if she was all right. But she didn't reply. I forced the door open . . . and I found her unconscious and naked on the floor. At first, I was shocked. I was confused on what to do. But I knew I had to help her first. I immediately carried her to my bed . . .  then I put on the dry clothes that I gave her. While I was putting  on her clothes . . . . my fingers were trembling . . . . my whole body was trembling. I had  already finished putting on her clothes and was already arranging the bed when my mother arrived,” Jaejoong stopped talking.

 

            “And?” U-Know asked.

 

            “When she entered the room . . . . she was shocked to see Lena's wet clothes on the floor of my room. But then she also realized that Lena was unconscious . . . She immediately took care of her . . . But after making sure that she was all right . . . . It was then she asked me to step out of the room . . . and it was then she talked to me,” Jaejoong said.

 

            “What did you talk about?” U-Know asked curiously.

 

            Jaejoong tried to smile. He remembered everything like it was only yesterday.

 

            “At first . . . . she asked me what really happened. And I told her everything . . . from . . . us getting wet because of the rain up to the point when I also told her that I carried Lena to my bed and I also put on the clothes she was wearing. She said that I should have called for help . . . And I shouldn't have carried her mainly because of the reason that she was bare.”

           

            “What?” U-Know asked as if surprised. “So your mother expected you to just leave her like that?”

 

            Jaejoong shook his head as if very confused. “It was then my mother told me to never tell anyone about what had happened and what I had done. She said that she knew that I only wanted to help. . .  but Lena came from a very distinguished and wealthy family. If anyone else knew that I had actually seen her naked and had actually carried her while she was without clothes . . . . It would surely make a big issue in her family and in mine . . . .Lena's family might actually demand that I take responsibility for what happened and they might ask me to marry her . . . .” Jaejoong somehow smiled. Somehow he thought that marrying Lena wasn't such a bad idea. He then thought about what might have happened if he and Lena actually ended up being married during that time.

 

            “How can they do that? How can they ask you to marry her when you were only fifteen?” U-Know asked again.

 

            “I also asked my mother how Lena's family can ask me to marry her . . . when we were only fifteen . . . . But then she answered that they could arrange our marriage . . . . just like a pre-arranged marriage . . . so that we could get married when we reached the legal age,” Jaejoong answered.

 

            “Well . . . . frankly . . . . it doesn't sound that bad to me. I think she would have been much happier if she ended being in a pre-arranged marriage with you . . . .” U-Know said with a smile.

 

            “Well . . . . my mother . . . she had other thoughts in mind . . . . It was then she told me that she loved Lena like her own daughter . . . but she doesn't really think that she is fitted to be my wife,” Jaejoong stopped talking. Somehow what he had said caused his heart to ache.

 

            “She said that Lena came from a rich family. She had lived her life surrounded by luxury . . . . My mother said that I can never give or provide the things that Lena has been used to. We were just an ordinary family . . . . She also said that even though she loved Lena like her own daughter . . . . She can never accept her as a daughter-in-law. She can never fit into our kind of living . . . . It would be a cruel punishment for Lena to be married to someone who can't give her the things that she is used to . . . ." Jaejoong said sadly.

 

            "Sorry . . . . but don't you think that's a little unfair?" U-Know asked.

 

            Jaejoong smiled bitterly. "Yes . . . . I know . . . . but it was what mother said . . . . and she also made it clear to me the true reason why she didn't her to end up with me . . . ."

 

            "And that is?" U-Know asked.

 

            "First, her family will surely object to me having a relationship with her because of my state of living, and the fact that I am adopted. My mother said that Lena's family will surely find many faults in me that will surely hurt me. And aside from that she deserved someone who can give her the luxury that she is used to . . . . I will never be able to do that . . . . And frankly, she is right . . . .Even at my state of living right now . . . . I still can't compare with Daichi . . . . I can never give her what Daichi can . . . ." Jaejoong uttered sadly.

 

            "That's nonsense . . . ." U-Know said angrily.

 

            Jaejoong looked at his friend. He tried to smile . . . . but somehow his heart wasn't allowing him to even put on a fake smile.

 

            "My mother wanted her to have the best things in life . . . . and I also want that for her . . . ." Jaejoong uttered.

 

            "Even if it means . . . . that both of you will end up being miserable all your lives?" U-Know asked seriously.

 

            Jaejoong cupped his face again with his hands. He was really confused . . . . and tired. His mind  . . . . and especially his heart was very tired of . . . . everything.

 

I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 14)

 

CHAPTER 14

Jaejoong hurriedly ran out of the apartment building. He didn't know why but his heart was beating very fast.

The rain was pouring very hard. And within seconds, he went out of the building, he was already soaking wet.

He looked in different directions . . . he was hoping to see Lena. Jaejoong turned left and right . . . he didn't know where to go.

"Lena . . . where are you?" he uttered.

The rain continued to pour as Jaejoong continued to search for Lena.

Some people on the streets were already looking at Jaejoong. They knew who he was and they were all wondering what he was doing out in the rain.

But Jaejoong didn't care . . . . He wasn't concerned about himself . . . all he cared about was Lena. He knew right at that moment . . . she was already soaked in the rain as well. And he also knew that he needed to find her fast before something bad happens to her.

Jaejoong was already getting crazy with worry. He wanted to call out Lena's name. But he knew he couldn't do it. He was already attracting too much attention being out in the rain. He knew if he called out for her . . . he would surely make a bigger scene.

"Lena . . . ." he uttered as again as he continued to search for her.

He had already been searching for more than fifteen minutes. But he still couldn't find her.

"Where would she be?" he asked himself.

He couldn't understand why but he suddenly remembered the park where they both used to go when they were young.

His heart suddenly pounded. He immediately remembered that there was a park near their apartment building.

Jaejoong hurriedly ran in the opposite direction towards the park.

"Lena . . . please be there. Wait for me . . . please," Jaejoong uttered as he ran as if his whole life depended on it.

In the park . . . .

Lena was sitting on a bench. She was crying . . . but somehow the rain was hiding her tears. She stared blankly at the open space before her. She was already cold and soaked in the rain . . . but she didn't care.

The coldness of the rain was somehow numbing her heart. . . . She needed it . . . She was in so much pain. She was already wishing that she would die right at that moment.

Lena remembered the words that Jaejoong had said. She smiled bitterly. She said to herself that she would never expect him to fall in love with her. But hearing him say those words out loud were like pins stuck in her heart.

She started to cry uncontrollably. Her mind was already crowded with so many questions and so many regrets.

"I should have never fallen in love with you, Jaejoong . . . . then maybe everything would have been much more simple," she uttered as tears continued to fall.

Jaejoong was already out of breath . . . but he still kept on running. As soon as he arrived at the park,he immediately tried to look for her.

He was already going insane.

"Lena . . . ." he started to call her name.

He no longer cared about whether he was going to make a scene or not. He needed to find her . . . he wanted to find her.

"Lena . . . ." he called out again.

He continued to walk with a fast pace . . . . he turned his head left and right . . . . hoping to see her.

Then his heart suddenly skipped a beat.

A few meters away from him . . . . a familiar figure was sitting on a bench . . . It was Lena.

He could tell that she was still crying. She was sobbing uncontrollably . . . . and somehow seeing her in such a pitiful state was breaking Jaejoong's heart into pieces.

Slowly . . . . Jaejoong walked up to Lena.

"Lena . . . . " he softly uttered.

Surprised . . . . Lena looked up. She never expected to see him. He was standing right in front of her. He was already very wet. . . . the same way that she was. It was obvious that he had been out in the rain for a long time as well.

"Go away!" she uttered as she hurriedly stood up. She was about to walk away . . . when Jaejoong suddenly grabbed her arm.

"Let's talk . . .please . . . " Jaejoong said.

Lena stared back at Jaejoong. She tried hard to control her feelings. "Talk? We don't have anything to talk about . . . ."

"Yes . . . we do. . . . We need to talk . . . . about us," he replied.

"I don't want to talk with you . . . In fact, I never want to see you again," she said coldly.

Jaejoong tightened his grip on Lena's arm. He was determined to talk with her. He knew they needed to sort out her problem.

Jaejoong sighed heavily." Lena, please . . . . Listen to me . . . ."

"No!" she shouted.

Jaejoong's heart was aching. He could see that Lena was in so much pain. He wanted to comfort her . . . and he wanted to make her feel what he was feeling.

"Lena . . . ."

He suddenly pulled her into his arms. . . . then he embraced her tightly. Lena tried to break free from his embrace . . . . but he just held her tighter.

"Please . . . . let me hold you . . . ." Jaejoong begged.

Lena's heart somehow stopped the moment she heard him say those words. During the entire time that they knew each other . . . she had never. . . ever heard him beg anyone . . . for anything.

She closed her eyes . . . .and slowly eased her entire body. . . . Slowly . . . . she rested her head on Jaejoong's chest. . . . and slowly she returned her embrace.

"I'm sorry . . . if I've hurt you. . . But I'm quite confused on what I am feeling right now. I don't know if what I'm feeling for you is because of our friendship or. . . . because of love . . . I'm sorry . . . Please give me more time to discover my true feelings for you . . . . " Jaejoong uttered as he held Lena in his arms.

"But time is something . . . . I am already running out of Jaejoong . . . You don't have to be kind to me and tell me sweet things just to avoid hurting my feelings. I know . . . . you can never fall in love with me . . . . because if you were able to . . . . you would have fallen in love with me . . . a long time ago . . ." she softly said as the rain drops covered her tears.

Lena's tears were falling continuously. She knew that he was just being kind to her . . . She knew there was no way that he could ever love her back.

"Lena . . . ."

"Can you just hold me? Please . . . . You don't have to say anything . . . . You don't have to lie . . . . Just hold me . . . . I want to cherish this moment. Because I know I may never have the chance to hold you . . . and to be close to you like this again . . . . Even for a short time . . . . I want to experience what it feels like to have the man that I really love hold me," she said with a trembling voice.

Jaejoong tightened his embrace. He knew that Lena was crying again. He could feel her trying to control her sobbing.

Jaejoong gently caressed Lena's hair . . . and slowly he kissed her forehead.

He felt like his mind and heart were going to explode any moment. He was very confused. . . . confused on what he was really feeling for Lena . . . . and confused on what to do next.

Jaejoong closed his eyes as he embraced Lena. He felt like he wanted to hold her in his arms . . . . forever. It was as if . . . she was made to fit in his arms perfectly. But he still didn't know if what he was feeling was good enough as a reason to say that he loved her.

His heart was pounding . . . and aching. He had never fallen in love . . . so he had no idea of what love really was.

Lena knew and felt Jaejoong's confusion . . . Suddenly . . . .

"I love you, Jaejoong. . . . I love you, my friend . . . ." she softly uttered.

It was her last chance to say what she really felt about him. . . . and it was also her way of saying goodbye.

A RACE TO MY HEART (PREVIEW) (MAX'S NEW FAN FIC)

 

A RACE TO MY HEART (PREVIEW)

        The DBSK boys were already in the gathering. Everyone was already busy doing different things. Micky was already busy chatting with some girls. While Xiah, U-Know and Jaejoong were busy talking with other celebrities. As for the boys' manager, he was already talking with other managers of other stars.

        As for Max . . . .

        He wasn't in the mood for talking. He was interested in something else. He started to walk while turning his head, left and right. He was looking for something. Then after a few minutes, he stopped. He had already spotted what he was looking for.

        He immediately went up to the buffet table, and started to choose what foods to taste first. He was already eating an appetizer he had picked when . . . .

        "You should try that appetizer near the one you're eating now. It's quite good. I've already had five of it," a girl's voice suddenly said in fluent English.

        Max immediately looked at the girl. She was smiling at him. And instantly, his heart started to beat wildly. She was an Asian, about 5'10", with long black hair and a captivating face and figure.

        "You should try this," she said again in fluent English as she pointed at the food she was currently eating. "It's good."

        Max stared at the girl. She was very beautiful and obviously very nice. And somehow while she was smiling at him sweetly, his heart was pounding rapidly.

        The girl stared at Max for a few minutes. Then she laughed. "You don't understand me?" she asked in English while waiting for an answer.

        The girl giggled again. "I'm sorry. I should have spoken in Japanese right away. What I said earlier was that you should try that appetizer near the food that you just ate. It's quite good. In fact, I've already eaten five pieces of it," she said this time in  Japanese.

        Max suddenly laughed with what the girl had said. "Really? Then I should try it then," he said as he then picked up the appetizer the girl was recommending.

        After Max ate the appetizer the girl was suggesting, he immediately smiled back at her.

        "Thank you. It's really good. Do you think I can have some more?" he asked.

        The girl laughed. "Of course. We can have as many as we want. But we better try the other foods as well. Don't you think so?"

        "Yes, you're right. How about we try this one too?" Max asked as he pointed another appetizer.

        "Yes . . ." the girl said with a smile.

        Max and the girl started to taste the different foods on the buffet table. While eating, they were both exchanging comments on whether the food they ate was good or not, based on their food preferences.

        More than thirty minutes passed, Max was already enjoying his time with the girl that he didn't notice that Xiah, Micky, Jaejoong and U-Know were already watching him nearby.

        "Look at him! He's already met such a gorgeous girl and he's still busy eating," Micky said in disbelief.

        Jaejoong laughed. "Well the girl is busy herself . . . eating."

        "Yes, they're both enjoying chatting and eating," Xiah commented with a laugh.

        "It seems our little boy has finally found his match. I think that girl has a bigger appetite than him," U-Know said with a laugh as well.

        "Yes, I've noticed that. That girl really loves eating," Micky said with a nod.

        "Should we interrupt them?" Xiah suddenly asked.

        "Definitely . . . yes. Knowing Max, I'm guessing he still doesn't know the girl's name even if he's been with her for more than half an hour now," Micky answered.

        "Well, what are we waiting for? Let's meet Max's new friend," Xiah said with a laugh.

        The four DBSK boys slowly walked up to where Max and his new friend were.

        "Max . . . ." Micky called out.

        Max then looked at his friends and smiled. "Hyung . . ." he uttered.

        "We've been looking for you. So you've been busy eating huh?" Xiah asked.

        "Yes, the foods here are totally delicious," Max answered.

        "So who is your new friend?" U-Know suddenly asked.

       Max then stared at the girl he ahd been talking with. The girl was smiling at him.

        "Uhm . . . . We have been talking with one another for a very long time now. But we still haven't introduced ourselves to one another. I'm Max and you are?" Max said with a smile.

        The girl laughed lightly. "I was wondering when you were going to ask my name. I thought you were really more interested in the food we were eating than me," she said in Japanese.

        Xiah, Jaejoong, Micky and U-Know suddenly burst out laughing.

        Max suddenly blushed. "I'm sorry. I know it quite impolite. I only remembered to ask our name after my friends asked about you," he said shyly.

        The girl smiled sweetly. "It's okay. Don't worry about it. I was just joking with what I said earlier. Anyway . . . I'm Fate Nakamura. Nice meeting you . . . Max," she said as she gave out her hand to him.

        Max immediately reached out and shook hands with her. And the moment that his hand touched her hand, he instantly felt a strange feeling. He felt like he had held her hand before . . . and somehow he didn't want to let go of it.

       The girl suddenly smiled after noticing that Max had held her hand for a very long time already.

        The other DBSK boys also noticed Max. All of them wanted to laugh, but they just stopped themselves. They didn't want to embarrass their friend.

        "Hi! I'm Micky," Micky suddenly said to break Max's hand from Fate's hand.

        Then Jaejoong suddenly lightly nudged Max as if to make him come to his senses.

        "I'm Xiah . . ."

        "I'm U-Know . . ."

        "And I'm Jaejoong . . ."

        "Nice to meet all of you . . . So are you racers as well?" Fate asked.

        "You don't know who we are" Micky asked as if unable to believe.

        "No . . . sorry," she replied apologetically.

       "That's okay. We're not racers but singers. We're a group called Dong Bang Shin Ki. We're the ones singing the song for the commercial of the race," U-Know explained.

        "Oh, I see! I am really sorry. I just arrived in Japan today. So I am not familiar with the things going on," she said.

        "So are you a part of the crew of the race or are you from the media?" Xiah asked curiously.

        Fate smiled and gently shook her head. "No . . . I'm . . ."

        "Fate . . . ." a man's voice suddenly called out.

        Suddenly a man came up to them and immediately held Fate's hand. The man was an American, about 6'0 tall, blond, good-looking and with a well-built body.

        Max looked at the man. And then at the man's hand as it tightly held Fate's hand. Somehow his heart started to ache.

        "I've been looking for you. Come on . . . The program's going to start," the man said to Fate in English.

        "Sorry, I got hungry. And then I met some new friends. Their the ones doing the song for the race," Fate said to the man.

        The man then looked at the DBSK boys. " Sorry . . . but we've got to leave. Maybe you can talk again with Fate after the program," he then said in fluent Japanese.

        The DBSK boys didn't know what to say, so they just nodded.

        "Goodbye . . . Maybe we can continue chatting with one another after the program. Goodbye . . . Max," Fate said as she was gently being pulled away.

        Within seconds, Fate disappeared among a crowd of people. Max suddenly asked himself if he was really going to see her again.

        Then after several minutes, the program started. All the race car drivers in the competition were introduced, one by one.

        While the program was going on, Max's mind was being filled with questions concerning Fate. Somehow he wanted to see her again. But he knew it was somewhat impossible.

        Then lastly . . . the organizers introduced the only female driver in the race.

        Instantly . . . Max's attention was drawn to the stage.

        Max couldn't believe what he was seeing. The female racer everyone was talking about was no other than . . . . Fate.

I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 13)

CHAPTER 13

 

 

            It was already after lunch when Xiah, Micky, U-Know and Max decided to return to Lena's apartment. They knew they had already given enough time for Jaejoong and Lena to talk. They were already very curious as to what had happened to the two. They wanted to know if something romantic had occurred. They were already noticing the special feelings that their hyung had for his friend. And they had also observed the special care that Lena was giving Jaejoong.

 

            “Do you think it is wise that we disturb them?” Xiah asked the other DBSK boys while they were waiting outside Lena's apartment.

 

            “Well. . . . it's already lunch time, hyung. I'm hungry. We should disturb . . . if we all plan to eat,” Max answered.

 

            “What do you think they are doing right now?” Micky asked with a mischievous grin.

 

            “Hey . . .  hyung is not like you,” Max protested.

 

            Micky's eyes suddenly widened with shock. “And what do you mean by that?”

 

            “Nothing . . .” Max answered with a big grin.

 

            Micky just shook his head and continuously rang the door bell.

 

            “That's weird! Why haven't they opened the door yet?” U-Know asked with a worried look on his face.

 

            “Maybe . . . that only means . . . . we shouldn't disturb them,” Micky said again with a malicious grin.

 

            Max suddenly decided to lean on the door while waiting. He was already hungry and his hunger was making him very weak. As soon as  he leaned on the door, it suddenly opened.

 

            “Hey! The door’s open,” Max exclaimed.

 

            “Maybe Jaejoong didn’t close it after we left,” Xiah said.

 

            “Well . . . let’s see what those two are up to,” Micky uttered as he entered Lena’s apartment.

 

            “Maybe they are already finished cooking lunch,” Max said as he thought of the different dishes he was expecting to see.

 

            The four DBSK boys quietly entered Lena’s apartment. Once they entered the living room . . . . they were shocked with what they saw.

 

            “What’s this?” Micky asked.

 

            Lena and Jaejoong were still on the couch . . . . sleeping. Jaejoong was sleeping while in a sitting position and Lena was lying on his lap . . . sleeping soundly as well.

 

            Micky laughed. “Is this the romantic scene we were all expecting to see?”

 

            Xiah smiled. “Maybe . . . they both got tired of talking . . . so they just decided to sleep.”

 

            “Let’s go to the kitchen . . . . Let’s see if they already cooked lunch,” Max uttered while still hoping to see food.

 

            U-Know just shook his head. “Should we wake them up?”

 

            “No, I don’t think so,” Xiah replied.

 

            “Let’s just leave them alone,” Micky answered.

 

            “Yes. . . wake them up. . . I am starving already,” Max exclaimed.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly opened his eyes after hearing Max’s voice.

 

            “Huh? You guys are back?” he asked while still trying to control himself from yawning.

 

            “It’s already lunch time hyung,” Max announced.

 

            “Lunch time already? Sorry . . . . I haven’t cooked yet,” Jaejoong said.

 

            He was about to get up . . . . when he remembered that Lena was sleeping on his lap. He suddenly looked at her. After seeing that she was still asleep, he gently caressed her hair.

 

            “Can one of you help me? I need to get up. But be careful . . . I don’t want to wake her up,” Jaejoong said to the other DBSK boys.

 

            Micky immediately took Lena in his arms. “Should I bring her to her room?” he asked while still carrying her.

 

            “Yes . . .” Jaejoong replied.

 

            Jaejoong immediately led Micky to Lena’s room.

 

            While Micky was carrying Lena, he couldn’t avoid but look at Lena’s beautiful face. She was like an angel sleeping in his arms.

 

            U-Know suddenly nudged Micky. Jaejoong was already looking at Micky with a weird expression on his face.

 

            Jaejoong arranged Lena’s bed as Micky gently placed her down. After making sure that Lena was still sleeping soundly and comfortably, Jaejoong and the other DBSK boys finally left her room.

 

            Jaejoong went straight to the kitchen and hurriedly cooked. He didn’t want Lena to wake up and still find him cooking. He knew that she would surely help him, and he didn’t want her to get tired.

 

            He finished cooking lunch in just fifteen minutes. He knew that the other DBSK boys were already hungry. So he hurriedly set the table.

 

            They were already eating when Max suddenly remembered something.

 

            “Aren’t we going to wake Lena up? Isn’t she supposed to have lunch with us?” Max asked the others.

 

            “Just let her sleep . . . I’ll take care of her when she wakes up,” Jaejoong answered.

 

            “You’re really very sweet with her,” Micky commented.

 

            Jaejoong stared at Micky. “I’ve always been this way with her.”

 

            “So you mean . . .  you have special feelings for her?” Micky asked.

 

            Jaejoong laughed. ”Don’t be silly, we’re just friends.”

 

            “Everything starts at friendship . . . .” Micky uttered.

 

            “Hyung . . . . there’s nothing wrong with falling in love with a friend . . . . especially when it’s someone like Lena,” Max added.

 

            “She’s nice and pretty . . . what more can a guy ask for?” Xiah said with a smile.

 

            “And she seems to have special feelings for you as well,” U-Know said seriously.

 

            Jaejoong stared at his friends. “We’re just friends . . . . nothing more, nothing less. And besides, you’re all forgetting that she’s about to be engaged and married. . .”

 

            “That’s why we’re already reminding you of what we are seeing. We don’t want you to regret . . . in the end,” Micky said.

 

            “What you are seeing?” Jaejoong asked as if unable to believe what he heard. “Okay, tell me what are you guys seeing?” he asked again with a grin.

 

            “That you like her more than a friend . . . but you’re just too stubborn to admit it,” U-Know answered.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly glanced at U-Know. Then slowly he lowered his head. He started to contemplate on what U-Know had said. A part of him knew that what his friend was saying was true.

 

            “I can’t fall in love with her. What will her parents say? What will my parents and sisters say when they find out about it? I know they won’t approve of it. She’s a part of my family . . . I can’t fall for her. And the only reason why I care about her is because of our friendship,” Jaejoong said as he stared at the uneaten food in front of him.

 

            “Are you sure?” Micky asked again.

 

            “I don’t have any special feelings for her. In fact, I don’t feel anything for her. Isn’t a guy supposed to feel a special feeling for a girl on the very first time they meet? I have been with her for years now and I already know everything about her . . . that she’s like an open book. There’s no thrill and no special feelings between us. Honestly . . . I can never fall in love with her . . . . she’s just like my sister.” Jaejoong said.

 

            He was very confused on what his true feelings were. But I am not your sister . . . .” a voice suddenly said.

 

            The DBSK boys were all surprised. They immediately looked at the direction where the voice came from.

 

            Lena was standing near the door of the dining room. They were all surprised to see her crying.

 

            “Lena . . . .” Jaejoong uttered.

 

            “I’m not your sister . . . Jaejoong . . . And there’s nothing wrong with falling in love with a friend . . . I should know because . . . because I’ve already fallen in love . . . . with you . . . I have loved you for ten years now, Jaejoong . . .” Lena said as tears rolled down her eyes.

 

            Jaejoong was shocked. His mind went totally blank.

 

            “I love you Jaejoong. I have loved you for a very long time now . . . . And you’re the main reason why I don’t want to accept Daichi. I was waiting for you, Jaejoong. But now . . . after hearing you say those words. I guess I have to return to reality now,” she said as she tried to control herself.

 

            “Thank you . . . now . . . . I know what I really mean to you. I guess . . . it’s time for me to stop dreaming and waiting for you to love me. I’m sorry . . . but I just couldn’t stop myself. I fell in love with you . . . without even realizing it.”

 

            Lena smiled bitterly. “So now I guess . . .you’ll be avoiding me now? But I’m glad I’ve finally told you the truth. I am happy . . . that I was finally able to say what I truly feel. So after  confessing my love to you . . . . I guess this is also where our friendship ends. I’m sorry, Jaejoong,” Lena said as she quickly turned and left . . . while tears  streamed  down her face.

 

            Jaejoong’s heart was beating very fast.  He was very confused on what to do. And what he was really feeling.

 

            “Hyung . . . aren’t you going to talk with her?” Max asked Jaejoong.

 

            “Hyung . . . . “ Max uttered again.

 

            Jaejoong wanted to talk with Lena. But he didn’t know what to say or how to start their conversation. Now . . . . that he knew what Lena really feels for him, he was somehow unable to decide whether he could continue their friendship or not. His mind was going in different directions that he couldn’t think straight. He just continued to stare blankly at the table.

 

            The other DBSK boys were all silent as they watched their friend. They knew he was very shocked and confused. But they had already guessed that Lena had special feelings for Jaejoong the very first time they saw her. They saw how Lena looked at Jaejoong . . . how she cared for him. It was very obvious and impossible not to notice.

 

            It seems Jaejoong was the only one who couldn’t see . . . or more exactly, didn’t want to see . . . that Lena was in love with him. He was trying to deny everything, even his own feelings.

 

            Micky worriedly looked at Jaejoong, then at the door where Lena had just left. He then suddenly stood up and left the dining room. He went straight to Lena’s room . . . . but she wasn’t there. He also checked the other room, but she wasn’t there either. Micky searched Lena’s apartment . . . . but she was nowhere to be found.

 

            He then went to the dining room.

 

            “If you’re not worried about her . . . then fine. Just make sure that you’re prepared if something bad suddenly happens to her,” Micky said to Jaejoong while looking straight at him.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly lifted his gaze at Micky. “What do you mean?” he asked.

 

            “Lena’s left the apartment,” Micky answered.

 

            “Hyung . . . it’s raining outside. She’s already weak . . . she might get worse,” Max said with concern.

 

            “We should look for her,” Xiah said.

 

            “Jaejoong  . . . . pull yourself together. Can you please try to set aside everything that you have heard . . . We need to find Lena,” U-Know said as he gently tapped Jaejoong’s shoulder.

 

            Jaejoong looked at his friends. His mind was kind of blurry. He didn’t know what to say or think.

 

            “She might already be shivering in the rain right now. Let’s try to find her quickly,” Micky said.

 

            As  Micky said those words . . . Lena’s  image suddenly appeared in Jaejoong’s mind. He pictured her all soaked in the rain. . . . shivering . . . . walking aimlessly while crying.

 

            The though of Lena being in such a pitiful condition made  Jaejoong very worried. He hurriedly stood up and immediately ran out of the apartment. The only thing through his mind at that moment . . . . . was that he needed to find her fast.

I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 12)

CHAPTER 12

Lena looked at Jaejoong. . . . .

“I've missed you Jaejoong . . . .” she uttered.

As he heard those words, he immediately glanced at her.

Lena smiled. “We haven't seen each other for more than a year . . . . are we going to end up fighting now?”

“We have never fought . . . . even once . . . .” he uttered.

“Yes . . . it's because you've always been very patient with me,” she said as she laid down her head again on his shoulder.

“I need a friend now Jaejoong . . . please,” she suddenly said.

Jaejoong felt his heart was very heavy.

“I'm always your friend . . . I will always be your friend,” he said softly.

“Friend . . . .” Lena uttered. (“But I want you more than a friend . . . . I love you. I have loved you for years now . . . . Can't you see it? Can't you feel it?”) she asked in her mind.

“I'm concerned with you Lena. That's why I'm being emotional,” Jaejoong said.

“I know . . . . and thank you for your concern,” she replied.

“Lena . . . . about the guy that you like . . . who is he?” Jaejoong started to ask. His heart was pounding.

“He . . . he is just an illusion . . . someone I can never have . . . someone who will never love me in return,” she answered sadly.

“How did the two of you meet?” he asked again.

Lena smiled. “I met him when I was still young.”

Jaejoong's heart suddenly ached. “Don't tell me, he's one of the boys in our neighborhood.”

(“Should I tell him the truth? What if he suddenly withdraws from me?”) she asked herself.

“Lena . . . he's a boy from our place?” Jaejoong asked again. He wanted to make sure.

“Uhmm . . . . yes.”

Jaejoong felt his heart suddenly break inot two pieces. He suddenly closed his eyes. He didn't know why but somehow he wanted to cry. He was feeling very weak.

“I've finally fallen in love, Jaejoong. When we were still young, we would talk about falling in love right?” she then laughed. “You always said that the one you would fall in love with would be someone very special. Have you found her? Have you fallen in love Jaejoong?”

Jaejoong didn't know what to answer. Different questions and different emotions were making him very confused.

“No . . . I haven't,” he answered.

“Why?” she asked.

Lena closed her eyes. She knew her tears were about to fall. She was hurting deep inside. She knew it was very impossible. But she ws hoping that he would say yes and say that he was in love with her. She wanted to sob. But she still tried to control herself. She bit her lower lip as she tried to stop herself from crying.

“I still haven't found the right girl, I guess. That's why I haven't fallen in love yet. I always imagined that the moment I see that special girl . . . . I would instantly know . . . . at that exact moment . . . that she is the one for me,” he answered.

(“Why? Why can't you fall in love with me?”) she asked in her mind again.

Lena tried to hold herself back from crying. She needed to know . . . . she wanted to know what was on his mind.

“Jaejoong . . . you always said that you would never fall in love with a friend . . . . why?” she asked softly.

Jaejoong smiled. “You've asked me that question a million times already . . . Aren't you tired?”

“No . . . . I just wanted to know if maybe . . . . your view had changed,” she answered.

“I don't think my opinion about falling in love with a friend will ever change. For me, a friend will always be a friend. If I fall in love with a friend. . . . it's like falling in love with one of my sisters. It's not right . . . .” he said.

“So you still haven't changed your mind . . . . “ she softly uttered.

“Why are you asking me these things again?” he asked.

“Nothing . . . .”

“Does Daichi know that you're in love with another guy?” Jaejoong asked.

“Yes . . . .”

“And he doesn't mind? He's still going to marry you even though you're in love with someone else?” he asked as if surprised.

“I never lied to him . . . I told him everything . . . . So I guess he already accepted it,” she answered.

“He's really something . . . . If I were him . . . I wouldn't be able to go through with it,” he uttered.

“Yes . . . the two of you are really different,” she said sadly. (“What a sad fate we have . . . I love you but you don't love me . . . . Daichi loves me but I don't love him . . . . If I could only teach my heart who to love . . . . I would have done it a long time ago . . .”) she said in her mind.

“Daichi seems to be a nice guy after all . . . . But are you sure you're going to be happy with him?” he asked with a heavy heart.

“Do you have to ask that? Do you think a person could ever be happy with someone he or she doesn't love?” she replied.

“So you're saying that you know that you won't be happy with him?” he asked.

“The only person I can only be happy with is the one I am in love with . . . . “ she answered.

“Can you tell me who he is?” Jaejoong asked.

“Maybe someday . . . . you'll know . . . . But as of now . . . . I'm sorry . . . But I can't tell you who he is.”

Jaejoong opened his eyes. He stared blankly at the TV screen in front of them. He then gently reached out for Lena's hand.

Lena opened her eyes as well. She looked at her hand as Jaejoong gently clasped it with his hand. Her heart was beating very fast. If she could only stay close to him forever. She was willing to trade everything that she had for a chance to be with him.

Lena sighed. “Jaejoong . . . . what will you do if a friend suddenly confesses her love to you?”

Jaejoong's heart suddenly skipped a beat. “What?' What are you saying?”

“Let's say a friend . . . tells you that she's in love with you . . . . What would you do?” she asked again.

“I . . . I don't know. But I would surely become uncomfortable with her . . . . I would feel a little uneasy dealing with her, that's for sure . . . .” he answered.

“Just as I thought . . . . So you would basically be avoiding her after she confesses right?” she asked with sadness in her voice.

“I don't know how to interact with her after she tells me her feelings . . . . Frankly I never imagined a girl would ever do that. It is very degrading to a girl if she confesses to a guy first. For me . . . it is a little bit awkward. So yes . . . I think I would just avoid her after she confesses,” Jaejoong answered.

Lena sighed. She was right. She had already guessed what Jaejoong's reaction will be once he knew she treated him more than a friend. Now she knew . . . . she shouldn't tell him. . . . She could never tell him the truth. . . . .

Lena's tears started to fall one by one . . . . She wanted to tell him her true feelings . . . but she didn't want to lose him as a friend.