CHAPTER 24
“Are you okay?” Yunho asked as he carefully walked up to Jaejoong’s side.
Jaejoong tried to smile as he looked at his friend. “What are you doing here?” he asked.
“Looking for you,” Yunho simply replied. “We’re leaving in half an hour… Are you okay now? I wouldn’t want to be the one to stop you and Micky when you guys suddenly decide to rumble inside the van,” he added with a chuckle.
Jaejoong just nodded and continued to stare at the fountain in front of him as if he wasn’t himself. The scene of Ellie kissing Micky was still fresh in his mind and it was stabbing his heart over and over again.
Yunho saw the extreme sadness on his friend’s face. So he just placed his hand over his shoulder as a sign of sympathy and support. “Whatever you’re going through, just always remember that I will be here for you. The whole world might turn their back on you but I will always be behind you, watching out for you. As a matter of fact, not just me… but Max and Xiah as well. Be strong, you can get through this.”
Jaejoong felt the warmth and comfort that his friend was trying to send out and it easily made him cry. He had been trying so hard to hold everything inside. But he had finally lost and released all the emotions that were draining his strength.
“Don’t be like this… “ Yunho uttered as he gently moved closer and again started to pat Jaejoong’s back.
Unexpectedly, Jaejoong screamed. He needed to let out all his emotions. And slowly he fell down on his knees and started to weep without any care. He was feeling like the whole world had just condemned him and everything was so unfair.
Yunho shook his head and just silently stared as his friend released all the emotions he had been hiding for such a long time.
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Half an hour later… All the dbsk boys were already travelling back to their apartment. They were all inside their van.
Xiah, Max and Yunho felt the coldness and tension that was building between Jaejoong and Micky. But they were all torn. They didn’t want to take sides since both of them were their friends.
“Hyung, would you like to eat something or maybe you should take a nap while we’re travelling,” Max said to Jaejoong as he tried to start a conversation. Jaejoong gave his friend a quick glance and smiled. Somehow he didn’t have any appetite to eat and he wasn’t feeling sleepy either.
“It’s okay. I am not sleepy and I really don’t want to eat as well,” he simply replied.
Micky heard what Jaejoong said and instantly he felt guilt again. He tried to brush off the feeling that he was having. But it was like the feeling was constantly casting a shadow in his heart. So he just kept on telling himself that there was no reason for him to feel guilty about what he was doing. This is what Jaejoong wanted. This is what he asked for. If there was anyone to be blamed, it was him.
Yunho who was sitting beside Micky, looked at his friend with mixed emotions visible in his eyes. He didn’t want to say anything that could trigger a more tensed atmosphere inside the van. So all he could do was look and become a silent witness to everything.
Micky unexpectedly stared back at him and somehow frowned. He already knew what was running in U-Know’s mind. He didn’t need words to know what the other was feeling. He could easily see the disappointment in his eyes. And again he felt hurt… He didn’t want to see the dismay in his friends’ eyes. But the call of longing and love was stronger than his conscience. Again he tried to act cold and distant so to protect himself. He didn’t need his friends’ approval to do what he wanted. What was important is the fact that he was happy. He immediately settled himself in his seat and pretended to sleep. Pretending … was the only way he could escape. He then closed his eyes and tried to think of only one thing. Ellie…
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Hours later in Ellie’s apartment apartment….
“Are you sure about what you’re doing?” Samar asked with concern written all over her face.
Ellie smiled with sadness in her eyes. “Isn’t this what I had been longing for? Someone to actually love me… to really love me… I don’t think I would find a more suitable man for me,” she tried to lie.
“Oh Ellie… I just want you to know that I am 100% behind you. Whatever makes you happy, makes me happy as well. So just go and follow your heart,” Krizzia then uttered with a big smile on her face.
Ellie nodded. “I just hope that Micky won’t find out about my past. I don’t want him to know about who I am and about what happened to me…” she said as she unconsciously stared blankly at the piece of clothing she was trying to arrange.
Samar and Krizzia instantly exchanged glances with each other. Somehow they couldn’t hide the uneasy feeling that quickly entered their hearts.
“Don’t you think… it would be better if he knew?” Krizzia started to ask nervously. “No!” Ellie hastily shouted which made Samar and Krizzia more alarmed. “He doesn’t have to know… He can’t be allowed to know. If he learns about my past, he might despise me… Once is enough, I don’t want it to happen again…” she said in a weakening voice.
“Ellie, Micky is different. I don’t think he will change even if he knows about your past. I think he will still love you. So you don’t need to hide those things from him,” Samar tried to say.
“No! Don’t you even dare tell him… If you do, I promise I will do something you will never like,” Ellie said with a look that sent a cold and frightening feeling to both Samar and Krizzia.
“Ellie, stop scaring us! And what are you pertaining to?” Krizzia said with a raised tone as if to counteract the fear that she was feeling.
Ellie lowered her head and with a weak voice uttered something that totally frightened the other two girls. “This is going to be last time I am going to trust someone. If this relationship fails… I promise I will end my miserable life.”
Shocked, Krizzia and Samar shook their heads in disapproval of what they heard.
“Oh God! Please help us…. This is starting to be really dangerous,” Samar prayed so hard in her mind.
