I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 14)

 

CHAPTER 14

Jaejoong hurriedly ran out of the apartment building. He didn't know why but his heart was beating very fast.

The rain was pouring very hard. And within seconds, he went out of the building, he was already soaking wet.

He looked in different directions . . . he was hoping to see Lena. Jaejoong turned left and right . . . he didn't know where to go.

"Lena . . . where are you?" he uttered.

The rain continued to pour as Jaejoong continued to search for Lena.

Some people on the streets were already looking at Jaejoong. They knew who he was and they were all wondering what he was doing out in the rain.

But Jaejoong didn't care . . . . He wasn't concerned about himself . . . all he cared about was Lena. He knew right at that moment . . . she was already soaked in the rain as well. And he also knew that he needed to find her fast before something bad happens to her.

Jaejoong was already getting crazy with worry. He wanted to call out Lena's name. But he knew he couldn't do it. He was already attracting too much attention being out in the rain. He knew if he called out for her . . . he would surely make a bigger scene.

"Lena . . . ." he uttered as again as he continued to search for her.

He had already been searching for more than fifteen minutes. But he still couldn't find her.

"Where would she be?" he asked himself.

He couldn't understand why but he suddenly remembered the park where they both used to go when they were young.

His heart suddenly pounded. He immediately remembered that there was a park near their apartment building.

Jaejoong hurriedly ran in the opposite direction towards the park.

"Lena . . . please be there. Wait for me . . . please," Jaejoong uttered as he ran as if his whole life depended on it.

In the park . . . .

Lena was sitting on a bench. She was crying . . . but somehow the rain was hiding her tears. She stared blankly at the open space before her. She was already cold and soaked in the rain . . . but she didn't care.

The coldness of the rain was somehow numbing her heart. . . . She needed it . . . She was in so much pain. She was already wishing that she would die right at that moment.

Lena remembered the words that Jaejoong had said. She smiled bitterly. She said to herself that she would never expect him to fall in love with her. But hearing him say those words out loud were like pins stuck in her heart.

She started to cry uncontrollably. Her mind was already crowded with so many questions and so many regrets.

"I should have never fallen in love with you, Jaejoong . . . . then maybe everything would have been much more simple," she uttered as tears continued to fall.

Jaejoong was already out of breath . . . but he still kept on running. As soon as he arrived at the park,he immediately tried to look for her.

He was already going insane.

"Lena . . . ." he started to call her name.

He no longer cared about whether he was going to make a scene or not. He needed to find her . . . he wanted to find her.

"Lena . . . ." he called out again.

He continued to walk with a fast pace . . . . he turned his head left and right . . . . hoping to see her.

Then his heart suddenly skipped a beat.

A few meters away from him . . . . a familiar figure was sitting on a bench . . . It was Lena.

He could tell that she was still crying. She was sobbing uncontrollably . . . . and somehow seeing her in such a pitiful state was breaking Jaejoong's heart into pieces.

Slowly . . . . Jaejoong walked up to Lena.

"Lena . . . . " he softly uttered.

Surprised . . . . Lena looked up. She never expected to see him. He was standing right in front of her. He was already very wet. . . . the same way that she was. It was obvious that he had been out in the rain for a long time as well.

"Go away!" she uttered as she hurriedly stood up. She was about to walk away . . . when Jaejoong suddenly grabbed her arm.

"Let's talk . . .please . . . " Jaejoong said.

Lena stared back at Jaejoong. She tried hard to control her feelings. "Talk? We don't have anything to talk about . . . ."

"Yes . . . we do. . . . We need to talk . . . . about us," he replied.

"I don't want to talk with you . . . In fact, I never want to see you again," she said coldly.

Jaejoong tightened his grip on Lena's arm. He was determined to talk with her. He knew they needed to sort out her problem.

Jaejoong sighed heavily." Lena, please . . . . Listen to me . . . ."

"No!" she shouted.

Jaejoong's heart was aching. He could see that Lena was in so much pain. He wanted to comfort her . . . and he wanted to make her feel what he was feeling.

"Lena . . . ."

He suddenly pulled her into his arms. . . . then he embraced her tightly. Lena tried to break free from his embrace . . . . but he just held her tighter.

"Please . . . . let me hold you . . . ." Jaejoong begged.

Lena's heart somehow stopped the moment she heard him say those words. During the entire time that they knew each other . . . she had never. . . ever heard him beg anyone . . . for anything.

She closed her eyes . . . .and slowly eased her entire body. . . . Slowly . . . . she rested her head on Jaejoong's chest. . . . and slowly she returned her embrace.

"I'm sorry . . . if I've hurt you. . . But I'm quite confused on what I am feeling right now. I don't know if what I'm feeling for you is because of our friendship or. . . . because of love . . . I'm sorry . . . Please give me more time to discover my true feelings for you . . . . " Jaejoong uttered as he held Lena in his arms.

"But time is something . . . . I am already running out of Jaejoong . . . You don't have to be kind to me and tell me sweet things just to avoid hurting my feelings. I know . . . . you can never fall in love with me . . . . because if you were able to . . . . you would have fallen in love with me . . . a long time ago . . ." she softly said as the rain drops covered her tears.

Lena's tears were falling continuously. She knew that he was just being kind to her . . . She knew there was no way that he could ever love her back.

"Lena . . . ."

"Can you just hold me? Please . . . . You don't have to say anything . . . . You don't have to lie . . . . Just hold me . . . . I want to cherish this moment. Because I know I may never have the chance to hold you . . . and to be close to you like this again . . . . Even for a short time . . . . I want to experience what it feels like to have the man that I really love hold me," she said with a trembling voice.

Jaejoong tightened his embrace. He knew that Lena was crying again. He could feel her trying to control her sobbing.

Jaejoong gently caressed Lena's hair . . . and slowly he kissed her forehead.

He felt like his mind and heart were going to explode any moment. He was very confused. . . . confused on what he was really feeling for Lena . . . . and confused on what to do next.

Jaejoong closed his eyes as he embraced Lena. He felt like he wanted to hold her in his arms . . . . forever. It was as if . . . she was made to fit in his arms perfectly. But he still didn't know if what he was feeling was good enough as a reason to say that he loved her.

His heart was pounding . . . and aching. He had never fallen in love . . . so he had no idea of what love really was.

Lena knew and felt Jaejoong's confusion . . . Suddenly . . . .

"I love you, Jaejoong. . . . I love you, my friend . . . ." she softly uttered.

It was her last chance to say what she really felt about him. . . . and it was also her way of saying goodbye.