I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 42)

CHAPTER 42

    Lena slowly opened her eyes, and then a familiar face came into view. At first, she thought that she was seeing Jaejoong, but as time passed . . .her vision became clearer and another face appeared. She slowly tried to putsh herself up, Micky hurriedly helped her to sit comfortably onher bed.

    "Micky?" she gently uttered.

    Micky smiled as he gently took Lena's hands. "How are you?"

    Lena tried to smile but she suddenly remembered Jaejoong. And the pain quickly became visible in her eyes. "I really don't know how to answer that question," she replied.

    Micky gently squeezed Lena's hand. "Daichi already told me everything."

    Lena looked at Micky. "Please stop staring at me with pity in your eyes. That's the last thing I want," she weakly uttered.

    Micky lowered his head. "I'm sorry."

    "Why are you here?" she asked suddenly.

    "To see you," he quickly replied.

    "How did you know I was here?" she asked again.

    "Jaejoong told us. We woke up this morning and found him all messed up in the living room. He wasn't himself . . . So we asked him what was wrong. And that was when he told us that he saw you . . ." Micky explained.

    Lena smiled bitterly. "His girlfriend is very beautiful."

    Micky felt that there was a huge lump in his throat. He didn't know how to react to what Lena said.

    "So you already saw Keiko . . . Jaejoong has been going out with her for a month now. But their real relationship just started last week. So there is still a chance for you to . . ." Micky started to say.

    "To what? To break them up? I'm not planning to do such a thing," Lena said as she shook her head in disapproval.

    "But what are you planning to do?" Micky asked.

    "Frankly, I don't know. Maybe Daichi and I can go back to New York. The only reason why I came here is to have Jaejoong back. But I guess . . . I'm too late. So there's no reason for me to stay here anymore. I might as well go back," she answered.

    "So you're going back without clearing everything up with Jaejoong? Aren't you even going to tell him about the child that you're carrying? And aren't you going to tell him about what really happened to you after you left him? Do you know he hates you . . . for leaving him. He thinks that you have easily forgotten him and moved on with your life. That's why you never even tried to contact him for the passed two months," Micky said with concern.

    "What's the use in telling him the truth? He has already moved on. He already had someone new in his life. If I told him the truth . . . do you think it would make any difference? He will just pity me . . . and I would end up ruining his peaceful life again," Lena replied.

    "Think about the child . . . Jaejoong has a right to know," Micky uttered.

    Lena smiled while trying to hide the pain she was feeling. "I don't want to cause anymore problems. I know once I told him about the child . . . his relationship with his girlfriend will definitely be affected. And frankly I don't want to hurt the girl."

    Micky looked deep into Lena's eyes. "God! Why are you so kind? Why don't you think about yourself first? Who cares about Keiko? Do you know that whenever I see you hurting . . . it just breaks my heart into pieces? Before i just set aside my feelings for you because I thought you would be much happier with Jaejoong. But now . . . I'm starting to think that I made a wrong decision. Now I'm starting to think . . . that I should have fought for you. Then maybe . . . I would be the one taking care of you now."

    Lena sadly stared at Micky. "Please Micky, stop! I've already hurt a lot of people . . . I don't want you to be one of them."

    "Why can't I love you?" Micky asked weakly.

    "Because I . . . I don't deserve  to be loved. Anyone who gets involved with me always gets hurt or faces different kinds of bad luck. So please I don't want to hurt anyone . . . anymore . . . especially not you," she answered.

    "Don;t you know that you're already hurting me by refusing my love for you? And why is it that Daichi can be with you . . . and not me?" Micky asked with a hurt look in his eyes.

    Lena suddenly looked away. Somehow her mind had totally gone blank. Micky's question started to echo in her mind.

    "Micky's right. Why am I staying with Daichi when I already know that I'm hurting him over and over again. Why do I keep on hurting him? Is it time for me to leave him too?"

    "Lena . . ." Micky uttered.

    Lena gazed at Micky. "Please don't try to complicate things. You can't possibly fall in love with me. Look at me! I'm totally useless now. All the doctors say that there's something wrong with me  . . . mentally. That's why half of my bopdy is paralyzed and I can't walk. And aside from that . . . I am pregnant. You can't fall in love with a disabled and pregnant woman, Micky. Use your mind!"

    "Why is it that Daichi and Jaejoong are allowed to love you and not me? Don't you think you're being unfair?" Micky asked.

    "I'm not being unfair. Micky. I'm just telling you what is best for you. I've already hurt and brought grief to both Daichi and Jaejoong. I don't want you to be like them. I want to spare you from the pain. So please try to find someone else. . . someone who is more suited for you," Lena begged.

    Micky's heart was slowly breaking as he listened to Lena's words. He then gently embraced Lena.

    Lena was totally surprised by what Micky had done. She felt pity for Micky, but she knew what she had done was the right thing to do.

    "Micky . . . thank you for the concern and love. But I'm very sorry I can't return it," Lena uttered as she gently embraced Micky back.

    "No matter what you say or do, I will still love you in my own way. Let me help you . . . I also want to take care of you, just like what Daichi is doing. I don't care if you only treat me as a friend. That's enough for me. I want to show you how much you mean to me, even if it hurts me. So please let me love you . . ." Micky said with a trembling voice.

    Lena was confused. She wanted to stop Micky but she was afraid to hurt him. So she just decided to silently stay in his arms.
    
    While Micky and Lena were in each other's arms, Daichi unexpectedly walked into the room.

    Daichi instantly felt like his heart was going to explode after seeing Micky and Lena. But he decided to just set aside his personal feelings and deal with more important matters.

    "Lena . . ." Daichi called.

    Micky and Lena, both surprised, looked at Daichi. Lena could see that Daichi was trying to hide the pain he was feeling.

    "Daichi . . ." Lena started to say.

    "We have to go now. One of my men just informed me that someone had already reported to your parents that we have arrived here in Japan. Your parents' men are already searching for us. We have to move now or else they will find us," Daichi said with concern.

    Lena worriedly looked at Daichi. "But where will we go? If they are already searching for us . . . we have nowhere else to go."

    "Frankly I am a little bit confused myself," Daichi replied.

    Micky stared at Lena, then at Daichi. "Maybe I can help," he uttered.

    "How?" Daichi asked with a surprised look on his face.

    "Well . . . both of you can stay in our apartment for the time being. You guys need a place to hide . . . Our apartment would be perfect for that. No one would ever think that you would actually hide in our place," Micky answered.

    "You've got a point there. But . . ." Daichi said as he looked straight at Lena. He was still thinking about her condition and her situation concerning Jaejoong.

    Micky stared at Lena as well. "You don't have to worry about Jaejoong. I'll take care of him."

    Lena shook her head. "No! I don't want to be close to him. And I don't want to see him. I can't possibly stay in your apartment."

    "Lena . . . Micky's got a point. No one would actually look for us in their apartment. We've got no choice . . . Unless you want your parents to know what has happened to you," Daichi said seriously.

    Lena lowered her head. She didn't want her parents to know about her situation. She wanted to make them believe that she was fine. She was afraid that once her parents found out about her condition. They will surely make Daichi's parents pay dearly. And that was the last thing she wanted. Even though Daichi's mother had been cruel with her, she still loved Daichi's parents like her own parents. She didn't want anything bad to happen to them.

    "Lena . . . you've got to decide now," Daichi said anxiously.

    Micky didn't want for Lena's answer. He immediately carried Lena in his arms, and carefully placed her on her wheelchair.

    "Micky . . ." Lena protested.

    "Sssshhh . . ." Micky uttered, then he slowly pushed Lena's wheelchair out of the room.

    Daichi quickly gathered all their bags and followed Lena and Micky out of the apartment.

    Lena's heart was pounding wildly. She didn't know if she was doing the right thing. She was very much afraid of seeing Jaejoong once again.

    "Micky . . . please don't tell him anything about the child . . . and my condition," Lena uttered before Micky opened the door of their apartment.

    "Don't worry. I won't say anything," Micky replied.

    Slowly Lena and Micky entered the DBSK boys' apartment first, followed by Daichi.

    Xiah, Max, U-Know and Jaejoong were all in the living room. As soon as Micky walked in with Lena, a deafening silence suddenly appeared.

    "Lena . . ." Jaejoong was finally able to utter.

    Micky coldly stared at Jaejoong and the other DBSK boys."Lena and Daichi will be staying in my room for a few days. I hope there's no probelem with that."

    Xiah, MAx and U-Know were all stunned. They were totally shocked with what was happening.

    Micky slowly pushed Lena's wheelchair to his room, while Daichi just followed them.

    Lena felt the cold stare that Jaejoong was giving her. She lowered her head and tried to avoid looking at Jaejoong and the other DBSK members. She didn't have any choice, but to endure a few days in the boys' apartment unit.

    After arranging Lena on his bed and a quick talk with Daichi, Micky left his room and went straight to where the other DBSK boys were.

    "What are you planning to do?" Jaejoong quickly asked as soon as Micky sat down infront of him.

    "Planning to do? Well I'm going to take care of her. That's what I'm planning to do," Micky answered sarcastically.

    "Are you out of your mind?" Jaejoong asked.

    Micky smiled as he looked straight at Jaejoong. "Like I told you before . . . I love her. And since you already have Keiko, then that means you no longer want her. So I've decided to make her mine."

    Xiah, Max and U-Know felt a sudden chill. They knew Micky was serious and that he wasn't going to change his mind. He had been in love with Lena from the very beginning. But because of his friendship with Jaejoong, he had decided to let Lena go. But now . . . it seems he wasn't going to let anyone stand in his way again. No matter how . . . no matter what . . . it took, Lena was going to be his . . . and his alone.