I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAP 52)

CHAPTER 52

    Jaejoong hurriedly went out of the apartment building. He tried to look for Lena . . .hoping that she would still be aroound. As he continuously walked, looking from left to right. . . people started to take notice of him.

    "Where are you Lena?" he asked in his mind.

    Then memories started to rush into his mind. The same thing had happened before. The only thing missing now was the rain.

    As soon as he thought about the rain . . . tiny raindrops started to fall.

    "The park . . ." he quickly uttered. He had a feeling that she was there. "Lena, please wait for me. Please wait for me . . . I promise I'm going to make everything right," he uttered as he ran to the park as fast as he could.

    In the park . . .

    Lena had been staring blankly at the people passing by. Somehow she had totally lost her mind. She couldn't even think straight.

    She sighed. "Where do I go now? It's almost dark. I can't possibly stay here all night . . . and even if I stayed here all night . . . I would still have the same problem tomorrow . . . I would still be homeless."

    A cold breeze suddenly made her shiver.

    "I wonder where Daichi is right now. But if I call him . . . I would only be pushing all my problems back to him . . . I've already caused him so much trouble . . . And I really think he deserves to have a break from me and my problems . . ." she said to herself.

    She started to gently rub her abdomen.

    "Do you think I am a bad person baby? Why can't I be happy? Why does my life have to be so complicated? Why can't I be with the man I love? Sometimes I can't help but think . . . that maybe I've done something wrong. That's why I'm being punished now . . . Problems seem to always follow me wherever I go . . . And everyone who becomes involved with me . . . seems to suffer different problems too. Maybe I am really cursed. . . cursed to live my life alone."

    Slowly tears started to form in her eyes. "Here I go again . . . Why am I such a cry baby? Even if I don't want to cry . . . I always end up crying anyway," she uttered as she tried to laugh.

    A young couple with a baby suddenly passed in front of Lena. Her heart ached as she saw them. Somehow she couldn't help but envy them.

    "I'm sorry baby. You will never have the chance to be with your father. Frankly I don't know if you will even have the chance to know or meet him. Things are so complicated . . . It would be better if we just stayed away," she uttered sadly.

    Then . . . Lena's phone started to ring.

    "Hello . . ." she uttered as she answered her phone.

    "Lena, I'm going back to you now. I'll be with you . . . in a few minutes . . . So do you want me to buy you something? What do you want to eat?" Daichi happily uttered. He was so glad that he was finally going to be with Lena again.

    "Daichi . . ." she uttered. Somehow she didn't know how to tell him that she wasn't in the DBSK boys' apartment anymore.

    "Lena . . ." Daichi said as he tried to figure out the noise that he was hearing from Lena's phone. "Lena . . . where are you? Why is it so noisy there? What are you doing?" he asked continuously.

    "Daichi . . . I . . . I'm not in the boys' apartment anymore," she finally confessed.

    "What? Where are you? What happened?" Daichi asked worriedly.

    "I'm in a park . . . near the boys's apartment," she replied.

    "Turn around . . . and go to the park. I think we just passed it," Daichi said to his driver.

    "Yes, sir," the driver replied.

    "Lena, stay where you are. I'll come and get you. Tell me where you are exactly . . ." Daichi said with concern.

    "I'm near the playground . . . near a bench," she answered.

    She then stared at the bench near her. It was only then that she realized that it was the same bench where Jaejoong found her crying . . . months before.

    "Jaejoong . . ." she started to remember him again.

    "Lena . . . I'll be there in a few minutes okay," Daichi said.

    "Okay . . . don't worry. I won't go anywhere," she uttered as she finally closed her phone.

    "Hurry," Daichi told his driver.

    Lena quietly looked at the sky. "I think it's going to rain . . ." She then started to remember the past. All the sad and painful memories started to rush into her mind.

    Tears quickly fell down from her eyes after remembering all the things that Keiko said.

    And as her tears fell . . . tiny rain drops started to fall as well. Lena just lowered her head and started to sob. She didn't care about the rain or whether she was going to get wet and sick afterwards.

    Pity, slowly crept into her heart. She was thinking that even the rain was trying to hide her tears. She pitied herself . . . but she pitied her baby the most.

    While Lena was crying in the rain . . . someone suddenly sheltered her with an umbrella.

    Lena slowly looked up at the man standing in front of her.

    "Daichi . . ." she uttered with joy and relief.

    Daichi's heart ached as he looked at Lena's pitiful condition. He quickly took off his coat and carefully wrapped it around Lena.
    
    "You're so cold . . ." he uttered worriedly.

    "I . . . I'm fine," she tried to say while trying to control the quivering of her voice.

    "Why are you here? What happened? Why isn't Micky taking care of you?" Daichi asked continuously again.

    "It's not Micky's fault. I left while they were all gone. I left . . . because I wanted to," she tried to explain.

    "But why? Did something happen?" he asked again.

    Lena didn't know what to say. She didn't want to lie to Daichi.
    
    "I left because I'm constantly ruining Jaejoong's relationship with Keiko . . . I don't want to interfere anymore . . . especially now . . . that Keiko is pregnant with Jaejoong's child," she confessed.
    
    "What?" Daichi asked in total disbelief. "Jaejoong got that girl pregnant too?"
    
    Lena tried to smile. "I guess we're really not supposed to be together . . . Even fate is trying to set us apart. The only thing I regret now . . . is that my baby won't have a father."
    
    Daichi slowly bent down in front of Lena. "I'm here . . . I'll be the father of you child, if you allow me to. You know I'm willing to do anything for you."
    
    "Daichi, aren't you tired yet? Aren't you tired of constantly taking care of me?" Lena asked weakly.
    
    "No, I will never get tired of taking care of you," he lovingly answered.
    
    "Daichi, I . . . I . . . I don't know if I can ever learn how to forget Jaejoong. It would only be unfair to you . . . if we stayed together," she uttered.
    
    Daichi's heart suddenly felt a sharp pain. "Are you trying to say goodbye to me too? Because if you are . . . I'm already telling you . . . I won't accept it."
    
    Lena started to cry again. "But it's so unfair to you . . . to be with me . . . when I can't give you anything back in return. I'll just be making you tired, day after day. And I know there will come a time . . .that you won't have any strength left because you've wasted all of it on me. Do you understand me, Daichi? I know I won't be able to make you happy . . . So why do you still want to waste your love and your time on me?"
    
    Daichi suddenly let go of the umbrella he was holding.
    
    "Lena," he uttered as he finally knelt down in front of her.
    
    Drop by drop, the rain continued to soak both Daichi and Lena.
    
    "Daichi, you're getting wet," Lena said with concern as she tried to wipe away the rain drops that were falling down on his face. Then she suddenly stopped. . .
    
    As her hands were touching Daichi's face, it was only then that she noticed something . . . Daichi was crying.
    
    "You're crying? Why?" Lena asked.
    
    "Because of you . . . I can't live without you Lena. Even if the whole world laughs at me or despises me . . . I don't care . . . as long as you're near me. I'm willing to endure any pain or hardship. I was willing to let you go because I know you would be happier if you were with Jaejoong. But now . . . now that you can't be with him. Don't you think it would be more unfair to me . . . if you didn't stay with me? I love you . . . I'm willing to give the world to you. So please don't leave me. I'll die if you leave me," Daichi uttered with pain and sadness in his eyes.
    
    Lena's heart suddenly melted with Daichi's words. She knew she couldn't match the kind of love and attention he had given her . . . but she had finally decided to give it a try. He had already done so much for her . . . It was time for her to pay him back.
    
    "Lena, let's get married. I know I won't be able to match Jaejoong in your heart. But I'm willing to wait even if it takes a lifetime," Daichi slowly uttered.
    
    Lena closed her eyes for a few seconds. Somehow her whole world was spinning. Both her heart and her mind were screaming out different names. But she knew she needed to make a choice.
    
    As she gently opened her eyes, Jaejoong's image was the first thing that she saw . . . But as time passed by, Jaejoong's image was replaced with Daichi's pitiful image. Her heart ached as she realized that she was day dreaming again.
    
    "Lena," Daichi uttered as he took her hand. "Will you marry me?"
    
    Lena's heart pounded after hearing those words.
    
    "Lena?" Daichi repeated again.
    
    Slowly . . . Lena nodded her head. Even though her mind was telling her that it was the right thing to do, she still couldn't stop her heart from crying and calling out Jaejoong's name.
    
    Daichi's face suddenly lit up with joy. He then embraced Lena tightly.

    "Thank you . . . I promise I'll take good care of you and our baby," he happily said.

    Lena just returned Daichi's embrace and continued to be silent. She was afraid that he might notice the sadness in her voice.

    Then Daichi started to kiss Lena. A familiar and comforting feeling suddenly filled Lena's soul. Daichi's kiss was sweet and gentle. But there was still something missing.

    A few meters away, Jaejoong was already soaked in the rain. He had been standing in the same spot for more than fifteen minutes already. He had been watching Lena and Daichi. Somehow he felt like his heart was going to burst because of the pain he was feeling. His eyes were filled with tears, as he continuously watched Lena and Daichi kissing each other. The scene brought so much pain and sadness that he wanted to cry out and scream.

    He had tried very hard to find Lena . . . to make up with her . . . to have her back. But he was too late. She was already in Daichi's arms when he found her.

    Jaejoong's entire body was somehow numb to the cold. He was like a statue standing in the rain, with tears streaming down his face. How he wished that everything he was seeing was just a dream.

    "Let's go . . . You're already soaked. You might get sick, if we stay out in the rain any longer," Daichi said lovingly to Lena, after finally releasing her from his kiss.

    Lena nodded. Suddenly the rain stopped. Daichi had already turned Lena's wheelchair, and was about to go to their car when . . .

    "Lena . . . can we talk . . . please?" Jaejoong begged.

    Lena felt miserable as she looked at Jaejoong's face.

    "What do you want?" Daichi asked coldly.

    "I want to talk with Lena . . . even for a few minutes," Jaejoong answered.

    "You don't have anything to talk about. We're leaving. So please get out of the way," Daichi said indifferently.

    "No, we have a lot of things to talk about. Please just a few minutes," Jaejoong begged again.

    Daichi looked at Lena, then at Jaejoong again. "I'm sorry, but she doesn't want to talk to you."

    Jaejoong stared at Lena. Then he hurriedly knelt down in front of her. "Please, we've got to talk. There's so many things we need to clear out. I need to explain . . . and ask for your forgiveness."

    "Jaejoong . . ." Lena uttered. Somehow her heart was feeling very heavy seeing the agony in Jaejoong's eyes.

    Jaejoong took Lena's hands and tightly hel them. "I'm sorry . . . Please forgive me," he uttered.

    Slowly tears flowed down from Lena's eyes. "Jaejoong, what are you doing here? You're supposed to be with Keiko."

    Jaejoong stared straight into Lena's eyes. "Why didn't you tell me? Why did you hide? Do you think I would love you any less if you were on a wheelchair? Why did you have to hide the truth from me?"

    "I . . . I didn't want you to feel burdened with my condition. I was afraid that I would be too embarrassing for you. I didn't think I was good enough to be beside you," Lena tried to explain.

    Jaejoong gently kissed Lena's hands. "I love you . . . with all my heart. How could you possibly thought that you would be a burden to me? I love you Lena . . . Do you hear me? I loved you before and I still love you now."

    Lena tried to control herself. She didn't want to cry uncontrollably in front of Jaejoong.

    "You love me? If you truly love me . . . tell me . . . why is Keiko in your life right now? And if you truly loved me . . . tell me . . . why is Keiko pregnant with your child?" she asked with a trembling voice.

    Jaejoong felt there was a huge lump in his throat. Somehow he didn't know how to answer Lena's questions. He knew she had a point, and he knew he had hurt her badly with Keiko.

    "I'm sorry . . . After you left, I was angry. I wanted to forget. So I played around. I know I was weak. I made a lot of mistakes. But I was really hurt . . . I thought you had totally abandoned me," Jaejoong tried to explain.

    Lena tried to smile. "I . . . I don't blame you. I know I also made some mistakes. But there's nothing we can do now. You have Keiko to think about now. You have to be responsible for her . . . and the child she is carrying."

    Jaejoong looked at Lena. "But you're carrying my child as well. And now, now I know everything . . . I want to make it up to you. I want to be the one who takes care of you. . . you and our baby."

    "But it's too late, Jaejoong," Lena uttered as she finally broke down. "Can't you see? We're not meant to be together. . ."

    "Too late? What do you mean?" Jaejoong asked, quite confused.

    "She's already agreed to marry me, Jaejoong," Daichi suddenly revealed.

    Bewildered, Jaejoong looked at Daichi, then at Lena. "You can't possibly marry him Lena. I'm the one you love . . . I'm the father of the child that growing inside of you. Please take back what you said. Tell Daichi that you're not going to marry him. Tell him . . . you're going to marry me," he uttered with tears in his eyes.

    Lena looked deep into Jaejoong's eyes. "I'm sorry, Jaejoong. But . . . Keiko needs you . . . Please understand . . . I have to give you up for the sake of an innocent child."

    "But what about our child? What about the baby inside you? Don't you think you're being unfair to our baby?" Jaejoong asked persistently.

    Lena tried to control her sobbing. "Sorry, Jaejoong. I'm sorry . . ." she then looked at Daichi. "Let's go."

    Jaejoong quickly tried to hold Lena's wheelchair. "No, I still need to talk to you. You can't go. I won't let you go," he cried out as he placed his head on her lap. "Please, don't go. I beg you . . . Don't leave me . . . I'm sorry for all the hurt I've caused you. I promise you . . . I'll make it up to you. Don't go . . . I love you . . . I don't want to lose you again. Please don't leave me," he continuously said while tears flowed from his eyes.

    Lena bit her lower lip. She pitied Jaejoong. She felt her heart was already bleeding as she watched Jaejoong.

    Daichi had already called his driver and bodyguard. The two men tried to pull Jaejoong away from Lena, but Jaejoong resisted.

    "Please don't hurt him," Lena cried out to the men. "Jaejoong, it's over. Just accept it . . . Go back to Keiko . . . She's your life now."

    "No! You're my life. You're the one I love. Please don't do this. . . I need you. Don't go. Don't leave me," Jaejoong begged once again.

    Lena had started to cry uncontrollably again. Daichi quickly took Lena away from Jaejoong.

    "Lena! Lena! Lena!" Jaejoong shouted as he tried to break free from the men's grip.

    Lena glanced back at Jaejoong as she moved farther and farther away from him. "Jaejoong," she uttered as tears streamed down her face.

    Daichi and Lena were already in the car when the men hurriedly released Jaejoong and ran to the car.

    Jaejoong tried to catch up, but the men had already gotten inside the car, and had quickly started the car.

    "Lena . . . please don't leave . . . I beg you . . . Come back to me . . ." Jaejoong begged as he tried to keep pace with the moving car. He was already banging on the window of the car just to get Lena's attention.

    Lena looked at Jaejoong for the very last time. With tears in her eyes, her lips moved to say I love you.

    "What are you guys waiting for? Let's leave," Daichi said angrily to his men.
    
    The car moved faster . . . Jaejoong ran and tried to catch up.

    "Lena! Lena!" he kept on shouting her name.

    But no matter how hard he tried, the car easily left him behind.

    Jaejoong fell down on his knees. Then the rain slowly started to fall again. As his tears fell down, the rain tried to hide it with its own drops. Jaejoong felt like it was the end of the world fro him. How he wished that he would wake up already from the bad dream he was having. How he wished that everything wasn't real. . . How he wished . . .

    "Lena!" he screamed one last time before finally breaking down.

    The rain continued to pour, as if trying to hide Jaejoong's tears, and it was somehow trying to make his heart numb from all the pain.

    Lena stared blankly at the rain, as it fell down on the window of the car. She couldn't help but picture Jaejoong still crying in the rain. Her heart ached . . .

    "Jaejoong . . ." she uttered as she cried for him for the very last time.