I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 54)

CHAPTER 54

 Jaejoong sadly stared at the painting that Lena gave him. Memories were constantly playing in his head, as if trying to torture him, day and night.

 "I'm sorry, Lena. I'm sorry that I wasn't able to take care of you . . . I'm sorry that I easily gave up on our love. I know I've hurt you badly because of the foolish things I did . . . Somehow I can't help but wonder . . .Where are you now Lena? I know you're with Daichi. And just thinking that he's beside you right now is already killing me," tear slowly started to race down Jaejoong's face. "I'm sorry, Lena. I know that even if I say it a million times, I can never endo all the foolish things that I did and all the hurtful words that I said. My mind is all messed up . . . that I can't seem to think straight."

 He suddenly cupped his face with his hands. "What should I do Lena? What should I do? I can't move on. . . No matter how I tried. . . I can't get you out of my mind . . .Now I knoe you're the one I truly love. So please tell me . . . how am I supposed to continue living when my heart is constantly crying out for you? How can I continue holding Keiko's hand . . . when it is your hand I am searching for? Please tell me, how can I hide the truth? I don't want Keiko to get hurt over and over again because of me . . . How can I pretend? What should I do? How I wished that I could just die here . . . right now. I don't want to feel the pain anymore. And I certainly don't want to hurt Keiko and our child. Please god . .. help me . . .I'm so confused," he uttered as he sobbed uncontrollably.

 Several minutes passed . . . Soft knocks were suddenly heard. Jaejoong tried to wipe away his tears.

 "Come in," he tried to utter.

 Keiko slowly entered his room. "Jaejoong, aren't you hungry yet? How about if we have breakfast already? Your friends are already waiting for you," she said sweetly.

 Jaejoong tried to act normal. He didn't want to hurt Keiko's feelings anymore. He was still constantly reminding himself that she was carrying his child.

 "I'm not hungry yet," he just replied.

 "Oh come on, Jae . . . Let's eat already. Our baby is hungry already. You don't want anything bad to happen to our baby, would you?" Keiko said with a sweet smile.

 Jaejoong sighed. "Fine . . . let's eat," he said in defeat. Keiko had been using her condition to constantly push him to do things she wanted him to do. And because he was very concerned with their baby, all he could do was follow her every whim.

 Xiah, Micky, U-Know and Max were already eating in the dining room when Keiko and Jaejoong entered.

 "Hyung, let's eat," Max said with a smile.

 Jaejoong sadly stared at his friends. He already knew what they were thinking. Just like him, they were already tired of Keiko as well.

 Ever since Lena left, Keiko had been acting weird. She became more possessive and demanding. And she had been continuously monitoring and checking all of Jaejoong's moves.

 "Let's eat, baby," Keiko lovingly said to Jaejoong.

 Micky tried to control himself. He needed to wait until the right time came.

 Keiko continued to act sweet and caring to Jaejoong, while they were eating. Somehow Keiko's act had already made Micky's temper rise.

 "You're really quite good in acting. Maybe you should try acting instead of modelling," Micky said to Keiko with a hint of anger in his voice.

 "What? What are you trying to say?" Keiko asked irritatedly.

 "Aren't you tired yet? Why don't you stop pretending and just be honest with yourself," Micky said again.

 Keiko looked at Micky with a strange look on her face. "Can you stop pestering me? You're ruining my appetite . . . and you're upsetting me and my baby."

 "I'm upsetting you . . . and your baby? Oh really? What baby? And whose baby are you referring to?" Micky asked with sarcasm.

 "Micky, stop it. Enough with your foolishness," Jaejoong tried to warn his friend.

 "My foolishness? If there is someone who is being a fool here . . . it isn't me . . .It's you," Micky answered back.

 "Micky . . . please no more fighting. We're eating," U-Know tried to calm down Micky.

 "Yes, just shut up Micky. You're ruining everyone's breakfast," Keiko said with irritation.

 Micky laughed. "You're really funny, Keiko. Frankly you're one extraordinary woman. Tell me, do you even have a conscience?"

 "What?" Keiko asked angrily.

 "Micky, that's enough," Jaejoong said with a raised voice.

 But Micky was already very angry as well. He wasn't going to stop, no matter how hard his friends tried to stop him.

 "Tell me Keiko . . . how does it feel to actually cause someone else's suffering? Doesn't it bother you that while you're trying to fool somebody . . . a woman and a child is suffering? Are you really that evil . . . that you don't even care?" Micky continuously asked Keiko.

 Keiko stared at Micky. Her heart was pounding very hard. She didn't know how to respond to his questions. Somehow her whole body was already trembling in fear.
 
 "So . . . why are you so quiet all of a sudden? Am I already hitting on your conscience? Or maybe you're just afraid . . ." Micky continued.

 "Micky, what are you talking about?' Xiah asked, quite confused.

 Keiko looked at Jaejoong. She didn't want to lose him. She was willing to do anything for him.

 "Look, Micky . . . I don't want any more trouble. Just leave me and Jaejoong alone please . . . for the sake of my baby," Keiko said in a soft voice.

 "Baby? What baby?" Micky asked with a maddening grin.

 Keiko's eyes were already wide with shock. And her heart was already beating very fast.

 "Micky . . ." Xiah uttered with concern.

 "Just shut up! If you want to cause more trouble, be my guest. You're crazy! I think you've totally gone mad," Keiko said with anger in her eyes. She had suddenly become so desperate to defend herself.
 
 "If I'm crazy . . . then you're much worst . . . A beautiful creature . . . yet so deceitful and evil," Micky said with a hidden meaning.

 "Come on, Keiko. I've had enough of this. Let's leave," Jaejoong said as he was about to stand up.

 "Wait . . . Before you go, I have a gift for both of you . . ." Micky spoke.

 "A gift . . . Micky, what's happening to you?" Jaejoong asked with worry.

 Micky slowly stood up and went out of the room. After a few minutes, he returned with a big brown envelope in his hand.

 "What's that?" Jaejoong asked curiously.

 "This? This is my gift . . . for you and Keiko," Micky replied.

 "Jaejoong . . ." Keiko uttered with fear.

 Micky then gave the envelope to Jaejoong. "See . . . what is inside," he said.

 Jaejoong slowly took out the papers that were inside the envelope. He read all the papers . . . one by one.

 "Why?" Jaejoong couldn't help but utter. His whole body was already trembling with anger that was building inside of him.

 "Jaejoong . . ." Keiko uttered as she slowly tried to touch his arm.

 But Jaejoong quickly drew away from her.

 "Why?" he asked again while staring straight at Keiko. "Why did you lie to me? How could you lie to me?"

 "Jaejoong, what are you talking about?" Keiko asked in total denial.

 "What's the meaning of this?" Jaejoong shouted as he violently threw the papers he was holding at Keiko.

 Shocked and scared . . . Keiko picked up the papers and read what was written on it.

 Slowly . . . her eyes became wide with shock. She couldn't believe what she was seeing. It was the result of the medical examination she had two weeks before.

 Keiko stared at Jaejoong with tears in her eyes. "Jaejoong, please let me explain," she said with a trembling voice.

 "Explain what? That you've been fooling me all along?" Jaejoong asked angrily.

 "I only did it because I . . . I love you," Keiko tried to utter.

 "So . . . it is really true? You're not pregnant? You just lied to me? So that I will stay with you . . . is that it? How can you be so selfish?" Jaejoong shouted.

 "I love you, Jaejoong. . .I love you," Keiko uttered.

  Jaejoong felt his entire world was spinning and somehow the anger he was feeling was too much to bear.

 "Get out . . ." Jaejoong shouted at Keiko.
 
 "Jaejoong, please let me explain," she begged.

 "Get out! Please leave . . . before I lose myself . . . and I end up hurting you . . ." Jaejoong shouted with anger.

 Keiko started to cry uncontrollably. "Please forgive me . . . I only did it because I didn't want to lose you. I love you, Jaejoong. I'm sorry. Let's just start all over again . . .please."

 "Leave! While I still have some remaining respect for you . . ." Jaejoong weakly uttered.

 "Jae . . ." Keiko softly spoke.

 "Please leave Keiko. And from now on . . . I don't want to see you ever again," Jaejoong said as he slowly stood up and walked out of the room.

 As soon as Jaejoong left, the remaining DBSK boys slowly walked out of the room as well.

 Keiko cried . . . She knew what she did was wrong. But she loved Jaejoong, and she knew lying to him was the only way she could be sure that he would stay with her. She was desperate just to have him.

 "Jae . . . I'm sorry . . . Please forgive me," she uttered as tears continuously flowed down from her eyes.

 The lie she made up was finally over . . . And she knew no matter what she did . . . she could no longer hold on to Jaejoong's love . . .In reality, it was never really hers in the first place. She just borrowed his heart . . . And now . . . it was time to return it to its real owner. Her tears continued to flow.

 "Goodbye, Jaejoong . . . I'm sorry."