I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 53)

CHAPTER 53

    Jaejoong slowly entered their apartment. His whole body was still wet from the rain. But he didn't care about anything anymore. He had lost Lena once again. And this time he knew it was already impossible to have her back.

    As soon as he entered the living room . . .

    "Hyung . . ." Max uttered with concern. "What happened? Where's Lena? Did you find her?"

    Jaejoong stared sadly at his friends. "I . . . I was too late. Daichi was already with her when I found her."

    "Daichi? So what? He doesn't interfere at all. And he's always supported you and Lena. So why didn't you talk with her?" Micky asked.

    Jaejoong suddenly sat down on the sofa. He felt very weak. "I . . . I . . . I tried to . . . But she didn't want to talk to me anymore. I guess I've already hurt her so much . . . She's already tired of me."

    "Hyung, don't say such things. Lena loves you so much. She will never grow tired of you," Max said as he gently covered Jaejoong with a towel.

    Jaejoong tried to put on a smile. "I guess this is what you call bad karma. I've done so many bad things to her . . . and I've already said so many hurtful words. I guess I deserve this. Now I know how painful it is . . . to see the one you love with someone else," he uttered as tears slowly filled his eyes.

    "You're being a fool again, Jaejoong. Don't tell me you're just going to give up so easily. She loves you. You love her. That is all that matters," Micky said as he tried to put on a brave face.

    Jaejoong closed his eyes. The memories of Lena's beautiful face . . . her eyes filled with tears . . . Then he saw himself as he begged her to stay . . . Then he saw himself while he was running after the car where Lena was . . .And finally he saw himself crying in the rain . . . so pitiful . . . that his heart started to hurt again.

    As his eyes were closed, tears traced down his face.

    Max saw Jaejoong's tears, then he sadly looked at the other DBSK boys. Their hearts were silently bleeding out for their friend.

    "Jaejoong . . ." Micky uttered.

    "She . . . she already accepted Daichi's marriage proposal. She said that we weren't supposed to be together. And that I should be responsible for Keiko . . . and the baby she's carrying," Jaejoong said as he opened his eyes.

    "What? Marriage proposal?" Micky asked in disbelief.

    "I was already too late. I'm such a fool . . . How could I have so many stupid things? If I didn't mess around with Keiko . . . then maybe she would have stayed with me . . . maybe she would still be here . . . maybe I would be the one taking care of her and our baby," Jaejoong said as he started to cry. "It hurts . . . It hurts . . . I still love her . . . And I actually thought that everything would finally be all right. I thought I would finally have the chance to hold her one again. I miss her so much. . . that it's making me crazy. I love her . . . Please make the pain stop. I can't take it anymore. Why did things become like this? Why can't we love each other freely? Why does things always end up being so complicated? God . . .I want to die. I think I'm going crazy with all the pain I'm feeling. I don't think I can continue another day without her . . . and our baby."

    U-Know sat down beside Jaejoong, then he gently embraced him. How he pitied his friend . . .

    Jaejoong continued to cry as memories started to fill his mind.

    "Be strong . . . You'll get through this somehow," U-Know softly uttered.

    Micky looked at Jaejoong. His heart was breaking too . . . not only for Jaejoong, but for himself as well. Lena was going to marry Daichi. He knew Daichi was a good man and that he was going to take good care of her. But the thought still brought pain to his heart. He loved Lena, and it was painful for him to know that she was with another man.

    In the airport . . . .

    "What are you thinking?" Daichi asked Lena.

    Lena looked at Daichi. "Nothing . . .I was just thinking about something."

    Daichi gently held Lena's hand. "Please stop thinking about Jaejoong. You'll only hurt yourself, if you continue to think about him."

    Lena nodded her head. "Don't worry. . . from now on . . . I'll try to forget him," she said as she tried to put on a smile.

    "Once we leave Japan . . . I hope you will also leave all his memories behind. Let's start a new life together . . . New memories, for me, for you and for our baby," Daichi said lovingly as he tightly held her hand.

    Lena's heart suddenly skipped a beat. She knew she was doing the right thing. But she still couldn't deny the fact that her heart was longing for Jaejoong.

    An hour passed . . .

    As Lena silently looked out of the airplane window, her heart was constantly crying out Jaejoong's name.

    "I'm sorry, Jaejoong. Always remember that I will always love you and keep you in my heart and mind. I hope you will be happy with Keiko. I know you will be a wonderful husband to her and a very loving father to your child . . . Maybe someday . . . you will also have the chance to meet our baby . . . But I'm sorry that I won't be able to tell our child who you really are . . . Take care my friend . . . I'll always be praying for your happiness."

    A week later . . . .

    Max, U-Know, Xiah and Micky all sat in the living room while waiting for Jaejoong to wake up.

    "I'm really concerned about Jaejoong. He's returning to his condition before," U-Know uttered.

    "Don't worry. I don't think he's going to get another girl pregnant again," Micky said with sarcasm. "With the way Keiko is constantly watching over him. He wouldn't even have the chance to talk with another girl."

    Max sighed. "I wonder where Lena is right now. I hope she's doing fine."

    "Frankly how I wish that everything will be back to normal again. If I could only turn back time, I would surely fix everything between Lena and Jaejoong," Xiah said with a certain glitter in his eyes.

    "Honestly . . . how I wish that Keiko would just disappear from the face of the earth. I think she's a devil disguised as an angel," Micky said with hatred.

    Max couldn't help but laugh. "You know I'm also starting to think that way too. What a pity! Such a beautiful face with such an ugly character."

    "Tell me do you guys really believe that she's pregnant?" Micky suddenly asked.

    Xiah, U-Know and Max looked at each other.

    "Somehow I have the feeling that she's lying," Max answered.

    "But Jaejoong believes her," Xiah added.

    "Jaejoong is a fool . . ." Micky uttered. "He's been drowning himself in self-pity and liquor again ever since Lena left with Daichi."

    "What can we do to help him?" Max asked.

    "Nothing. He's the one who should help himself," Micky answered.

    Max sighed. "What time is it? I think any minute now . . . Keiko will be appearing again. . . acting like nothing ever happened. I can't help myself, but I just find her so disgusting and annoying."

    Xiah nodded his head. "Honestly I feel the same way. I know it's quite bad that we're actually despising her. But I still can't accept what she did to Lena."

    U-Know sighed as well. "Maybe we can just pretend . . . There's nothing we can do anyway. Lena's gone, and Keiko is still pregnant. No matter how much we dislike Keiko, there's nothing else to do but accept her."

    "Everything that is happening is total madness . . . And whatever happens, I will never learn to like Keiko. I will never accept her . . . her and her child," Micky said coldly.

    "Hyung . . . you're being harsh. The child shouldn't be blamed for Keiko's mistakes. That's too unfair," Max still tried to put some sense into Micky.

    "Unfair? Lena is paralyzed . . . pregnant . . . and going to marry someone she doesn't love . . . now that is unfair!" Micky voiced out.

    The other DBSK boys suddenly became silent. They knew what Micky said was right. Deep inside their hearts, they all wished that Lena could be the one beside Jaejoong right now . . . and not Keiko.

    Suddenly the doorbell rang. Micky quickly got up and went to the door.

    Several minutes passed, he returned into the room holding a big brown envelope. The expression on his face was quite dark and scary. He was obviously very angry, and somehow his eyes couldn't hide his emotions.

    "What's wrong?" Xiah asked with concern.

    "What's that you're holding?" U-Know asked as well.

    Micky just continued to stare blankly at his friends, as if thinking of something very important.

    "Why? What happened? Why are you suddenly angry?" Max asked curiously.

    Micky tried to control himself. "I just found out something very interesting."

    "What?" Max asked again.

    "You will all find out . . . as soon as Keiko shows up . . . I want it to be a surprise," Micky answered as he gritted his teeth in anger.

    Xiah, Max and U-Know exchanged glances with one another. They didn't know what was going on . . . But they had a feeling it was something very important.

    Time ticked away . . . All of them patiently waited until Keiko finally arrived.

    As soon as she entered the room, a devilish grin appeared on Micky's face. "The show has just begun," he finally uttered.