I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 39)

CHAPTER 39

 

            Two months passed . . . . New York . . . .

 

            "Lena, are you all right? You've been looking quite pale these passed few days. How about we go to the doctor today?" Daichi said worriedly.

 

            Lena tried to smile. She wasn't really feeling well. But she was afraid to tell Daichi because she knew he would be worried. Somehow she didn't want to add more problems on him.

 

            "I'm all right. Don't worry about me," she tried to assure Daichi.

 

            "No, we're going to see a doctor today. I'm not accepting that 'I'm all right' line of yours," Daichi said seriously.

 

            Lena suddenly let out a long sigh. "Very well . . ." she suddenly uttered.

 

            Later in the doctor's office . . .

 

            "Congratulations . . ." the doctor happily greeted.

 

            Lena and Daichi exchanged glances with each other. They were both very confused.

 

            "Congratulations? On what?" Lena asked.

 

            "You're two months pregnant, Lena. You should take care of yourself more carefully starting from today," the doctor said with a big smile on his face.

 

            Somehow Lena felt that her whole world started spinning.

 

            "How can I be pregnant? What about my condition? Will my condition have any effect on the child that I am carrying?" Lena asked worriedly.

 

            The doctor lightly laughed. "Don't worry. Your physical condition won't have any negative effect on the baby you're carrying. But I'm already telling you that you will have to undergo caesarian operation to deliver the baby. You won't be able to do it normally."

 

            Lena sadly stared at Daichi. He had been silently looking at her, after hearing what the doctor said.

 

            "Daichi . . ." she uttered as if asking his forgiveness.

 

            An hour later . . . .

 

            Lena and Daichi quietly left the doctor's office and went back to their home in total silence.

 

            Lena didn't even dare to start a conversation with Daichi. She was very afraid of what he was going to say. She knew taking care of her was already very tiring for him. . . . and now with her new condition. She was surely going to add more burden on him. Somehow she pitied him. She knew she was already hurting him whenever she talked about Jaejoong, or whenever he caught her thinking about him. And now she was going to make him take care of another man's child. It was total madness. Their whole situation would drive a normal guy crazy, but Daichi tried to accept everything and bear all the pain without any complaint.

 

            As soon as Lena and Daichi arrived home, Daichi immediately decided that both of them needed to talk.

 

            "Lena . . . ." Daichi uttered.

 

            Lena was looking out of the window again as if thinking of something. She slowly stared at Daichi after hearing him say her name.

 

            Daichi walked up to Lena, then knelt down in front of her. He stared at Lena for a few minutes before finally saying what was on his mind.

 

            "Lena . . . what are we going to do now? Aren't you going to tell Jaejoong about the child?" he asked.

 

            Lena smiled bitterly, then she slowly shook her head. "What's the use of telling him? Both me and the child would only be a burden to him . . . I can't even dare to iamgine what would happen if a news about us broke out. Imagine . . . a famous band member with a crippled and pregnant girlfriend. That would be totally embarrassing for him."

 

            "Can you please stop thinking about his image as a singer and start thinking about him as a man . . . a man who loves you. You're always deciding on your own. . . . on what's good for him or for both of you. You don't let him express his own opinions on the things that you do. For example, after learning half of your body is paralyzed, you just decide on your own that you shouldn't tell him. That he would be better off without you. And now . . . now that you're pregnant with his child, you're deciding on your own again. That child doesn't belong to you alone. . . . it also belongs to Jaejoong. He's the father so he has a right to know," Daichi said seriously.

 

            "Daichi . . . I'm not taking away his right with the child. It's just that I'm quite confused and scared. If he knew about my real condition . . . will he still love me? Will he still accept me? And if he learns about our baby . . . will he accept the child? Or will he just be responsible for the child and not for me? There are a lot of questions racing in my head . . . questions I'm afraid to answer," Lena slowly uttered.

 

            Daichi took Lena's hand. "You have to find the answers to your questions, Lena. It is the only way to let yourself be free of all the worries and fears. You can't go on hiding forever. If by chance . . . he doesn't want you back . . . I'm here . . . I'll take care of you . . . you and your child. I'll take care of your baby as if it is my own. No one doesn't even need to know that it isn't my child. Only you and I will know the truth."

 

            "Thank you Daichi. . . I don't know what I would do without you. Thank you for being always by my side . . . for taking care of me. . . for understanding me . . . for always giving me advises . . . I don't think I can even repay your kindness . . . ." Lena sadly uttered.

 

            Daichi smiled. "I'm not expecting anything. I did all these things so I could help you. So you shouldn't think about paying me back, returning my kindness. Because frankly, being able to be with you is already a big reward for me. Just having you near me . . . already makes my life complete. I have you . . . and I will continue to love you without any limitations or conditions."

 

            "Then . . .let's return to Tokyo as soon as possible. You will still be beside me . . . . right?" Lena slowly uttered as if afraid of what Daichi would answer.     

 

            Daichi smiled. "Yes, of course. I will always be beside you . . . as long as you need me," then he slowly embraced Lena.          

 

            While Lena was in Daichi's arms, her mind was already being filled with so many questions and thoughts.           

 

            "How are you Jaejoong? I wonder if you're angry with me . . . Are you also thinking of me? Do I even cross your mind . . . even for a short time? Are you missing me? I miss you so much, Jaejoong. Please wait for me . . . I'll be there soon. We'll be meeting again. I can't wait to see your face again. I want . . . to touch your face . . . to touch your hand . . . to feel your warm embrace . . . I miss you. I'll be with you again. Just wait for me."

 

            Back in Tokyo . . . .

 

            "Hyung, where are you going?" Max asked as Jaejoong suddenly went out of his room, all dressed up.

 

            "Out . . ." Jaejoong replied with a sweet smile on his lips.

 

            Max shook his head. "You're going out again? What if our manager finds out that you've been going out almost every night? He will surely make a big fuss over it."

 

            Jaejoong laughed. "I'm just having fun. And besides I'm not neglecting my responsibilities in the group right? So no harm done. I'll be out until midnight. So don't wait up okay."

 

            "Who are you going out with?" U-Know asked.

 

            "A girl . . . of course," Jaejoong answered with a laugh.

 

            "Seriously . . . who are you going out with?" U-Know asked again.

 

            "Her name is not important," Jaejoong replied.

 

            "Yes, it is. So who is she?" Xiah asked.

 

            "It's Keiko Tanaka, isn't it?" Micky suddenly asked coldly.

 

            Jaejoong stared at Micky. "So what's wrong if she's the girl that I'm dating?"

 

            Keiko is a famous model that he had met before, and who he had met again after Lena left. It was like Keiko was sent to him for a reason.

 

            "Well you know it's a big problem for us to have a relationship with other famous celebrities. And second, well . . . she's a nice girl. Please don't hurt her. She doesn't deserve it," Micky answered.

 

            Jaejoong lightly laughed. "Why would I hurt her?"

 

            Micky stared straight into Jaejoong's eyes. "You should ask yourself that question. Have you looked at yourself in the mirror lately? Frankly you're not the same Jaejoong we knew before. You've totally changed. Ever since Lena left you . . . you've changed. You've become a total playboy. Even your image with the fans have totally changed. Frankly you've already surpassed my playboy image," Micky said as he shook his head in dismay.

 

            Jaejoong smiled. "Don't worry. I really like Keiko. She's quite nice. And I don't have any intention of fooling around with her. As of now, all I can say is I'm just starting to know her better. And besides I've been going out with her for a month now . . ."

 

            "We're not against . . . you dating other girls. It's just that we're concerned for you and the girl's sake. Don't try to rush things. Forgetting someone takes a lot of time . . . .Someone new can sometimes help, or maybe not. It totally depends on the situation," U-Know said seriously.

 

            "Don't worry. I've totally gotten over Lena. That's why I'm starting to move on," Jaejoong said.

 

            "Well, have fun and don't stay out too late," U-Know said with a smile.

 

            Jaejoong smiled back at U-Know. "I'll be going then. . .bye."

 

            As soon as Jaejoong left. Micky suddenly let out a long sigh. "Frankly I don't know what to do with Jaejoong. He's pushing himself too hard. It's quite obvious that he hasn't gotten over Lena . . ."

 

            "We've got to respect his decision. If he wants to find a new girl . . . then all we can do is be happy for him," U-Know said.

 

            "I just think that it's still too early for hyung to find a new girl. What if . . . Lena suddenly returns to him? What then?" Max voiced out his opinion.

 

            Xiah slowly shook his head. "I'm also thinking the same thing. Frankly I still think that those two will meet again someday. I was kind of hoping that . . . when they do meet again . . . everything will be all right by then."

 

            "We can't really decide for Jaejoong. All we can do is watch him . . . and try to support him," U-Know slowly uttered.

 

            "I just hope he won't regret in the end," Micky uttered.

 

            "Have you guys ever wondered where Lena might be? It's like she's totally disappeared . . . ." Max said with a strange expression on his face.

 

            "The last thing that Jaejoong heard was that she left Japan with Daichi. Even her own parents and Yoora doesn't know what country she went to," U-Know answered.

 

            "Poor Lena . . ." Max uttered.

 

            "I have a feeling she'll be back. But I just hope that she returns soon . . . before it is too late. I

really think Jaejoong is starting to fall for Keiko,' Micky uttered.

 

            Xiah, Max and U-Know just silently nodded their heads. They were all thinking and feeling the same thing. They somehow knew that Lena was going to return to Jaejoong. And how they wished that she arrives soon . . . . before Jaejoong falls in love with another girl.