I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 58)

I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (CHAP 58)

CHAPTER 58

            Three hours passed . . . .

 

            Jaejoong was still patiently waiting outside of Lena's house, despite of the cold and hunger he was feeling. He hasn't taken any food or water for more than a day. But he didn't care. All he cared about was getting Lena back.

 

            Jaejoong shivered as a cold wind passed. He tried to make himself warm by rubbing his palms together. Somehow he felt like his body was going to give up any minute.

 

            The two guards at the gate just shook their heads, as they silently watched Jaejoong. They pitied him, but there was nothing else they could do to help him.

 

            Then . . . as if nature was teasing Jaejoong . . . rain started to fall.

 

            Jaejoong stretched his arm and opened his hand, then he stared at the tiny rain drops slowly falling on his hand. Suddenly his arm fell down to his side again. He was already losing all his hopes of seeing Lena again.

 

            "Why is it . . . rain always falls whenever Lena and I are in pain?" he started to ask himself and wonder.

 

            Jaejoong continued to just stand still. He didn't care about himself anymore. He didn't care that he was already soaked in the rain. His whole body trembled, but he just ignored it.

 

            In Lena's room . . . .

 

            Lena had already noticed the sound of rain falling. She hurriedly opened the curtains and looked out of the window.

 

            Somehow her heart immediately stopped after seeing Jaejoong's pitiful condition. He was still standing outside the gate . . . soaked in the rain . . .

 

            "Fool . . . why are you still standing there? Just leave . . . Forget about me . . . You'll get sick, if you continue to stand there . . . Just go, Jaejoong . . .

please," Lena uttered with concern. She continued to watch Jaejoong, while hiding behind a curtain.

 

            Another hour passed . . . .

 

            Tears were already streaming down from Lena's eyes.

 

            "You'll get sick, Jaejoong . . . Don't do this please . . . Just go . . . Stop your foolishness . . . I don't want you to get sick . . . Come on, Jaejoong. . . Don't be stubborn," she continuously uttered with concern.

 

            Then . . . unexpectedly Jaejoong fell down on his knees. He was already very tired and weak.

 

            "Jaejoong!" Lena cried out in fear.

 

            Suddenly Lena's wheelchair moved away from the window. Lena looked at who was behind her.

 

            "Daichi . . ." she uttered.

 

            Daichi then slowly pushed Lena's wheelchair out of her room.

 

            "Daichi, where are you taking me?" Lena asked.

 

            "I'm taking you . . . where you truly belong," he simply replied with extreme sadness in his voice.

 

            Daichi slowly took Lena into his arms, then he gently carried her down the stairs.

 

            "Daichi," Lena uttered with a trembling voice. She could easily see that he was hurting.

 

            As soon as they were down the stairs, Daichi then placed Lena into another wheelchair. Then with a heavy heart, he pushed her wheelchair towards the front door.

 

            "Daichi . . ." she uttered again, as if questioning him what he was doing.

 

            But Daichi just continued to push Lena's wheelchair until they reached the door. Then before he opened the door, he knelt down in front of Lena. . . .

 

            Tears were already forming in his eyes.

 

            "Daichi . . .why? Why are you crying?" Lena asked with concern. She gently caressed his face, as if to comfort him.

 

            Daichi took Lena's hands and gently kissed each hand. Then as he held her hands, his tears started to fall.

 

            "Daichi . . . what's wrong? Please . . . don't cry . . ." Lena uttered as tears were also forming in her eyes.

 

            Daichi looked deep into Lena's eyes. Somehow he felt his heart was going to explode. At that moment, how he wished that he could just wither away and die.

 

            "Lena . . . I want you to remember that I love you . . . No matter who you are with, I will always love you and keep a special part of you locked in my heart. If there comes a time that you will need me again . . . always remember . . . I'm here for you. I will gladly do anything for you," he said as tears continuously flowed from his eyes. Then he lovingly touched Lena's face, and he started to look at every part of her face. He wanted to memorize all of it, and keep it locked away in his heart and mind. "Take care of yourself, Lena. . . I love you . . ." he said as he finally broke down into a sob, and placed his head on Lena's lap.

 

            "Daichi . . . why? Why are you saying goodbye?" Lena asked as she tried to comfort him by caressing his head.

 

            Daichi tried to control himself. He tried to stop himself from crying and looked at Lena again.

 

            "Promise me, you'll take good care of yourself . . . Always eat on time . . . Don't stay up too late . . . Don't do things that might make you tired . . .

Promise me, you'll remember me . . ." he said with extreme sadness so visible in his eyes.

 

            "Why are you saying those things?" she asked again, as if totally confused.

 

            "Because . . . because I'm letting you go again. . . for the very last time . . . I'm returning you to Jaejoong. I know how much you love him, and I can see that he loves you too. Even if my heart doesn't agree with my decision, I know I'm still doing the right thing. The two of you . . . belong together. I know he's the only one who can give you the happiness you deserve," he uttered with sadness.

 

            "But . . . he already has Keiko . . . What about the baby she's carrying? I can't possibly return to him now . . . I don't want an innocent child to suffer because of me," she said sadly.

 

            Daichi shook his head. "You don't have anything to be worried about anymore . . . Keiko isn't pregnant. She was just lying so she could keep Jaejoong beside her . . . There's no child to worry about . . . You're both free to love each other now . . ."

 

            Lena stared at Daichi. Somehow she couldn't believe what she just heard. "How? How did you know?" she asked with a trembling voice.

 

            "Jaejoong told me. That's the reason why he's here. He wanted to tell you that Keiko was just lying," Daichi answered.

 

            Lena's heart suddenly jumped with joy. But her happiness was immediately replaced with confusion.

 

            "But Daichi . . . what about you? I've already agreed to marry you. . . I can't possibly leave you again," she said with concern.

 

            Daichi tried to put on a smile. Then he tightly held her hands. "You don't have to worry about me . . . I'm much stronger that Jaejoong. I . . . I can live without you . . . and I know he can't. That's why I'm setting you free . . . I'm giving you back to him. I know he can't live without you . . ."

 

            "Daichi . . ." Lena uttered as she started to sob. "I'm sorry . . . for hurting you again . . .I'm sorry . . ."

 

            Daichi shook his head. "No, don't say sorry . . . You still gave me something very special. . . something I will treasure forever . . ." then he wiped away Lena's tears. "You taught me how to love sincerely Lena. You made me a better man. . . And that is something I will be forever grateful for . . ."

 

            "Daichi . . ." Lena uttered as she embraced him tightly.

 

            "Lena, I love you. That's why I'm doing this . . ." he uttered as he took in a deep breath. He was trying very hard to control himself. He didn't want to cry endlessly. He wanted to show Lena that he was strong.

 

            For the very last time . . . Daichi tightly held Lena in his arms. How he wished that time could just stand still so he didn't have to let her go. But he knew it was impossible . . . He had to release her . . . even if his own heart was crying because of it.

 

            Slowly he started to search for her lips. He wanted to kiss her for the very last time. . . He knew he will never have the chance to do it again.

 

            Lena willingly gave in to his kisses. And while they kissed each other, both their tears started to fall again.

 

            Somehow their hearts were saying goodbye to each other for the final time. Even though their hearts never found the right path to each other as lovers . . . they still found another path . . . a much stronger one . . . a path that will keep them together . . . Their hearts found the path of eternal friendship.

            Daichi slowly drew away from Lena. He knew if he continued to kiss her . . . he might never have the courage to set her free again.

 

            He tried to wipe away his tears, then smiled. Afterwards he also gently brushed away Lena's tears.

 

            "From now on . . . I want you to be stronger . . . I don't want you to ever cry again . . . It's time . . . I'm giving you back to the man you really love," he said with a smile.

 

            As Daichi slowly opened the door, he felt his heart had suddenly died. With heavy hearts, they went out of the door . . . .

 

            Back at the gate . . . .

 

            Jaejoong was still down on his knees. He didn't have the strength to stand up anymore. His entire body was already beginning to numb.

 

            But despite of everything that was happening to him, he still tried to stop himself from giving up. He loved Lena, and he was willing to do anything for her.

 

            His body shivered once again. Somehow he was already feeling

hopeless and alone. He just stared at the ground as the rain continued to fall.

 

            Suddenly . . . the rain drops stopped falling. . .

 

            Jaejoong slowly looked up . . . someone was sheltering him with an umbrella. Somehow he felt like he couldn't breathe.

 

            "Lena . . ." he uttered as his heart was beating fast.

 

            "Jaejoong . . ." she said with tears in her eyes.