I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND ( FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 27)

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CHAPTER 27

    Lena slowly opened her eyes. She felt very weak. And her mind was a little blurry.

    As soon as she opened her eyes, she immediately saw Daichi smiling sweetly at her.

    "Daichi . . ." she uttered.

    Daichi smiled. "How are you? Are you dizzy?"
       
    Lena tried to smile. "Where am I?" she asked as if confused.

    "You're in the hospital," Daichi answered.

    "Hospital? Why?" Lena asked again. She suddenly became more confused.

    "You passed out this morning," Daichi replied.

    "This morning?" Lena asked again. She tried very hard to remember everything that had happened. But somehow she couldn't remember anything.

    Lena touched her forehead. Her head had suddenly started to ache.

    "What's wrong?" Daichi asked worriedly.

    "My head hurts . . ." she complained.

    "I think you should rest . . . Just go back to sleep," Daichi uttered. Then he slowly kissed Lena on her forehead.

    As soon as Daichi kissed her, memories started to flash in Lena's mind. Within seconds, she had already remembered everything that had happened between her and Jaejoong.

    "Daichi . . ." Lena uttered softly as she suddenly touched Daichi's hand.

    "What is it?" he asked with concern.

    "I . . . I think we should talk," she slowly said.

    Daichi immediately noticed the sudden change in Lena's eyes. And somehow it brought fear into his heart.

    "You already remembered what happened to you . . . is that it? You're going to talk to me about what happened?" Daichi asked.

    Lena stared at Daichi for a few minutes, then she just nodded.

    "Daichi . . . I'm sorry . . . I . . . I . . . I already . . ." Lena couldn't find the right words to say what she wanted. She didn't want to hurt Daichi. But she knew no matter how gentle or how quick she told him, the effect would still be the same . . . Daichi was going to be hurt.

    Daichi saw that Lena was having a hard time trying to tell him what he already knew.

    Daichi smiled. "Sssshhh . . ." he said as he gently placed his finger on Lena's lips. "You don't have to say it. I already know."

    Lena's eyes suddenly softened as she looked at him. Somehow her eyes were asking Daichi why she was still being so kind to her.

    "You already know? How? And why are you still so kind to me? Aren't you going to get mad at me?" Lena asked. Somehow she couldn't stand Daichi's kindness anymore. She was already very ashamed of herself and what she had done.

    "I have no right to be mad at you," Daichi answered.

    "Daichi . . . I don't think I can go through with the engagement anymore . . . especially the . . .wedding," Lena softly said out loud.

    Daichi tried to hide the pain he was feeling with a smile. "Why? I . . .I know he just left you after . . ." he suddenly stopped himself from talking. He didn't want to hurt her.

    "He left me . . . after he slept with me . . ." Lena continued Daichi's sentence.

    Daichi suddenly lowered his head. He immediately regretted opening the topic.

    "Lena . . .I'm sorry. I didn't mean any harm in saying it. It's just that . . . I'm confused. Why are you backing out of the engagement now? I don't care about what happened between the two of you. So you don't have to worry about that. You don't have to back out now," Daichi said.

    "I can't continue with the engagement and the wedding because . . . I think it's very unfair on your side. I have already slept with another man, Daichi. Doesn't that bother you?" she asked weakly.

    Daichi smiled. "I don't care if you slept with Jaejoong. I love you . . . That is the only thing that matters to me."

    Lena slowly shook her head. "Daichi. . . please. Give yourself some dignity. You can't continue acting like this. You're a very nice and wonderful man. You deserve someone better than me. Someone who can love you back in return."

    "No! I will never let you go . . . If Jaejoong doesn't want to be responsible for you . . . then I will. I'll take care of you. I will love you with no conditions or limitations. Everything that Jaejoong can't give you . . . I will provide," Daichi uttered with so much emotion visible in his eyes.

    Lena's heart was aching as she looked at Daichi. She pitied him, and how she wanted to just disappear. She was thinking that everyone's problems would vanish the moment she disappeared.

    "Daichi . . . I want to be fair with you. . . I want to be honest with you. When I was making love with Jaejoong. It was only then I realized that I really love him with all my heart and soul. And he is the only man I can ever give myself to. And that is why . . . I don't want to get married with you anymore . . . I don't think I can ever fulfill my duties to you as your wife . . . physically . . . if ever we did end up marrying each other. And it will be so unfair to you, Daichi. So please . . . try to understand," Lena said as tears started to form in her eyes.

    Daichi looked straight into Lena's eyes. Slowly tears started to fall from his eyes as well.

    "Daichi . . ." Lena uttered as she saw Daichi's tears.

    Daichi slowly took Lena's hand and kissed it. Lena's heart ached with Daichi's sweet gesture.
   
    "Honestly I understand what you're saying. But my heart tells me that I shouldn't let you go, especially now . . .If Jaejoong doesn't want to love you . . . Please let me take his place. I promise I will never force you to sleep with me. If that is the only thing that is bothering you. I can wait . . . I will wait until the time comes that you can finally give yourself to me. My love for you isn't based on physical needs," Daichi said as the sadness in his eyes was slowly killing Lena deep inside.

    "Daichi . . .you're a man. You have physical needs. There will surely come a time that you will need me . . . physically. And what if, by that time I still can't give myself to you? No matter how we look at it, it will be so unfair on your part. Daichi . . . please understand . . ." she slowly spoke. She felt her heart was so heavy and somehow she couldn't breathe.

    Daichi shook his head in disapproval. "I will never force you to do something that you don't want to do. And no matter how you try to convince me . . . I'm sorry but I can never let you go. Like what I said before, I can only give you to the man that you love. So if he doesn't want you, then I will take you for myself. I will never let you go . . ."

    "Daichi . . ." she uttered.

    Daichi smiled, then he slowly caressed Lena's face. "You're very beautiful Lena. And any man will easily fall in love with you."

    "Any man? Then why can't he fall in love with me? Why did he just leave me?" she uttered as a tear suddenly fell from her eye.

    "Maybe . . . he has his reasons . . ." he answered.

    "Daichi . . . just find someone else please," she begged.

    Daichi shook his head again and smiled. "I will only give you up . . . if another man comes . . . and I am totally sure that he will take good care of you and he will make you happy."

    Lena stared at him. "Are you really sure? You still want to continue with this? I know you're already hurting. If we still continue . . . then you'll end up being more hurt. I may not love you the same way that you love me . . . But I still care for you. And I don't want to see you hurt yourself because of me."

    "Don't worry about me. I can handle everything," Daichi said as he tried to put on a smile.

    "Daichi . . ." she slowly uttered. She felt pity for him. And she hated herself for hurting him.

    Slowly Lena started to cry. She hated herself for so many reasons. But she hated herself the most because she knew that she had brought confusion in Jaejoong's life and pain Daichi's life as well.

    "Lena . . ." Daichi uttered with concern. He then slowly embraced her . . . to comfort her . . . to make her feel his love for her.

    "I'm sorry Daichi. I shouldn't have entered your life. You would have been much better off if you never met me," Lena uttered as tears fell from her eyes.

    Daichi kissed Lena's forehead. "Don't say such things. I am very thankful that you entered my life. Because without you, I may never have learned how to love without any conditions . . . how to be unselfish. Before I met you, I was total jerk with girls. I played around with so many women that I can't even keep track of how many girlfriends I already had. That is how bad I was, before I met you. But you changed me . . . and I am very thankful for that."

    "Daichi, I am tired. I'm so very tired of everything. Why can't I love freely? And why is it the man that I love doesn't want to love me back? Why is everything so complicated? I am already tired . . . I just want to give up," she weakly uttered.

    "Everything will be all right, Lena. I'll always be your side to help you. So don't worry. I'll take care of you," Daichi said as he slowly tightened his embrace.