Wednesday, June 4, 2008

I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 8)

White Lies - DBSK



CHAPTER 8

 

 

            Lena and the DBSK boys all silently ate after Daichi left. Somehow Xiah, U-Know, Micky and Max felt the tension between Lena and Jaejoong. They could easily tell that something was wrong.

 

            Lena looked at Jaejoong. She knew that he was angry with her. And somehow this made her very uneasy. She couldn't stand the fact that he was being upset with her.

 

            “Jaejoong . . . . what's wrong? I know you're mad . . . . Are you angry with me?” she asked as she looked straight at him.

 

            “I'm not mad . . . .” Jaejoong answered coldly.

 

            Lena smiled bitterly. “We've been friends for a very long time. I already know how you act when you're mad or you're upset . . . . And frankly, right at this minute . . . . I know you're angry . . . . Are you angry with me?” she asked again.

 

            Jaejoong finally lifted his eyes to meet Lena's stare.

 

            “I still can't believe that you would actually agree to something so ridiculous like an arranged marriage . . . . Whatever happened to the girl who I knew? What happened to the girl who said that she would only marry someone who she loves? . . . What happened to my friend who always stood up for her decisions and principles? . . . .What happened to the feisty Lena that I know?” Jaejoong continuously asked as he stared straight  back at Lena.

 

            Suddenly Lena felt she have never felt so small in her entire life. Jaejoong was right. The old Lena would never have agreed to marry someone who she didn't love. Somehow Lena wanted to defend herself against Jaejoong's pre-judgement. But she knew he was right and she couldn't do anything about it. She felt totally helpless.

 

            “I know . . . . I maybe a big disappoint to you . . . . But frankly I have tried going against my parents' wishes for as long as I could. They even gave me the choice to break off the engagement . . . . provided I presented a guy to them that I was going to marry instead. And how could I possibly do that? Aside from you . . . . I don't know any other man. . . . . “ Lena tried to explain. But somehow as she was trying to explain her side to him . . . . she didn't notice that tears were already falling from her eyes.

 

            “Lena . . . .” Jaejoong uttered.

 

            “Do you think I actually like to marry someone I don't love? I can't do anything about it, Jaejoong. . . . . I have tried to rebel and I have even tried to run away . . . . but all of it was just useless. You know how rich my parents are. They just used their influence and everybody was already afraid to help me. Do you know the reason why I had been away for the passed year was because that was the time I was rebelling against my parents. I ran away . . . . and I even tried to live alone for more than a month . . . Do you have any idea how hard it was for me?. .  But during those time . . . . the only thing on my mind was . . . . I wanted to prove to my parents that I can live alone and that I wanted to make them realize that I had no intention of being married to a man I barely even knew. . . . . “ she continued to say as tears also continued to stream down her face.

 

            Jaejoong immediately saw Lena's tears. This somehow made his heart suddenly turn soft. He couldn't stand seeing a girl cry . . . . especially if it was Lena. He had never seen her cry ever since they were small. She had been a very strong and brave girl. And seeing her cry now . . . . was making him crazy with concern.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly stood up and went to where Lena was sitting. He knelt down in front of her and looked straight into her eyes. “I'm sorry . . . . Please don't cry,” he said as he immediately wiped Lena's tears with his hand.

 

            Lena tried to smile. How she missed Jaejoong's sweetness. She had been missing him badly for the passed year. How she wanted to tell him that he was the main reason why she didn't want to marry Daichi. . . . And that he was the man she loved . . . .

 

            Jaejoong couldn't help himself . . . . he suddenly touched Lena's face lovingly. The other DBSK members saw what he had done, and were somehow taken by surprise. They had never seen him become so physically tender with anyone.

 

            “Please . . . . stop crying. . . . I didn't mean to make you cry . . . . I am sorry. . . .” Jaejoong said softly.

 

            Lena didn't know what to say to Jaejoong. Somehow right at that moment, she felt what she needed the most was someone she could lean on. She suddenly embraced Jaejoong. She didn't care about anything else anymore. She only had a month to be with him. It was the only time she had left. She might as well . . . .set aside all her inhibitions and just let out her true feelings.

 

            Jaejoong was shocked at first . . . . but then he knew he liked the feel of her body next to his. He gently hugged Lena back. He didn't care about what his friends might say. All he could think about was that he wanted her in his arms . . . . .

 

            Xiah, Max, Micky and U-Know quietly left after seeing Jaejoong embracing Lena. They knew that the two needed some time alone.

 

            As soon as the other DBSK members left, Jaejoong immediately asked Lena if they could go and talk at the living room. Lena nodded and just followed him.

 

            They both sat on the sofa next to each other. Lena felt so happy being so near Jaejoong once again. It has been a very long time since the last time that they had been together.

 

            Lena gently laid down her head on Jaejoong's shoulder. She used to lay down her head on his shoulder whenever she was sad or she had any problems. And he would patiently and carefully listen to  everything that she wanted to talk about. How she wished that she could stay beside him forever . . . . . even if only as a friend.

 

            Jaejoong was very quiet as Lena's head laid down on his shoulder. He suddenly remembered all the times that they spent together. It was only then he suddenly realized that he had missed her badly.

 

            Jaejoong couldn't explain what he was feeling right at that exact moment. But all he could think about was that he wanted to be true to himself.

 

            He gently took Lena's hand and carefully held it between his two hands. Her hand was so cold that he gently squeezed it and started to rub it.

          

            “How I missed this . . . .” Lena uttered.

 

            Jaejoong looked at Lena. His heart had suddenly pounded after she said those words. He then held her hand tighter. He somehow felt like he wanted to hold her forever.

 

            “What do you plan to do now Lena? Are you really going to marry him?” Jaejoong tried to ask.

 

            Lena laughed lightly. “Frankly . . . . I don't know . . . . Daichi is a very nice guy and all but . . . . the fact is  . . . . I don't think I can ever fall in love with him,” she answered.

 

            “Why?” Jaejoong asked.

 

            Lena suddenly paused for a moment . . . . She then thought that maybe this is the right time for her to tell him about her true feelings.

 

            “Jaejoong . . . .” Lena uttered.

 

            “Uhm . . . . .” he uttered.

 

            “I'm already in love with someone,” Lena summed up all her courage and was finally able to say.

 

            “What? With whom?” Jaejoong asked with a trembling voice. He was very surprised to hear that Lena was already in love. He never imagined that he would actually hear her say those words. And after hearing those words . . . . different emotions started creeping up inside his heart.

 

            “Someone I know,” she simply replied.

 

            “Does he know . . . . I mean about you having feelings for him?” he asked again.

 

            “No . . . . “ she answered.

 

            “Why not?” he asked again.

 

            “Because . . . . because I don't know want him to know,” she replied again.

 

            “Do I know him?” Jaejoong curiously asked.

 

            “No comment,” she replied with a laugh.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly smiled and then lightly laughed as well. “No comments? What kind of an answer is that? Are you an artist as well?”

 

            Lena laughed again. “Still my answer is . . . .no comment,” she said with a smile.

 

            “Fine . . . . if you really want to keep it a secret. I won't ask anymore,” Jaejoong said with a smile. But deep down inside, he was somehow hurting. His best friend had really changed, he suddenly thought.

 

            “You never kept any secrets from me . . . . But now . . . . You have really changed Lena . . . .And I don't know why . . . . But somehow I am hurting . . . .” Jaejoong said in his mind as he continued to squeeze Lena's hand.

 

            Len felt like she was in heaven while Jaejoong held her hand. She didn't tell him the truth because she was afraid that he would suddenly changed. And that was the last thing that she would want to happen. She needed him now . . . . even if only as a friend.

 

            “Do my sisters know about your arranged marriage?” Jaejoong asked.

 

            “Yes,” she replied.

 

            “They knew? But why didn't they tell me?” Jaejoong asked in total disbelief.

 

            “Because I asked them not to tell you . . . . .” Lena answered.

 

            “But why?” he asked again.

 

            “I didn't want to bother you with my problems. I know once you learned about my current situation . . . . you would certainly be affected . . . . So I just asked them to  keep it as a secret from you,” Lena answered.

 

            “You're my best friend, Lena. I will always be affected if something bad happens to you . . . .or when you're experiencing problems,” he said again.

 

            “I know . . . . and thank you . . . . for being so caring,” she uttered.

 

            “Is there anyway I can help?” he suddenly asked.

 

            Lena smiled bitterly. “No . . . . I'm sorry . . . . But no one can help me now,” she replied.

 

            “How about the guy you're in love with? Does he know that you're in love with him?” Jaejoong finally asked the question that was constantly echoing in his mind.

 

            “No . . . . he has no idea,” she replied.

 

            “Really? I mean . . . . he really has no idea that you have feelings for him?” Jaejoong asked curiously.

 

            “He has no idea . . . . because he only sees me as a friend,” Lena answered.

 

            Then suddenly another question popped into Jaejoong's mind.

 

            “I thought you said that I am the only guy friend that you have . . . . then who is this guy that you're in love with?” he suddenly asked.

 

            Lena was shocked. Jaejoong was finally figuring things out on his own.

 

            “No comment,” she replied again.

 

            Jaejoong stayed silent. He was feeling very jealous just thinking about Lena with another guy.

 

            “Could it be that the guy she's in love with is me?” Jaejoong asked himself. Somehow this thought made his heart skip a beat. He couldn't understand why . . . . but deep down inside he was hoping that he was the one Lena was pertaining to.
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3 comments:

  1. Pui Yee WongJune 5, 2008 at 2:29 AM

    Next chapter please Unnie..... ^_^

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  2. nab harJune 6, 2008 at 5:32 AM

    waaahhh.....
    He almost knows...
    wekekeke..
    this is getting so cute!!
    unnie please i want next chapter!!!
    haaaaaaaaaaa~

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  3. Elaine EmerhelienaJune 7, 2008 at 12:56 AM

    already posted chap 9 nab.... hope you like it.....

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