I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 43)

CHAPTER 43

    "Do you think it's really wise to stay here?" Lena asked Daichi as she worriedly looked at the door of the room.

    "We don't have any choice. And besides we'll be staying here for only a short time . . . maybe two or three days will do. We just have to wait until things clears up. My men are already trying to fix everything. As soon as everything's fine, we can leave Japan again. IF . . . that is what you want . . ." Daichi said with hesitation.

    "Frankly I don't want to stay here. I'm afraid of staying so close to Jaejoong. What if he suddenly starts asking questions . . . like why I'm on a wheelchair?" Lena said worriedly.

    Daichi sighed. "Don't you think . . . it would really be better if he knew about what really happened to you? I think it would solve a lot of things."

    "No! I don't want him to pity me. He has his own life now. Let's just leave everything as it is. I know telling him the truth will only complicate things," she said as she rolled her wheelchair near the window. Then she sadly stared out at the sky. It was almost night time, and the stars were starting to appear.

    Daichi shook his head. His heart was somehow being crushed as he continued to watch Lena looking so pitiful. He then decided to just leave her alone. He slowly walked out of the room. He knew Lena needed some time alone to think. He then went straight to where the DBSK boys were sitting.  He instantly noticed that there was something wrong because of the expression on Jaejoong's face.

    "Micky . . . " Daichi uttered.

    Micky looked at Daichi and smiled. "Yes, what is it?"

    "Look . . . we don't want to cause any trouble. We can leave and . . ." Daichi started to say.

    "Nonsense . . . you and Lena can stay here as long as you like," Micky uttered.

    "I'm sorry for the inconvenience Xiah, Max, U-Know and . . . Jaejoong. I will try to fix our problem quickly so that we can leave your apartment as soon as possible," Daichi said as he faced the other DBSK boys.

    "Frankly, we're just shocked. Don't worry about us. And just like what Micky said, the two of you can stay here as long as you like. We are always willing to help," U-Know said as he secretly looks at Jaejoong's reaction.

    "Thank you guys. I think two or three days would be enough, and we can leave Japan again," Daichi uttered.

    "You're leaving again?" Max asked with a raised eyebrow.

    "Yes, there is no reason for us to stay here any longer," Daichi answered as he looked straight at Jaejoong.

    Jaejoong stared back at Daichi. He was about to say what was running in his mind, when Max suddenly asked something.

    "Daichi . . . why is Lena on a wheelchair? Is she sick or something?" Max asked curiously.

    Daichi exchanged glances with Micky.

    "She's suffered a bad sprain before going here . . . So she's on a wheelchair," Micky suddenly answered.

    "Oh . . . I actually thought something was wrong with her," Max said with a sigh of relief.

    Micky tried to laugh. "What could possibly be wrong with her. She's still the same Lena we all knew."

    "So Micky where will you sleep? You can stay in my room if you like," Xiah said with a smile.

    "I was really planning to ask you about that. Good thing, you already opened that topic," Micky said with a grin.

    Suddenly a phone started ringing. Daichi hurriedly took out his phone and answered it.

    Several minutes later . . . Daichi's expression had somehow changed after receiving the mysterious phone call.

    "Micky . . . do you think you and I can talk privately? I really need to discuss something with you," Daichi said

seriously.

    Micky just nodded his head and stood up. "we can talk outside," he uttered.

    Daichi and Micky both went out of the apartment unit. Then they headed straight to the nearby fire exit.

    "What's wrong?" Micky asked worriedly.

    "Do you think you can take care of Lena for a day or two? I really need to go and fix something," Daichi answered.

    "Can I help? What's wrong?' Micky asked again.

    "One of my men have informed me that a large group of men from Lena's clan are already being sent in different locations. So I need to go and make myself visible in another place. So I can lure those men away from here," Daichi explained.

    "So you're going to leave Lena? Where will you go?" Micky asked.

    "I don't know yet. But what is important now is to hide Lena. You know she doesn't want anyone from her family to know about her situation," Daichi said.

    Micky nodded. "Don't worry. I'll take good care of her. It's a good thing! It's our day-off tomorrow. Nothing to do . . . So I can stay with her all day long."
    
    "That's good. Thank you. I am really sorry for the trouble we are bringing you," Daichi apologized.

    "It's nothing. Aren't you going to say goodbye to Lena before you go?" Micky asked.

    "I am really in a hurry. I'll just call her and explain everything later. Oh! And before I forget . . . Lena can't be left alone in a room when she's sleeping. Ever since that day . . . when Jaejoong got beaten badly . . . she had started having
nightmares everyday. That's why most of the time . . . she's afraid to sleep. So please . . . stay in the room with her. . . especially at night. I am really worried about her, especially now . . . with her being pregnant and all," Daichi said with
concern.

    "Just do what you've got to do. I'll take care of Lena and her baby," Micky said with a smile.

    Daichi somehow felt relieved after hearing Micky's words. He knew Lena was safe with Micky around.

    Ten minutes later . . . Micky entered the apartment unit alone.

    "Where's Daichi?" U-Know asked.

    "He had to take care of some personal matters. So he won't be around for a day or two," Micky answered.

    "So he left Lena here?" Max asked.

    "Yes, and he asked me to take care of her while he's gone," Micky replied with a smile.

    Jaejoong felt irritated with Micky. He was jealous even though he was trying very hard to deny it. He quickly stood up and walked towards his room.

    "Hyung, where are you going? It's dinner time already," Max said.

    "I just lost my appetite. I'll just go to sleep," Jaejoong answered.

    As soon as Jaejoong was gone, U-Know couldn't help but confront Micky.

    "What are you trying to do Micky? We all know that Jaejoong still has feelings for Lena. So why are you trying to torture him?" U-Know asked.

    "I'm not trying to torture him," Micky replied.

    "But what you're doing is wrong. Why do you have to put yourself in the middle of Lena and Jaejoong's problem?" Xiah asked.

    "If Jaejoong still wants her, there's no one stopping him from taking her back. He's free to do whatever he wants. As for me . . . I just want to be true to myself once and for all. I love you and I'm willing to do anything just to make her happy," Micky said seriously.

    U-Know shook his head in confusion. "You and Jaejoong are both very stubborn. Okay we'll respect your decision Micky. But I do hope you already thought about the consequences that may arise from your actions."

    Micky smiled. "I've thought about the things you're saying. And frankly I'm not scared and I've already decided . . . that there's no turning back."

    Xiah, U-Know and Max all sighed heavily. They were all very confused on what they were supposed to do. They all cared about Micky and Jaejoong, and they were totally torn on who to side with.

    Inside Jaejoong's room . . .

    Jaejoong silently stared at the painting in his room. The more he looked at it, the more intense the pain he felt.

    "Why Lena? Why?" he uttered. "Why did you come back? Do you still love me?" he asked as he covered his face with his hands. He was totally confused. He wanted to talk to Lena, and know the answers to all the questions that were running through his mind.

    Back in Micky's room . . .

    Lena was staring out of the window when Micky slowly entered the room.

    "Lena . . ." Micky called.

    "Yes?" she immediately replied as she turned her wheelchair around to face Micky.

    "It's time to eat," Micky said with a sweet smile.

    Lena lowered her head. Somehow she didn't feel like going out of the room. She was embarrassed and scared, both at the same time.

    "I . . .I'm not hungry," she replied.

    Micky knelt down infront of Lena. "You're not hungry . . . or you're just scared to go out?"

    Lena stared straight at Micky. "Both," she quickly replied.

    Micky sighed. "Jaejoong's in his room now. He said that he doesn't want to eat. So it's quite safe to go out now."
    
    "But . . . I'm also scared of the others. I'm afraid of what they might say or what they might ask. I'm really confused right now. I don't want to think anymore," she said with a heavy sigh.

    "Don't worry. I'm here for you. I'll take care of you while Daichi is gone. You do know that he's gone, don't you?" Micky asked.

    Lena nodded. "Yes, he just called me, and he already explained everything. That's why I'm feeling more embarrassed now. I'm left all alone here. Frankly I don't know what your friends are thinking."

    "You don't need to worry about Xiah, Max and U-Know. They won't interrogate you. And besides . . . they also care about you. So you don't have to be afraid of them," Micky said.

    "But . . ." she uttered.

    "No buts . . . your baby needs some nourishment. So you've got to eat whether you like it or not," Micky lectured as he carefully pushed Lena's wheelchair out of the room.

    "Don't be scared . . . I will take care of you," Micky whispered to Lena before they went into the dining room.

    
   

I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 42)

CHAPTER 42

    Lena slowly opened her eyes, and then a familiar face came into view. At first, she thought that she was seeing Jaejoong, but as time passed . . .her vision became clearer and another face appeared. She slowly tried to putsh herself up, Micky hurriedly helped her to sit comfortably onher bed.

    "Micky?" she gently uttered.

    Micky smiled as he gently took Lena's hands. "How are you?"

    Lena tried to smile but she suddenly remembered Jaejoong. And the pain quickly became visible in her eyes. "I really don't know how to answer that question," she replied.

    Micky gently squeezed Lena's hand. "Daichi already told me everything."

    Lena looked at Micky. "Please stop staring at me with pity in your eyes. That's the last thing I want," she weakly uttered.

    Micky lowered his head. "I'm sorry."

    "Why are you here?" she asked suddenly.

    "To see you," he quickly replied.

    "How did you know I was here?" she asked again.

    "Jaejoong told us. We woke up this morning and found him all messed up in the living room. He wasn't himself . . . So we asked him what was wrong. And that was when he told us that he saw you . . ." Micky explained.

    Lena smiled bitterly. "His girlfriend is very beautiful."

    Micky felt that there was a huge lump in his throat. He didn't know how to react to what Lena said.

    "So you already saw Keiko . . . Jaejoong has been going out with her for a month now. But their real relationship just started last week. So there is still a chance for you to . . ." Micky started to say.

    "To what? To break them up? I'm not planning to do such a thing," Lena said as she shook her head in disapproval.

    "But what are you planning to do?" Micky asked.

    "Frankly, I don't know. Maybe Daichi and I can go back to New York. The only reason why I came here is to have Jaejoong back. But I guess . . . I'm too late. So there's no reason for me to stay here anymore. I might as well go back," she answered.

    "So you're going back without clearing everything up with Jaejoong? Aren't you even going to tell him about the child that you're carrying? And aren't you going to tell him about what really happened to you after you left him? Do you know he hates you . . . for leaving him. He thinks that you have easily forgotten him and moved on with your life. That's why you never even tried to contact him for the passed two months," Micky said with concern.

    "What's the use in telling him the truth? He has already moved on. He already had someone new in his life. If I told him the truth . . . do you think it would make any difference? He will just pity me . . . and I would end up ruining his peaceful life again," Lena replied.

    "Think about the child . . . Jaejoong has a right to know," Micky uttered.

    Lena smiled while trying to hide the pain she was feeling. "I don't want to cause anymore problems. I know once I told him about the child . . . his relationship with his girlfriend will definitely be affected. And frankly I don't want to hurt the girl."

    Micky looked deep into Lena's eyes. "God! Why are you so kind? Why don't you think about yourself first? Who cares about Keiko? Do you know that whenever I see you hurting . . . it just breaks my heart into pieces? Before i just set aside my feelings for you because I thought you would be much happier with Jaejoong. But now . . . I'm starting to think that I made a wrong decision. Now I'm starting to think . . . that I should have fought for you. Then maybe . . . I would be the one taking care of you now."

    Lena sadly stared at Micky. "Please Micky, stop! I've already hurt a lot of people . . . I don't want you to be one of them."

    "Why can't I love you?" Micky asked weakly.

    "Because I . . . I don't deserve  to be loved. Anyone who gets involved with me always gets hurt or faces different kinds of bad luck. So please I don't want to hurt anyone . . . anymore . . . especially not you," she answered.

    "Don;t you know that you're already hurting me by refusing my love for you? And why is it that Daichi can be with you . . . and not me?" Micky asked with a hurt look in his eyes.

    Lena suddenly looked away. Somehow her mind had totally gone blank. Micky's question started to echo in her mind.

    "Micky's right. Why am I staying with Daichi when I already know that I'm hurting him over and over again. Why do I keep on hurting him? Is it time for me to leave him too?"

    "Lena . . ." Micky uttered.

    Lena gazed at Micky. "Please don't try to complicate things. You can't possibly fall in love with me. Look at me! I'm totally useless now. All the doctors say that there's something wrong with me  . . . mentally. That's why half of my bopdy is paralyzed and I can't walk. And aside from that . . . I am pregnant. You can't fall in love with a disabled and pregnant woman, Micky. Use your mind!"

    "Why is it that Daichi and Jaejoong are allowed to love you and not me? Don't you think you're being unfair?" Micky asked.

    "I'm not being unfair. Micky. I'm just telling you what is best for you. I've already hurt and brought grief to both Daichi and Jaejoong. I don't want you to be like them. I want to spare you from the pain. So please try to find someone else. . . someone who is more suited for you," Lena begged.

    Micky's heart was slowly breaking as he listened to Lena's words. He then gently embraced Lena.

    Lena was totally surprised by what Micky had done. She felt pity for Micky, but she knew what she had done was the right thing to do.

    "Micky . . . thank you for the concern and love. But I'm very sorry I can't return it," Lena uttered as she gently embraced Micky back.

    "No matter what you say or do, I will still love you in my own way. Let me help you . . . I also want to take care of you, just like what Daichi is doing. I don't care if you only treat me as a friend. That's enough for me. I want to show you how much you mean to me, even if it hurts me. So please let me love you . . ." Micky said with a trembling voice.

    Lena was confused. She wanted to stop Micky but she was afraid to hurt him. So she just decided to silently stay in his arms.
    
    While Micky and Lena were in each other's arms, Daichi unexpectedly walked into the room.

    Daichi instantly felt like his heart was going to explode after seeing Micky and Lena. But he decided to just set aside his personal feelings and deal with more important matters.

    "Lena . . ." Daichi called.

    Micky and Lena, both surprised, looked at Daichi. Lena could see that Daichi was trying to hide the pain he was feeling.

    "Daichi . . ." Lena started to say.

    "We have to go now. One of my men just informed me that someone had already reported to your parents that we have arrived here in Japan. Your parents' men are already searching for us. We have to move now or else they will find us," Daichi said with concern.

    Lena worriedly looked at Daichi. "But where will we go? If they are already searching for us . . . we have nowhere else to go."

    "Frankly I am a little bit confused myself," Daichi replied.

    Micky stared at Lena, then at Daichi. "Maybe I can help," he uttered.

    "How?" Daichi asked with a surprised look on his face.

    "Well . . . both of you can stay in our apartment for the time being. You guys need a place to hide . . . Our apartment would be perfect for that. No one would ever think that you would actually hide in our place," Micky answered.

    "You've got a point there. But . . ." Daichi said as he looked straight at Lena. He was still thinking about her condition and her situation concerning Jaejoong.

    Micky stared at Lena as well. "You don't have to worry about Jaejoong. I'll take care of him."

    Lena shook her head. "No! I don't want to be close to him. And I don't want to see him. I can't possibly stay in your apartment."

    "Lena . . . Micky's got a point. No one would actually look for us in their apartment. We've got no choice . . . Unless you want your parents to know what has happened to you," Daichi said seriously.

    Lena lowered her head. She didn't want her parents to know about her situation. She wanted to make them believe that she was fine. She was afraid that once her parents found out about her condition. They will surely make Daichi's parents pay dearly. And that was the last thing she wanted. Even though Daichi's mother had been cruel with her, she still loved Daichi's parents like her own parents. She didn't want anything bad to happen to them.

    "Lena . . . you've got to decide now," Daichi said anxiously.

    Micky didn't want for Lena's answer. He immediately carried Lena in his arms, and carefully placed her on her wheelchair.

    "Micky . . ." Lena protested.

    "Sssshhh . . ." Micky uttered, then he slowly pushed Lena's wheelchair out of the room.

    Daichi quickly gathered all their bags and followed Lena and Micky out of the apartment.

    Lena's heart was pounding wildly. She didn't know if she was doing the right thing. She was very much afraid of seeing Jaejoong once again.

    "Micky . . . please don't tell him anything about the child . . . and my condition," Lena uttered before Micky opened the door of their apartment.

    "Don't worry. I won't say anything," Micky replied.

    Slowly Lena and Micky entered the DBSK boys' apartment first, followed by Daichi.

    Xiah, Max, U-Know and Jaejoong were all in the living room. As soon as Micky walked in with Lena, a deafening silence suddenly appeared.

    "Lena . . ." Jaejoong was finally able to utter.

    Micky coldly stared at Jaejoong and the other DBSK boys."Lena and Daichi will be staying in my room for a few days. I hope there's no probelem with that."

    Xiah, MAx and U-Know were all stunned. They were totally shocked with what was happening.

    Micky slowly pushed Lena's wheelchair to his room, while Daichi just followed them.

    Lena felt the cold stare that Jaejoong was giving her. She lowered her head and tried to avoid looking at Jaejoong and the other DBSK members. She didn't have any choice, but to endure a few days in the boys' apartment unit.

    After arranging Lena on his bed and a quick talk with Daichi, Micky left his room and went straight to where the other DBSK boys were.

    "What are you planning to do?" Jaejoong quickly asked as soon as Micky sat down infront of him.

    "Planning to do? Well I'm going to take care of her. That's what I'm planning to do," Micky answered sarcastically.

    "Are you out of your mind?" Jaejoong asked.

    Micky smiled as he looked straight at Jaejoong. "Like I told you before . . . I love her. And since you already have Keiko, then that means you no longer want her. So I've decided to make her mine."

    Xiah, Max and U-Know felt a sudden chill. They knew Micky was serious and that he wasn't going to change his mind. He had been in love with Lena from the very beginning. But because of his friendship with Jaejoong, he had decided to let Lena go. But now . . . it seems he wasn't going to let anyone stand in his way again. No matter how . . . no matter what . . . it took, Lena was going to be his . . . and his alone.

 

I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 41)

CHAPTER 41

    
    "Lena, please open the door . . . Lena," Daichi shouted while he continuously knocked on the door of Lena's room.

    He could still hear Lena crying. She had locked herself up in her room and had been crying ever since she saw Jaejoong kissing abother girl in the hallway of the apartment building.

    Hours have passed and Lena still wouldn't stop crying. Daichi was already going crazy with worry.

    "Lena . . . . please stop crying and open the door. Have you forgotten that you're pregnant? You can't possibly go on crying forever . . . Please think about the baby you're carrying. Lena, can you hear me? Lena!" Daichi shouted as he tried to open the door.

    Daichi sighed. No matter how he tried to open the door, it still wouldn't open. Lena had locked the room using another lock inside her room.

    "Lena . . ." he uttered hopelessly.

    Then he suddenly heard Lena unlocking her door. Within minutes, Lena slowly opened the door.

    "Lena . . ." Daichi said as he stared at the pitiful expression on Lena's face.

    "Daichi . . . please. . . . Let's leave. I don't want to stay here anymore," she begged.

    Daichi  just nodded his head. He already knew that they needed to move again as soon as possible. Staying in that apartment . . . being near to Jaejoong . . . . was going to be pure torture for Lena.

    "We can leave as soon as I find a suitable place to live. Just give me a day. I'll try to fix everything quickly," he said.

    Lena nodded. She felt very tired . . . tired of everything . . .  tired of thinking . . . . tired of crying . . .  tired of hoping . . . tired of loving . . . and now she was even tired of living.

    "Daichi , I'm tired . . ." she slowly uttered.

    Daichi carefully stared at Lena. He knew exactly what she meant, but he just decided to avoid talking about what she was trying to say.

    "You look pale. I suggest you go to sleep for a few hours. Have some rest. You and the baby need to sleep," he lovingly said.

    Again Lena just nodded her head.

    "Come on , I'll help you," Daichi said with a smile. He slowly approached Lena, then he carefully carried her in his arms. "Lena, whatever happens . . . Always remember I'm here for you."

    "I know," Lena uttered as she gently rested her head on Daichi's chest.

    Daichi suddenly felt like he didn't want to let go of Lena anymore. He felt like he wanted to have her in his arms forever. Slowly he walked to where Lena's bed was. Then he gently placed her on it.

    "Go to sleep. I'll look after you. Don't worry," Daichi said as he lovingly caressed Lena's hair over and over again so to put her to sleep.

    "Daichi," she uttered.
   
    "Uhhmm?" he uttered back.

    "Thank you," she said slowly.

    Daichi smiled. "For what?" he asked.

    "For everything," she replied.

    Daichi's heart suddenly skipped a beat. "Go to sleep," he uttered again. Then he kissed her on the forehead.

    An hour later . . . .

    Daichi carefully stared at Lena's face. And somehow his heart ached after seeing the tired look on her face. He understood that she wasn't only tired physically, but also mentally and emotionally.

    How he wished he could make everything all right for her. He was willing to do anything just to make her happy. But no matter how hard he tried to help Lena . . . it was as if fate always wanted her to suffer.

    His gazed focused on Lena's abdomen.

    "Poor child . . . I guess you will never have the chance to be happy with your mother and father at your side. But don't worry, I promise I will also take care of you," he slowly murmured.

    Then the doorbell suddenly interrupted his thoughts.

    "Who could it be? Could it be Jaejoong? It certainly took him a long time to pull himself together," he thought.

    The doorbell rang again. Daichi hurriedly went to the door. He didn't want Lena to awaken by the noise. As he opened the door, someone unexpected suddenly came into view.

    "Hello . . ." Micky uttered.

    Daichi stared at Micky. "Why are you here?' he asked coldly.

    Micky tried to put on a smile. "I'm here to see Lena. Jaejoong told us she was here."

    "Your friend surely have some guts. Where is he anyway?" Daichi asked.

    "He's still in his room . . . shocked and confused, I guess," Micky answered.

    "Lena's asleep," Daichi uttered.

    "That's okay . . . I'll wait," Micky replied.

    Unable to drive Micky away, Daichi slowly  led him to the living room. The two men sat down, facing each other.
   
    "So when did you guys arrive?" Micky asked casually.

    "We arrive here in  Tokyo . . . about quarter passed two in the morning, and we left the airport maybe passed three in the morning," Daichi answered.

    "So . . . you guys just arrived when . . . . Lena saw Jaejoong with Keiko?" Micky asked.

    "Yes, and frankly it was such a shocking way to greet someone," Daichi said with sarcasm.

    "Shocking? Yes, I can only imagine what Lena's reaction must have been after seeing Jaejoong kissing Keiko," Micky uttered.

    "She's been crying for hours. Good thing, I was able to put her to sleep. I was so worried that she might collapse or something, if she continued to cry," Daichi told Micky.

    "I'm really sorry things have to end this way," Micky uttered.

    "So is Jaejoong really serious with that girl?" Daichi suddenly asked.

    Micky smiled bitterly. "I'm afraid so."

    Daichi shook his head in disbelief. "What a nice way to show his true love for Lena. Just two months passed, and he immediately finds a new girl."

    "You can't really blame him. A lot of things can happen in two months. He was so down after Lena left him and suddenly disappeared. Frankly Xiah, Max, U-Know and I are partly to blame for this. We encouraged him to move on and to forget Lena. But we never really expected him to immediately find a new girl and replace Lena. We were sort of hoping that he would just return to his normal self and continue living like before," Micky explained.

    "Honestly, I know I don't have any right to be angry with Jaejoong. And I also know all of this wouldn't have happened, if my mother hadn't interfered. But I pity Lena . . . so much. You wouldn't even dare to imagine what she went through for the passed two months. And just when I thought . . . everything was already clearing out for her . . . She suddenly finds out that the man she's coming back for already belongs to someone else. During the time she was crying, my heart was slowly bleeding as well. I really can't stand seing her suffer," Daichi said.

    Micky just stayed silent. Somehow he didn't know what to do or say. He also pitied Lena. And just like Daichi, he also wished that he could help Lena be happy.

    "I guess . . . there's nothing else to do, but go and hide again," Daichi uttered with a sigh.

    "Go and hide? What do you mean? Frankly I'm quite confused. Why is it that even Lena's parents doesn't know where the two of you were for the passed two months? And why is it that Jaejoong said that Lena was on a wheelchair when he saw her. Is there something wrong with her?" Micky asked nervously.

    Daichi tried to hide the sadness in his eyes. "I don't know if I should tell you the whole story."

    "Don't worry. . . Whatever you tell me . . . will stay a secret. So please . . . tell me what's wrong with Lena. You know that I also love her . . . That's why I'm concerned about her," Micky uttered as he stared at Daichi seriously.

    "Lena is . . . is paralyzed from her waist down to her legs. And this is the reason why the two of us have been in hiding. Lena doesn't want her parents to know about her condition," Daichi told Micky with a serious expression on his face.

    "What?" Micky asked in total shock. "Have you consulted a doctor? She can still be cured right? She can still walk again right?" he continuously asked.

    Daichi smiled bitterly as he suddenly shook his head. "Honestly we've spent the whole two months going from one country to another, in search of a doctor who can actually cure her . . . During the time that she and Jaejoong were attacked by mother's men, she received a blow to her back. At first, all the doctors thought that her paralysis was due to a spinal cord injury. But after dozens of tests, they finally concluded that there was nothing wrong with her physically and that her condition was just a result of trauma or shock that she receive," Daichi suddenly stopped talking. Somehow he was trying to stop himself from crying. "So we continued to go to psychiatrists, physical therapists . . . anyone who could actually have an idea how to cure her. But they all said the same thing. Lena's recovery solely depends on her own will. And that it may take weeks, months, years  . . . and there was also the possibility that she can never be cured. After hearing those words from the doctors, Lena became more depressed and withdrawn. It was then she decided that she can no longer go back to Jaejoong. She didn't want him to see her in such a pitiful situation. She didn't want him to stay with her just because of guilt or pity. So the two of us left and have been continuously travelling. We are still hoping to find someone who could help her."

    "If . . . if there's nothing wrong with her physically . . . then there is always the possibility that she can walk again. Maybe she just . . . she just . . . maybe she needs more encouragement. Maybe she lacks the will to . . ." Micky tried to say. He was trying to make himself believe that Lena was going to be all right. But no matter how he tried, he still couldn't lie to himself.

    "I know what you're feeling. Believe me, I've tried everything. And Lena really wants to be normal again. So she has been very patient and obedient to everything that the doctors told her. She's gone through different therapeutic sessions and drunk different medications. But still no effect. Do you have any idea how miserable Lena was for the passed two months? She was willing to do anything just to be able to walk again. She wanted to be normal again, so she could return to Jaejoong. Believe me . . . she has tried everything. There were nights that she would just cry herself to sleep. Her cries were so pitiful that if you heard it . . . it would actually tear your heart into million pieces. During the passed two months, I know the only thing that was keeping Lena sane was the thought that one day she could return to Jaejoong. But now . . . she has to learn to accept another painful reality," Daichi told Micky.

    Micky stared at Daichi. Everything he heard was just too much for him. "If she's still in a wheelchair . . . then that means she's not cured yet . . . So why did she return? Did she finally decide that it is time for Jaejoong to know the truth about her? Why do I have the feeling you're still hiding something from me?"

    Daichi couldn't help but smile. "You're really very perceptive. Yes, there is a reason why she suddenly decided to return to Jaejoong."

    "And that reason is?" Micky asked curiously.

    Daichi stared straight into Micky's eyes. "She's two months pregnant with Jaejoong's child."

    Micky's world had suddenly stopped. And bit by bit, his heart started to fall apart. How he pitied Lena. And somehow he could feel the pain she was going through. How he wished that everything that he had learned wasn't true. How he wished that Lena was still the same Lena that he knew. Micky stared blankly infront of him. He knew Lena needed someone to be with her now. And he was determined to be that someone . . . .
 

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I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 40)

CHAPTER 40

 

            The next morning . . . .

           

            All the DBSK boys were happily having breakfast when Jaejoong suddenly announced something.

 

            "I hope all of you would be happy for me," he uttered with a sweet smile on his lips.

 

            "Why? What happened?" Xiah asked curiously.

 

            "It's official . . . Keiko and I are a couple now. She finally agreed to be my girlfriend . . . just last night," Jaejoong said happily.

 

            "What?" Xiah, Micky, Max and U-Know all blurted out in total shock.

 

            Jaejoong laughed after seeing his friends' reactions. "Why? What's wrong? Why are you all shocked?"

 

            "Are you really sure about what you're doing? Aren't you rushing things?" U-Know asked with concern.

 

            Jaejoong laughed again. "Pushing things? No . . . I don't think so. Why? How long am I supposed to wait until I'm allowed to have someone new in my life?"

 

            "But hyung . . . it's only been two months," Max exclaimed.

 

            "So?" Jaejoong asked with a raised eyebrow. "I thought all of you wanted me to forget Lena already. So now that I've forgotten her . . . why are you guys acting like that?"

 

            "Frankly . . . I was kind of hoping that you would just move on . . . But not totally forget her. I really believe that she would return again . . . And I am really hoping that the two of you could still be together . . . I believe that you two belong with each other," Max uttered seriously.

 

            Xiah, Micky and U-Know all stared at Max. They had never seen him that serious before. And somehow they all could feel his sincerity and concern in his words.

 

            Jaejoong smiled bitterly. His eyes became filled with a certain sadness that the other boys easily noticed. "I'm sorry, Max. But those kind of wishes are just a fantasy now. Lena will never return. If she could . . . she would have already done it a long time ago . . . .And even if by chance, she returns now . . . it is already too late. I've already committed myself to Keiko. I can't easily drop her just because Lena returned. It would be too unfair for her."

 

            Micky suddenly laughed." Unfair? Whatever happened to what you were saying before? You can't forget Lena. You will never forget her. You can't live without her. You love her and that is the way it will always be . . . Just two months passed and you suddenly forget everything and change? What a nice way to show your undying true love for Lena," he said with sarcasm.

 

            Jaejoong's facial expression hardened. "Are you trying to imply something?"

 

            Micky smiled. "Me? Implying something? Think . . . . I just hope you won't regret in the end," he suddenly said as he stood up and started to walk out of the room.

 

            "Micky . . . are you forgetting . . . she was the one who left me," Jaejoong said.

 

            Micky turned around to face Jaejoong, who was looking seriously at him.

 

            "She left you . . . because she had to. And before I forget . . . like I've told you before . . . if you didn't go after Lena . . . then I would . . . If by chance, she returns . . . I've already telling you I'm going after her. So no hard feelings," Micky said with a cold expression on his face. Then he slowly walked out of the room.

 

            Xiah, Max and U-Know exchanged glances with each other. They were torn between their two friends. Somehow they were totally confused on what they were supposed to do and and say, so they just decided to be silent.

 

            Jaejoong just stared at the unfinished breakfast he was having. Suddenly . . . memories started to rush into his mind.

 

            Totally confused, Jaejoong suddenly stood up and left the room as well. He then went straight to his room. Once inside his room, he sadly stared at the painting that Lena left him.

 

            The painting was still hanging in his room. And eventhough he hated Lena so much for leaving him. He still couldn't find it in his heart to throw away the painting. Somehow it had a very special place in his heart. A place that he was afraid to leave empty.

 

            A week later . . . .

 

            "We're here," Daichi announced happily as they went out of the airport.

 

            "Yes, we're finally here. But Daichi . . .I'm afraid," Lena slowly uttered as she looked at the people who were staring at her. Somehow she could feel and see pity in their eyes.

 

            Daichi slowly squeezed Lena's shoulder as if to give her support. "Don't worry, I'm here. I won't leave you."

 

            "Where are we going now? Where are we going to stay? We can't stay in a hotel. Someone might recognize me, and tell my parents that I am here in Japan. And I certainly don't want to go to your parents house as well," Lena said worriedly.

 

            "Well, we can stay in your apartment for the mean time, No one would even think that we would stay there," Daichi said.

 

            "But I don't think I already have the courage to face Jaejoong. Give me a few more days please," Lena weakly uttered.

 

            "We can hide in your apartment as long as you want. We don't need to go out. I can just hire someone to do everything for us. So we don't even have to go out, once we're there. So stop worrying," Daichi said with a smile. "And besides the two of you are supposed to meet anyway, let's just allow fate to take its course."

 

            "You're right. But give me . . . even a day to prepare myself . . . please," Lena said again.

 

            Daichi nodded. "Don't worry. It's already 3 in the morning. Jaejoong and his friends are already asleep by now. So no one will see us moving into the apartment."

 

            Lena smiled. "You're right. So let's go . . ." she said with a smile.

 

            An hour later, in Lena's apartment building.

 

            Daichi and Lena got into the building without any problem. And as expected, everything was already quiet in the whole building. Everyone was already sleeping.

 

            The two were already in their apartment unit when Lena suddenly noticed that her small bag was gone. She tried to think where she last saw it.

 

            "Aaaahhh . . . ." she uttered as she finally remembered that she had placed her bag near the door of the apartment while waiting for Daichi to open the door.

 

            Lena rolled her wheelchair out of her apartment. She quickly saw her bag and went near it, to pick it up. She was about to return to her apartment when something caught her attention.

 

            Near the door of the DBSK boys' apartmen were two people passionately kissing each other. The guy's face was turned against Lena so she couldn't see who it was.

 

            But Lena's heart was already screaming out a name. She didn't want to believe it. But the man's figure was very familiar to her. No matter how she tried to deny it, she knew that the man standing infront of her . . . kissing another girl was no other than . . . Jaejoong.

 

            Lena immediately covered her mouth to stop herself from making any sound. She didn't want to attract any attention to herself.

 

            As if frozen . . . she continued to watch Jaejoong kissing another woman, while tears fell from her eyes. Somehow she could feel her heart was being shattered into pieces. She felt like she wanted to die right at that moment. She didn't have any reason to live anymore. Jaejoong no longer belonged to her.

 

            "Lena . . . what are you doing there? Why don't you come in already?" Daichi asked as he slowly walked out of the apartment unit, and looked at where Lena's attention was.

 

            Daichi's reaction suddenly hardened as he quickly recognized Jaejoong.

 

            Surprised and shocked . . . Jaejoong immediately turned to see Lena and Daichi staring straightly at him and Keiko.

 

            "Who are they? Do you know them?" Keiko asked Jaejoong innocently as she looked back and forth between Jaejoong, Lena and Daichi.

 

            Bewildered, Jaejoong stared at Lena. Tears were in her eyes as her gaze continued to focus on Keiko. He could see the pain in her eyes, which in turn also hurt him as well.

 

            "Lena, let's go inside," Daichi said coldly as he hurriedly pushed Lena's wheelchair into their apartment. And then he angrily closed the door.

 

            Jaejoong's mind totally became blank after seeing Lena again. Somehow he wanted to go after her and talk to her. But he immediately remembered the scene that Lena had seen. He closed his eyes for a few minutes. He felt like his head was going to explode. Different things were running in his head. He couldn't think straight. He was totally confused.

 

            "Jaejoong . . . are you all right?" Keiko asked worriedly.

 

            "Yes, I . . . I . . . I'm sorry but I think you have to go now. I'm sorry I can't take you to your apartment anymore. I just remembered our group has an early appointment," Jaejoong nervously uttered as he tried to lie to Keiko.

 

            Keiko stared at Jaejoong. she knew something was wrong. But she decided to be silent for the mean time.

 

            "It's okay. Bye then," Keiko said with a smile as she lovingly kissed Jaejoong on the lips.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly drew away as soon as Keiko finished kissing him. Somehow he felt ashamed and nervous. He couldn't quite explain what he was feeling.

 

            As Keiko left the apartment building, questions were continuously repeating in her mind.

 

            "Who was that girl on the wheelchair? And why was Jaejoong so shocked when he saw her? Why do I have the feeling that she's someone important to Jaejoong?"

 

            Back in the DBSK boys' apartment . . .

 

            Jaejoong silently sat on the couch in the living room. He was staring at the wine glass that he was holding.

 

            She came back . . . .

 

            "Lena . . . Why was she sitting on a wheelchair? What's wrong with her?" he continuously asked himself.

 

            Jaejoong continued to sit in the living room. He was so preoccupied with his own thoughts that he didn't notice that it was already morning.

 

            "Hyung . . . you're up already?" Max asked as he slowly yawned.

 

            Jaejoong stared at Max with a confused look in his eyes.

 

            "Jaejoong, what's wrong?" Xiah asked worriedly.

 

            "Jaejoong. . . ." U-Know uttered.

 

            "She . . . she came back," Jaejoong said.

 

            "She? Who came back?" Micky asked curiously.

 

            Jaejoong then stared at Micky.

 

            "Lena's back, isn't she? You saw her?" Micky asked as he suddenly realized the cause of Jaejoong's confusion.

 

            Jaejoong gently nodded his head. He felt like he had no strength to think or talk.

 

            Xiah, Micky, Max and U-Know suddenly exchanged glances with one another. This was what they were all afraid of. Lena had finally returned for Jaejoong. But he could no longer be with her . . . for he already belonged to someone else. . . .

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I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 39)

CHAPTER 39

 

            Two months passed . . . . New York . . . .

 

            "Lena, are you all right? You've been looking quite pale these passed few days. How about we go to the doctor today?" Daichi said worriedly.

 

            Lena tried to smile. She wasn't really feeling well. But she was afraid to tell Daichi because she knew he would be worried. Somehow she didn't want to add more problems on him.

 

            "I'm all right. Don't worry about me," she tried to assure Daichi.

 

            "No, we're going to see a doctor today. I'm not accepting that 'I'm all right' line of yours," Daichi said seriously.

 

            Lena suddenly let out a long sigh. "Very well . . ." she suddenly uttered.

 

            Later in the doctor's office . . .

 

            "Congratulations . . ." the doctor happily greeted.

 

            Lena and Daichi exchanged glances with each other. They were both very confused.

 

            "Congratulations? On what?" Lena asked.

 

            "You're two months pregnant, Lena. You should take care of yourself more carefully starting from today," the doctor said with a big smile on his face.

 

            Somehow Lena felt that her whole world started spinning.

 

            "How can I be pregnant? What about my condition? Will my condition have any effect on the child that I am carrying?" Lena asked worriedly.

 

            The doctor lightly laughed. "Don't worry. Your physical condition won't have any negative effect on the baby you're carrying. But I'm already telling you that you will have to undergo caesarian operation to deliver the baby. You won't be able to do it normally."

 

            Lena sadly stared at Daichi. He had been silently looking at her, after hearing what the doctor said.

 

            "Daichi . . ." she uttered as if asking his forgiveness.

 

            An hour later . . . .

 

            Lena and Daichi quietly left the doctor's office and went back to their home in total silence.

 

            Lena didn't even dare to start a conversation with Daichi. She was very afraid of what he was going to say. She knew taking care of her was already very tiring for him. . . . and now with her new condition. She was surely going to add more burden on him. Somehow she pitied him. She knew she was already hurting him whenever she talked about Jaejoong, or whenever he caught her thinking about him. And now she was going to make him take care of another man's child. It was total madness. Their whole situation would drive a normal guy crazy, but Daichi tried to accept everything and bear all the pain without any complaint.

 

            As soon as Lena and Daichi arrived home, Daichi immediately decided that both of them needed to talk.

 

            "Lena . . . ." Daichi uttered.

 

            Lena was looking out of the window again as if thinking of something. She slowly stared at Daichi after hearing him say her name.

 

            Daichi walked up to Lena, then knelt down in front of her. He stared at Lena for a few minutes before finally saying what was on his mind.

 

            "Lena . . . what are we going to do now? Aren't you going to tell Jaejoong about the child?" he asked.

 

            Lena smiled bitterly, then she slowly shook her head. "What's the use of telling him? Both me and the child would only be a burden to him . . . I can't even dare to iamgine what would happen if a news about us broke out. Imagine . . . a famous band member with a crippled and pregnant girlfriend. That would be totally embarrassing for him."

 

            "Can you please stop thinking about his image as a singer and start thinking about him as a man . . . a man who loves you. You're always deciding on your own. . . . on what's good for him or for both of you. You don't let him express his own opinions on the things that you do. For example, after learning half of your body is paralyzed, you just decide on your own that you shouldn't tell him. That he would be better off without you. And now . . . now that you're pregnant with his child, you're deciding on your own again. That child doesn't belong to you alone. . . . it also belongs to Jaejoong. He's the father so he has a right to know," Daichi said seriously.

 

            "Daichi . . . I'm not taking away his right with the child. It's just that I'm quite confused and scared. If he knew about my real condition . . . will he still love me? Will he still accept me? And if he learns about our baby . . . will he accept the child? Or will he just be responsible for the child and not for me? There are a lot of questions racing in my head . . . questions I'm afraid to answer," Lena slowly uttered.

 

            Daichi took Lena's hand. "You have to find the answers to your questions, Lena. It is the only way to let yourself be free of all the worries and fears. You can't go on hiding forever. If by chance . . . he doesn't want you back . . . I'm here . . . I'll take care of you . . . you and your child. I'll take care of your baby as if it is my own. No one doesn't even need to know that it isn't my child. Only you and I will know the truth."

 

            "Thank you Daichi. . . I don't know what I would do without you. Thank you for being always by my side . . . for taking care of me. . . for understanding me . . . for always giving me advises . . . I don't think I can even repay your kindness . . . ." Lena sadly uttered.

 

            Daichi smiled. "I'm not expecting anything. I did all these things so I could help you. So you shouldn't think about paying me back, returning my kindness. Because frankly, being able to be with you is already a big reward for me. Just having you near me . . . already makes my life complete. I have you . . . and I will continue to love you without any limitations or conditions."

 

            "Then . . .let's return to Tokyo as soon as possible. You will still be beside me . . . . right?" Lena slowly uttered as if afraid of what Daichi would answer.     

 

            Daichi smiled. "Yes, of course. I will always be beside you . . . as long as you need me," then he slowly embraced Lena.          

 

            While Lena was in Daichi's arms, her mind was already being filled with so many questions and thoughts.           

 

            "How are you Jaejoong? I wonder if you're angry with me . . . Are you also thinking of me? Do I even cross your mind . . . even for a short time? Are you missing me? I miss you so much, Jaejoong. Please wait for me . . . I'll be there soon. We'll be meeting again. I can't wait to see your face again. I want . . . to touch your face . . . to touch your hand . . . to feel your warm embrace . . . I miss you. I'll be with you again. Just wait for me."

 

            Back in Tokyo . . . .

 

            "Hyung, where are you going?" Max asked as Jaejoong suddenly went out of his room, all dressed up.

 

            "Out . . ." Jaejoong replied with a sweet smile on his lips.

 

            Max shook his head. "You're going out again? What if our manager finds out that you've been going out almost every night? He will surely make a big fuss over it."

 

            Jaejoong laughed. "I'm just having fun. And besides I'm not neglecting my responsibilities in the group right? So no harm done. I'll be out until midnight. So don't wait up okay."

 

            "Who are you going out with?" U-Know asked.

 

            "A girl . . . of course," Jaejoong answered with a laugh.

 

            "Seriously . . . who are you going out with?" U-Know asked again.

 

            "Her name is not important," Jaejoong replied.

 

            "Yes, it is. So who is she?" Xiah asked.

 

            "It's Keiko Tanaka, isn't it?" Micky suddenly asked coldly.

 

            Jaejoong stared at Micky. "So what's wrong if she's the girl that I'm dating?"

 

            Keiko is a famous model that he had met before, and who he had met again after Lena left. It was like Keiko was sent to him for a reason.

 

            "Well you know it's a big problem for us to have a relationship with other famous celebrities. And second, well . . . she's a nice girl. Please don't hurt her. She doesn't deserve it," Micky answered.

 

            Jaejoong lightly laughed. "Why would I hurt her?"

 

            Micky stared straight into Jaejoong's eyes. "You should ask yourself that question. Have you looked at yourself in the mirror lately? Frankly you're not the same Jaejoong we knew before. You've totally changed. Ever since Lena left you . . . you've changed. You've become a total playboy. Even your image with the fans have totally changed. Frankly you've already surpassed my playboy image," Micky said as he shook his head in dismay.

 

            Jaejoong smiled. "Don't worry. I really like Keiko. She's quite nice. And I don't have any intention of fooling around with her. As of now, all I can say is I'm just starting to know her better. And besides I've been going out with her for a month now . . ."

 

            "We're not against . . . you dating other girls. It's just that we're concerned for you and the girl's sake. Don't try to rush things. Forgetting someone takes a lot of time . . . .Someone new can sometimes help, or maybe not. It totally depends on the situation," U-Know said seriously.

 

            "Don't worry. I've totally gotten over Lena. That's why I'm starting to move on," Jaejoong said.

 

            "Well, have fun and don't stay out too late," U-Know said with a smile.

 

            Jaejoong smiled back at U-Know. "I'll be going then. . .bye."

 

            As soon as Jaejoong left. Micky suddenly let out a long sigh. "Frankly I don't know what to do with Jaejoong. He's pushing himself too hard. It's quite obvious that he hasn't gotten over Lena . . ."

 

            "We've got to respect his decision. If he wants to find a new girl . . . then all we can do is be happy for him," U-Know said.

 

            "I just think that it's still too early for hyung to find a new girl. What if . . . Lena suddenly returns to him? What then?" Max voiced out his opinion.

 

            Xiah slowly shook his head. "I'm also thinking the same thing. Frankly I still think that those two will meet again someday. I was kind of hoping that . . . when they do meet again . . . everything will be all right by then."

 

            "We can't really decide for Jaejoong. All we can do is watch him . . . and try to support him," U-Know slowly uttered.

 

            "I just hope he won't regret in the end," Micky uttered.

 

            "Have you guys ever wondered where Lena might be? It's like she's totally disappeared . . . ." Max said with a strange expression on his face.

 

            "The last thing that Jaejoong heard was that she left Japan with Daichi. Even her own parents and Yoora doesn't know what country she went to," U-Know answered.

 

            "Poor Lena . . ." Max uttered.

 

            "I have a feeling she'll be back. But I just hope that she returns soon . . . before it is too late. I

really think Jaejoong is starting to fall for Keiko,' Micky uttered.

 

            Xiah, Max and U-Know just silently nodded their heads. They were all thinking and feeling the same thing. They somehow knew that Lena was going to return to Jaejoong. And how they wished that she arrives soon . . . . before Jaejoong falls in love with another girl.

 

I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 38)

CHAPTER 38

    The next day Jaejoong went out of his room. It was already 7 in the morning. He knew he needed to prepare breakfast. He was still  not feeling well, but he needed to do something just to stop himself from thinking about Lena. Eventhough his wounds were already healing . . . his heart was still hurting.

    He weakly entered the kitchen. But was quite surpised to see who were already up. All the other DBSK boys were already in the kitchen and were already having breakfast.

    "Good morning!" Max greeted.

    "You're up already? Sorry if we didn't wake you up to have breakfast with us. We figured that you might not want to have breakfast yet . . . and would just want to sleep and rest instead," Micky explained.

    "It's okay . . . But why are you guys up so early anyway?" Jaejoong asked curiously.

    Xiah, Micky, Max and U-Know suddenly exchanged glances with each other. Somehow they didn't know if they should tell him the truth.
    
    U-Know stared at Jaejoong seriously. "We're supposed to do a radio interview today at noon," he suddenly said.

    "A radio interview? How? Oh . . . I remember . . .so Daichi's mother followed Lena's conditions. So now I'm guessing that my father and sisters have their jobs back. I should be happy right?" Jaejoong tried to put on a fake smile.

    "Our manager said that you need to see a doctor. So that your wounds would heal without any scars, especially those on your face. He also said that he will bring you to a doctor this afternoon after the radio interview," U-Know said slowly.

    "So does this mean that I'm not being removed from the our group anymore?" Jaejoong asked sarcastically.

    Xiah slowly shook his head. All of them could sense the unhappiness that their friend was feeling.

    Jaejoong suddenly stared at the food infront of him. He then smiled bitterly.

    "Lena cooked me a wonderful breakfast . . . and I wasn't able to eat it . . . even one small bite. And now I don't know how it tasted. She must have spent hours making me those dishes . . . and it just all went to waste. I wonder what kind of food she's having now . . . or maybe she's still sleeping . . . or maybe . . ."

    "Hyung . . . stop it! You're just hurting yourself. Stop thinking about her. For your sake and her sake . . . stop it. Just let her go," Max slowly uttered.

    Jaejoong tried to smile. "Don't worry. I'm fine. I can live without her . . . like the way she can live without me. I'm hungry . . .I want to eat," he said as he quickly sat and started to fill a bowl with different kinds of foods.

    He had already swallowed a spoonful of food when his tears started to fall. As he continued to eat, his tears continued to stream down his face.

    The other DBSK boys just watched helplessly as their friend tried to eat. How their hearts ached as they watched his tears slowly fall.

    A week passed . . . .

    All of Jaejoong's wounds had already healed perfectly well. No one could even tell that he had been beaten badly just a few days passed. His total appearance was back to normal.

    All of the DBSK boys' activities have been resumed and all of the reports and rumors about their group being disbanded were finally cleared out. They were all back to their normal busy schedule.

    But despite of all the work that was keeping the DBSK boys busy . . . there were still times that Jaejoong couldn't stop himself from thinking about Lena.

    He was still wondering how she was doing . . . where she was . . . and if she was thinking of him too.

    How his heart ached everytime he remembered her. How he wished that all his feelings would just go away. He wanted to be free of the pain. He wanted to forget. He wanted to let go . . . But his heart was refusing everything that his mind was dictating. He still longed for her.

    Every night, he would imagine that he was still holding her. And every morning, he would wake up hoping to see her lying next to him.

    "Where are you Lena? Whatever happened to you? I miss you," Jaejoong uttered as he stared out of the window in his room.

    In another part of Tokyo . . . .

    "Lena, you should be resting. What are you looking at anyway?" Daichi asked softly.

    Lena smiled. "Nothing. I couldn't sleep. So I decided to just stare at the sky for a while."

    "Don't lie. You're thinking about him . . ." Daichi uttered.

    Lena suddenly lowered her head. Daichi was right. She was thinking about Jaejoong. She was wondering if he was thinking of her too. She couldn't stop herself. She was badly missing him.

    "It's been a week Lena. He's already appeared in a show. He's back to his usual self again. So you don't have to worry about him anymore," Daichi uttered.

    "I know . . . I already watched that he was in," she replied. "I'm glad that he's already moved on."

    "Lena . . . you don't have to be worried anymore. You can go back to him again. My mother has already learned her lesson. And she already asked for your forgiveness, didn't she? . . . And aside from that, she said that she wasn't going to interfere in your relationship with Jaejoong anymore. So you can go back to him . . . I know you're missing him," Daichi sadly uttered.

    Lena slowly shook her head. Then she smiled bitterly. "I can't go back to him anymore . . ." she said sadly.
   
    "Lena, it's obvious that you're missing him. And I know he's missing you as well," Daichi said.

    Lena suddenly looked at Daichi with extreme sadness in her eyes. "Look at me, Daichi. I think you're forgetting something . . . Even if I wanted to . . . I can't possibly go back to him now."
   
    Daichi stared at Lena. It was only then he realized what was wrong. Lena was sitting on a wheelchair. Half of her body, from her waist up to her legs was already paralyzed. They had already consulted several doctors and all of them said the same thing. They couldn't find anything wrong with her physically. He spinal cord wasn't injured like what the first doctor suspected. So there was no physical cause for her paralysis. They all recommended Lena to be sent to a psychiatrist for further evaluation.

    After hearing this, Lena and Daichi went to several psychiatrists to have her examined. Tests were done and repeated over and over again. Until finally, the doctors concluded that Lena's condition was just caused by a mental condition she was going through.

    Daichi asked the doctors how Lena can be cured. And to Daichi's dismay, all of them replied that Lena's recovery solely depends on her own will to be cured. It may take weeks, months, years and there was also a big possibility that she would no longer recover. The only thing that Daichi and Lena could do was wait.

    "Lena . . . I'm sorry . . ." Daichi uttered hopelessly.

    Lena smiled. "What are you saying sorry for?"

    "For everything that my mother did . . . to you and Jaejoong," Daichi answered.

    "Whatever your mother did . . . doesn't have anything to do with you. So you don't have to say sorry. And just like what you said before, your mother already asked for my forgiveness and I already forgave her. So there's no need to continuously say sorry. Just stop saying sorry and please stop feeling pity for me . . . I can see what you're feeling through your eyes," Lena slowly uttered.

    Daichi suddenly knelt down infront of Lena. "Why are you so kind? Aren't you even bit angry with my mother? Because of her . . . you might end up staying on a wheelchair all of your life . . .Because of her . . . you might end up losing the only man that you love."

    Lena slowly shook her head. "I love your mother like my own mother. How could I possibly get angry with her or even hate her? I believe what happened . . . happened for a reason. Maybe Jaejoong and I weren't supposed to be together. . . in the first place. That's why fate is already stepping in and separating us."

    Daichi looked at Lena's beautiful face. Despite of the courage she was showing, sadness and fear were hidden in her eyes. "What do you plan to do now? Are you really sure you don't want to see him? I'm sure that he will gladly accept you despite . . . ."

    "Despite of the fact that I'm already crippled? No . . . I don't want him to see me like this. I know the moment that he sees me . . . he will just pity me. He will somehow feel responsible for what happened to me. He will surely blame himself. And I don't want him to saty with me just because of guilt. If I enter his life again, I will just ruin everything for him again . . . his life . . . his career . . . his family. He's better off without me. I will only be a burden to him. I know . . . he will eventually learn to forget me. He will surely meet another girl that would be able to give him happiness without any complications. As time goes by . . . both of us will learn to forget each other," Lena said as tears slowly dropped from her eyes, one by one.

    "I wish I could take all of your pain away. I wish I could take your place on that wheelchair. I would gladly do anything . . . just to make you happy," Daichi uttered lovingly.

    "Would you really do anything for me?" Lena slowly asked with sadness in her eyes.

    "Yes," he answered immediately.

    "Then . . . let's leave Japan as soon as possible. I don't want to stay here anymore. Take me anywhere . . . as long it is far from Jaejoong. I don't want him to see me like this. I want him to live a happy life without me. If I stay here in Japan or in Korea, there's always the possibility of us crossing each other's paths. I don't want to bother him anymore. I've already decided . . . I'm already letting him go," Lena uttered as tears continuously flowed from her eyes.

    Daichi suddenly embraced Lena. "Don't worry. I'll take care of you . . .I'll take care of everything. We'll leave Japan and I'll help you to forget him."

    Lena suddenly lost her self-control. She suddenly started to cry uncontrollably in Daichi's arms. How she wished that she just died after separating with Jaejoong.

    "Jaejoong . . . I love you. . . Goodbye . . . Goodbye . . ." she continuously uttered in her mind as her tears flowed.