I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 33)

CHAPTER 33

    
    The next day . . . .

    Lena suddenly woke up. She suddenly saw that Jaejoong wasn't beside him. She immediately got up and sat on her bed. Fear instantly filled her heart.

    "Jaejoong . . . ." she called out. But there was no answer.

    She wanted to get out of their room, but she was afraid. Different thoughts were already rushing into her mind.

    "Did he leave me again?" she started to ask herself over and over again.

    Slowly the tears started to fall. She then started to remember the day that Jaejoong left her after making love with her. She couldn't stop herself, but her heart was pounding very hard. She then started to sob . . . .

    "Lena . . ." Jaejoong uttered  with concern as he entered the room. He was holding a tray with different dishes he prepared for Lena's breakfast.

    "Jaejoong . . . . Jaejoong . . . ." Lena suddenly glanced at him. She was very happy to see him.

    Jaejoong immediately placed the tray he was holding on a table near him, and he hurriedly went to Lena's side. He then gently wiped away her tears as he looked straight into her eyes.

    "What's wrong? Why are you crying?" he asked with concern.

    Lena suddenly embraced Jaejoong. "I . . . I thought  . . . you left me again," she cried out as she buried her face in Jaejoong's chest.

    Jaejoong suddenly felt his heart skipped a beat. He knew what he had done before was very painful for her. And he understood why she suddenly became afraid that he had left her again, after she didn't find lying next to her when she woke up.

    He gently caressed Lena's head. Then he lovingly kissed the paths that Lena's tears made on her face.

    "I'm sorry . . . . if I scared you . . . . I know I was a fool before . . . . when I just left you alone, after we made love. But I've changed . . . I'm no longer afraid to fight for you . . . and for our love. So please . . . trust me . . . whatever happens I will never . . . . ever leave you alone again. I will always be by your side . . . . protecting you, taking care of you and loving you," Jaejoong uttered as he stared deep into her eyes.

    "Are you sure . . . . you will never leave me again? Are you sure . . . you're willing to give everything up? Are you sure . . . ." she said when Jaejoong suddenly placed a finger on her lips to stop her from talking.

    "You don't have to ask such questions . . . . . I have already decided to give up everything and forget everyone . . . the moment that I ran after you . . . You're the most important person in my life. I can live without money, stardom, material things . . . even my family and friends . . . but I can't live without you . . . . If I lose you, then it would be much better that I die. I can't live without you, Lena. I love you. . . ." Jaejoong said with love in his eyes.

    "Jaejoong . . . I love you too . . . . And I can't live without you too," she uttered.

    Jaejoong suddenly tried to put on a smile. "Next time . . . call out for me or just look for me. Don't go assuming things like this and like that . . . and then just go crying in a corner . . . like what you did today."

    "But I called out for you . . . you didn't answer," Lena replied.

    "I was in the kitchen . . . cooking," Jaejoong said with a laugh.

    Lena lowered her head. She suddenly felt very embarrassed.

    Jaejoong suddenly laughed again. "I'm sorry. I wasn't scolding you or anything like that," he then embraced her again. "Don't worry. . . I will never leave you . . ."

    Lena just snuggled close into Jaejoong's arms. Her heart had already calmed down. All the fears and worries in her heart had suddenly disappeared. Jaejoong was beside her and had promised to never leave her again. She felt like she was the happiest girl in the world. She didn't care about the things she had left behind. The only thing that she cared about was being with the man she loved. And she was willing to do anything just to keep it that way.

    Three days passed . . . .

    Jaejoong was sitting alone in the living room. He was staring blankly at the widescreen tv infront of him. He was already very worried about his family and friends. How he wanted to call them and see what was happening with them

    He then sighed heavily. He knew he wasn't allowed to call them. He knew that he couldn't disobey the old man that was helping them.

    He suddenly grabbed the bottle of wine and wine glass infront on the table infront of him. He then poured himself a drink. Somehow he wanted to forget his worries and just pretend that nothing was wrong.

    The passed three days with Lena had been the most happiest days of his life. And somehow he wanted that happiness to never end. Both of them had already started acting like husband and wife, and deep inside his heart . . . he wanted it to go on forever.

    "Jaejoong . . .what are you doing?" It's only 4 in the morning. Why are you drinking?" Lena asked as she entered the room.

    Jaejoong suddenly glanced at Lena. She was wearing a white night dress that showed her full figure. Somehow he still couldn't believe that the beautiful woman standing infront of him belonged to him.

     "Jaejoong . . . why are you drinking?" Lena asked again.

    He tried to put on a smile. "I couldn't sleep. So why are you awake too?"

    "I woke up and found you gone . . . So I went out of the room to look for you," she answered.

    Jaejoong laughed. "That's good. And I actually thought that you were going to look for me and was going to cry again," he said with as a tease.

    Lena suddenly gave Jaejoong a pout. "I wasn't going to cry, you silly . . ."

    Jaejoong lightly laughed. "Come here . . . and let me hold you," he said as he drew her onto the couch he was sitting on. Then he lovingly embraced her.

    "Why are you drinking?" Lena asked again.

    "Frankly . . . I don't know. I just felt I needed a drink," he answered.

    "Oh I see! Well can I have a drink too?" she asked jokingly.

    "No!" Jaejoong immediately replied.

    Lena suddenly bursted out laughing. "Why not?" she asked.

    "You know I don't like it when you drink," Jaejoong answered.

    "Just a little sip . . . please," Lena begged.

    "No . . ." Jaejoong uttered.

    "Fine . . . so what are we going to do now?" she said with a laugh.

    "Well, what do you want to do?" he asked back.

    "Uhmmm . . . how about we just watch some movies or shows perhaps?" she asked.

    "What do you want to watch?" Jaejoong asked.

    "Anything . . . Just open the tv and let's see what's being shown," she answered.

    Jaejoong took the remote control beside him, and opened the television. He then started to search through the different channels that was on.

    "Hey! Stop, let's just watch some news," she said to Jaejoong.

    Jaejoong suddenly stopped switching channels. He then placed down the remote control. He also wanted to watch the news channel.

    Both of them were already watching for more than fifteen minutes when . . . .

    "And now for the entertainment section . . . A big news is making the headlines today . . . The group Dong Bang Shin Ki seems to be experiencing a sudden downfall. All the group's TV guestings and scheduled performances have all been cancelled. The group's fans are already making an uproar and are demanding that the group's activities be resumed. But a reliable source has informed us that the sudden cancelling of DBSK's activities maybe due to the rumored disappearance of one of the members namely Kim Jaejoong. We have not fully confirmed this news yet since Avex Trax and Sm Entertainment are both unavailable to give out any comments or official statements. But rest assured we will be following up on this news on the days to come. So this is . . . ."

    Jaejoong suddenly turned off the TV before the news ended. He didn't want Lena to be worried.

    "Why did you turn it off? We haven't finished the news yet . . ." she exclaimed.

    "There's no need to finish the news. There's nothing we can do anyway," Jaejoong uttered.

    "I'm sorry . . ." Lena uttered as she slowly lowered her head. She had a feeling that something like this was going to happen.

    Jaejoong tried to put on a smile. "What are you saying sorry for?"

    "Your group's current situation . . . I think it is connected with what we have done. I have a feeling Daichi's mother is already taking her grudge on your group. That's why I am saying sorry to you," Lena said sadly.

    "You don't have to say sorry. It's not your fault. We have to be strong Lena. Daichi's mother maybe trying to lure us out of our hiding. That's why she's making problems. Honestly . . . I'm worried about Xiah, Micky, U-Know and Max. But I believe that they can face this kind of problem on their own. They already knew that our group may face different problems once I got involved with you. But they still tried to convince me to just forget about all my worries and just go after you. Have faith, Lena. Everything will be all right," Jaejoong said.

    "I hope everything clears up soon. I really don't want your group to suffer all because of me," Lena said with a sigh.

    "Don't worry . . . Everything will be fine. We just have to hide for a few days more," he said softly.

    "But how much longer Jaejoong? How long are we supposed to hide? I'm already feeling sorry about your friends," she asked with a weak voice.

    "Sssshhh . . . . Just forget about that news. Let's just pretend that we didn't see it. Please just put your mind at ease. I don't want you to be troubled," Jaejoong said lovingly.

    "But Jae . . ."

    "Sssshhhh. . . . ." he then hugged her tighter.

    Lena just decided to stop talking. She knew that Jaejoong really didn't want to talk about his group's problem anymore. She let out a long sigh. All the things that Jaejoong was afraid of was starting to come true. And eventhough she wanted to be with him, after learning about DBSK's current situation . . . she was starting to have second thoughts.

    "Are we really doing the right thing?" the question started to echo in Lena's mind.

    Lena and Jaejoong silently sat on the couch until the sun appeared. Both of them had different things running through their minds. And eventhough no words were spoken, their hearts were doing all the talking. They were both afraid of the horrible things they knew were still going to come. . . .