I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 16)

 

CHAPTER 16

“Hyung . . . . hyung . . . .” Max called out.

Jaejoong and U-Know were both startled as Max hurriedly entered the room.

“Hyung . . . . “ Max said again.

“What's wrong?” Jaejoong asked worriedly.

“Hyung . . . . hurry! Lena has a fever,” Max answered.

Jaejoong hurriedly stood up and ran out of the room. He went straight to Lena's apartment.

In Lena's room . . . . he found Micky sitting beside Lena's bed.

“Hyung . . . .” Micky uttered as he saw Jaejoong enter Lena's room.

Jaejoong immediately went up to Lena. He then gently touched her cheek and then forehead. She really had a fever . . . . and this made him very worried.

Lena slowly opened her eyes . . . . and then she tried to smile. "Don't worry . . . . it's just a little fever . . . . it will go away in a few hours . . . ." she gently said to Jaejoong as she saw the concern written all over his face.

Micky silently left the room. He knew Lena and Jaejoong needed some time alone.

Jaejoong sat down on Lena's bed . . . . Then he looked at her.

Lena smiled. "Why are you looking at me like that?" she asked.

"You're still the same . . . you always end up being sick whenever you get wet in the rain," Jaejoong uttered.

Lena uttered lightly. "I always end up getting wet in the rain . . . . whenever I'm with you . . . haven't you noticed?"

Jaejoong nodded. "You're right. Maybe . . . . I'm such a bad luck for you . . ."

"Bad luck? No . . . more like a good luck . . . You're my best friend remember?" she said sweetly.

Hearing her say those words, Jaejoong's heart suddenly jumped with joy.

Jaejoong suddenly held Lena's hand.

"Sorry . . . ." he uttered.

"For what?" she asked.

"For everything . . ." he answered.

"For everything? Like what?" she asked again.

Jaejoong just shook his head. "I just want to say sorry . . ."

"Silly . . ." she uttered.

"I was supposed to take care of you . . . But look at you now . . ." Jaejoong said sadly.

"I've already taken a medicine . . . I'll be all right in a few hours. Don't worry about me. It was all my fault. I was the one who foolishly ran out into the rain," she said as she tried to comfort Jaejoong.

Jaejoong looked at Lena again. How he wanted to hold her.

"You need to rest . . ." he softly said to Lena.

Lena just nodded and then she closed her eyes. Within minutes, she somehow had already fallen asleep.

Jaejoong looked at Lena as she slept. He gently arranged a lock of Lena's hair that had fallen out of place. She was like an angel . . . he thought.

"Somehow how I wish you didn't have to marry Daichi . . . There are a lot of things I am really sorry for . . . I'm sorry if I am still unable to decide what I am really feeling for you. And I'm also very sorry for not being able to protect you . . . and take care of you. I'm sorry . . .if I can't love you back. We live in such different worlds that I don't think we can ever fit in each other's lives. You're like a princess who deserves a prince charming . . . who will take you to a beautiful home and provide all the things that you need . . . While I am just a pauper . . . who have nothing to be proud of . . . and who have nothing to give you . . . Yes, I am famous now and have already saved some money which I can be proud of. But I know it isn't enough. I can never match up with Daichi. I can never give you the things that he can . . . I'm sorry, Lena. But I don't think we can ever work out as lovers. Maybe you are really destined to be with Daichi. . . . I admit . . . somehow it hurts me to see you with another man. But maybe it's the best. I just want you to know that I will always be by your side . . . as a friend . . ." Jaejoong softly said as he stared at Lena.

He then gently kissed her on the forehead. . . and quietly closed the door and left the room.

As soon as Jaejoong left the room . . . . Lena slowly opened her eyes. . . . Her eyes were already filled with tears, as she stared at the door.

She tried to control her emotions. She wanted to cry out. The pain she was feeling was too much to bear.

"Am I really just a friend to you, Jaejoong? Am I really destined to be with Daichi? I don't need any material things to be happy . . . I am even willing to trade all the things I have now . . . just for the chance to be with you. I want to be able to experience being with you, not as a friend . . . but as a lover. I want to experience joy and pain in your arms. Why can't you love me . . . Jaejoong? I want you . . . I love you. Can't you see? Can't you feel it? I don't want anyone else . . . I can never be happy with anyone else except you. But I guess there is nothing I can do but respect you decision. Don't worry, I won't bother you anymore. I know I'm just making you confused. I love you Jaejoong. So from now now on, I will teach myself to forget you, and to let you go. Goodbye, Jaejoong. I love you . . . ." Lena said as her tears continued to fall. How she wished that she would just die at that moment. The pain she was feeling was just too much for her.

She had loved Jaejoong for a very long time that she didn't know if she could ever learn to forget him. He had been with her for years now. He was everything to her . . . her love and her life. Somehow just thinking that she will no longer be able to see him makes her heart ache . . . And just thinking that she will have to let him go was like a punishment asking her not to breathe.

Lena cried . . . she needed to cry. She had to teach herself to accept everything . . . even if it was very painful.

Dawn came . . . .

Lena quietly entered the living room. She smiled as she saw the DBSK boys soundly sleeping on different parts of the room.

She quickly returned to her room and after a few minutes returned with five blankets in hand. Slowly . . . she started to place the blankets on the sleeping boys . . . one by one.

Max, Micky and U-Know were all sitting and sleeping on the long sofa. While Xiah was resting his head on a table near the window.

Lastly, Lena slowly walked up to where Jaejoong was. He was sitting near another window in the room. She then noticed the wine glass that was near him.

"Have you been drinking Jaejoong?" she asked him in her mind.

She again arranged the blanket that she had placed on him.

"Take care of yourself . . . Jaejoong . . ." she softly uttered as she gently kissed him on the cheek.

Lena stared at him for the very last time. She wanted to memorize his face and keep it locked up in her mind and in her heart.

She then pulled out a letter from her pocket and gently placed it near Jaejoong.

Slowly . . . her tears started to fall . . . one by one.

"Goodbye . . . ." she uttered once again.

Lena slowly turned away. She then picked up her bag near the door of her room and quietly walked out of the apartment.

While standing outside the apartment building, Lena stared at it once again. She tried to smile and slowly wiped her tears away.

"This is the best for both of us . . . ." she tried to tell herself as she slowly walked away.

An hour passed . . . .

Daichi had just arrived in his home, and was still resting in his room. When the door suddenly opened . . . . and Lena slowly entered.

"Lena . . . what are you doing here this early?" he asked worriedly.

Lena walked up to Daichi . . . . and as soon as she was near him . . . she embraced him.

Daichi was taken by surprise by what Lena did. He instantly knew that something was wrong. He gently touched her head, and he returned her embrace.

"What's wrong?" he softly asked.

Lena just leaned her head on Daichi's chest.

"Just hold me . . . . please . . . ." she uttered.

"Lena . . . ." he uttered.

"Let's get married . . . as soon as possible. I don't want to wait anymore. If possible . . . I want to be married by next week," Lena said with a trembling voice.

Daichi's heart started to beat very fast. He couldn't believe what he was hearing.

"What happened Lena?" he asked again.

"Let's get married . . . as soon as possible . . . please . . .Don't ask why . . . " she uttered once again.

Daichi's heart started to ache. He knew she was just forcing herself to be with him. he slowly closed his eyes . . . and started to pretend. He wanted to pretend that Lena loved him. He embraced her tightly . . . and his tears started to fall.