I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 13)

CHAPTER 13

 

 

            It was already after lunch when Xiah, Micky, U-Know and Max decided to return to Lena's apartment. They knew they had already given enough time for Jaejoong and Lena to talk. They were already very curious as to what had happened to the two. They wanted to know if something romantic had occurred. They were already noticing the special feelings that their hyung had for his friend. And they had also observed the special care that Lena was giving Jaejoong.

 

            “Do you think it is wise that we disturb them?” Xiah asked the other DBSK boys while they were waiting outside Lena's apartment.

 

            “Well. . . . it's already lunch time, hyung. I'm hungry. We should disturb . . . if we all plan to eat,” Max answered.

 

            “What do you think they are doing right now?” Micky asked with a mischievous grin.

 

            “Hey . . .  hyung is not like you,” Max protested.

 

            Micky's eyes suddenly widened with shock. “And what do you mean by that?”

 

            “Nothing . . .” Max answered with a big grin.

 

            Micky just shook his head and continuously rang the door bell.

 

            “That's weird! Why haven't they opened the door yet?” U-Know asked with a worried look on his face.

 

            “Maybe . . . that only means . . . . we shouldn't disturb them,” Micky said again with a malicious grin.

 

            Max suddenly decided to lean on the door while waiting. He was already hungry and his hunger was making him very weak. As soon as  he leaned on the door, it suddenly opened.

 

            “Hey! The door’s open,” Max exclaimed.

 

            “Maybe Jaejoong didn’t close it after we left,” Xiah said.

 

            “Well . . . let’s see what those two are up to,” Micky uttered as he entered Lena’s apartment.

 

            “Maybe they are already finished cooking lunch,” Max said as he thought of the different dishes he was expecting to see.

 

            The four DBSK boys quietly entered Lena’s apartment. Once they entered the living room . . . . they were shocked with what they saw.

 

            “What’s this?” Micky asked.

 

            Lena and Jaejoong were still on the couch . . . . sleeping. Jaejoong was sleeping while in a sitting position and Lena was lying on his lap . . . sleeping soundly as well.

 

            Micky laughed. “Is this the romantic scene we were all expecting to see?”

 

            Xiah smiled. “Maybe . . . they both got tired of talking . . . so they just decided to sleep.”

 

            “Let’s go to the kitchen . . . . Let’s see if they already cooked lunch,” Max uttered while still hoping to see food.

 

            U-Know just shook his head. “Should we wake them up?”

 

            “No, I don’t think so,” Xiah replied.

 

            “Let’s just leave them alone,” Micky answered.

 

            “Yes. . . wake them up. . . I am starving already,” Max exclaimed.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly opened his eyes after hearing Max’s voice.

 

            “Huh? You guys are back?” he asked while still trying to control himself from yawning.

 

            “It’s already lunch time hyung,” Max announced.

 

            “Lunch time already? Sorry . . . . I haven’t cooked yet,” Jaejoong said.

 

            He was about to get up . . . . when he remembered that Lena was sleeping on his lap. He suddenly looked at her. After seeing that she was still asleep, he gently caressed her hair.

 

            “Can one of you help me? I need to get up. But be careful . . . I don’t want to wake her up,” Jaejoong said to the other DBSK boys.

 

            Micky immediately took Lena in his arms. “Should I bring her to her room?” he asked while still carrying her.

 

            “Yes . . .” Jaejoong replied.

 

            Jaejoong immediately led Micky to Lena’s room.

 

            While Micky was carrying Lena, he couldn’t avoid but look at Lena’s beautiful face. She was like an angel sleeping in his arms.

 

            U-Know suddenly nudged Micky. Jaejoong was already looking at Micky with a weird expression on his face.

 

            Jaejoong arranged Lena’s bed as Micky gently placed her down. After making sure that Lena was still sleeping soundly and comfortably, Jaejoong and the other DBSK boys finally left her room.

 

            Jaejoong went straight to the kitchen and hurriedly cooked. He didn’t want Lena to wake up and still find him cooking. He knew that she would surely help him, and he didn’t want her to get tired.

 

            He finished cooking lunch in just fifteen minutes. He knew that the other DBSK boys were already hungry. So he hurriedly set the table.

 

            They were already eating when Max suddenly remembered something.

 

            “Aren’t we going to wake Lena up? Isn’t she supposed to have lunch with us?” Max asked the others.

 

            “Just let her sleep . . . I’ll take care of her when she wakes up,” Jaejoong answered.

 

            “You’re really very sweet with her,” Micky commented.

 

            Jaejoong stared at Micky. “I’ve always been this way with her.”

 

            “So you mean . . .  you have special feelings for her?” Micky asked.

 

            Jaejoong laughed. ”Don’t be silly, we’re just friends.”

 

            “Everything starts at friendship . . . .” Micky uttered.

 

            “Hyung . . . . there’s nothing wrong with falling in love with a friend . . . . especially when it’s someone like Lena,” Max added.

 

            “She’s nice and pretty . . . what more can a guy ask for?” Xiah said with a smile.

 

            “And she seems to have special feelings for you as well,” U-Know said seriously.

 

            Jaejoong stared at his friends. “We’re just friends . . . . nothing more, nothing less. And besides, you’re all forgetting that she’s about to be engaged and married. . .”

 

            “That’s why we’re already reminding you of what we are seeing. We don’t want you to regret . . . in the end,” Micky said.

 

            “What you are seeing?” Jaejoong asked as if unable to believe what he heard. “Okay, tell me what are you guys seeing?” he asked again with a grin.

 

            “That you like her more than a friend . . . but you’re just too stubborn to admit it,” U-Know answered.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly glanced at U-Know. Then slowly he lowered his head. He started to contemplate on what U-Know had said. A part of him knew that what his friend was saying was true.

 

            “I can’t fall in love with her. What will her parents say? What will my parents and sisters say when they find out about it? I know they won’t approve of it. She’s a part of my family . . . I can’t fall for her. And the only reason why I care about her is because of our friendship,” Jaejoong said as he stared at the uneaten food in front of him.

 

            “Are you sure?” Micky asked again.

 

            “I don’t have any special feelings for her. In fact, I don’t feel anything for her. Isn’t a guy supposed to feel a special feeling for a girl on the very first time they meet? I have been with her for years now and I already know everything about her . . . that she’s like an open book. There’s no thrill and no special feelings between us. Honestly . . . I can never fall in love with her . . . . she’s just like my sister.” Jaejoong said.

 

            He was very confused on what his true feelings were. But I am not your sister . . . .” a voice suddenly said.

 

            The DBSK boys were all surprised. They immediately looked at the direction where the voice came from.

 

            Lena was standing near the door of the dining room. They were all surprised to see her crying.

 

            “Lena . . . .” Jaejoong uttered.

 

            “I’m not your sister . . . Jaejoong . . . And there’s nothing wrong with falling in love with a friend . . . I should know because . . . because I’ve already fallen in love . . . . with you . . . I have loved you for ten years now, Jaejoong . . .” Lena said as tears rolled down her eyes.

 

            Jaejoong was shocked. His mind went totally blank.

 

            “I love you Jaejoong. I have loved you for a very long time now . . . . And you’re the main reason why I don’t want to accept Daichi. I was waiting for you, Jaejoong. But now . . . after hearing you say those words. I guess I have to return to reality now,” she said as she tried to control herself.

 

            “Thank you . . . now . . . . I know what I really mean to you. I guess . . . it’s time for me to stop dreaming and waiting for you to love me. I’m sorry . . . but I just couldn’t stop myself. I fell in love with you . . . without even realizing it.”

 

            Lena smiled bitterly. “So now I guess . . .you’ll be avoiding me now? But I’m glad I’ve finally told you the truth. I am happy . . . that I was finally able to say what I truly feel. So after  confessing my love to you . . . . I guess this is also where our friendship ends. I’m sorry, Jaejoong,” Lena said as she quickly turned and left . . . while tears  streamed  down her face.

 

            Jaejoong’s heart was beating very fast.  He was very confused on what to do. And what he was really feeling.

 

            “Hyung . . . aren’t you going to talk with her?” Max asked Jaejoong.

 

            “Hyung . . . . “ Max uttered again.

 

            Jaejoong wanted to talk with Lena. But he didn’t know what to say or how to start their conversation. Now . . . . that he knew what Lena really feels for him, he was somehow unable to decide whether he could continue their friendship or not. His mind was going in different directions that he couldn’t think straight. He just continued to stare blankly at the table.

 

            The other DBSK boys were all silent as they watched their friend. They knew he was very shocked and confused. But they had already guessed that Lena had special feelings for Jaejoong the very first time they saw her. They saw how Lena looked at Jaejoong . . . how she cared for him. It was very obvious and impossible not to notice.

 

            It seems Jaejoong was the only one who couldn’t see . . . or more exactly, didn’t want to see . . . that Lena was in love with him. He was trying to deny everything, even his own feelings.

 

            Micky worriedly looked at Jaejoong, then at the door where Lena had just left. He then suddenly stood up and left the dining room. He went straight to Lena’s room . . . . but she wasn’t there. He also checked the other room, but she wasn’t there either. Micky searched Lena’s apartment . . . . but she was nowhere to be found.

 

            He then went to the dining room.

 

            “If you’re not worried about her . . . then fine. Just make sure that you’re prepared if something bad suddenly happens to her,” Micky said to Jaejoong while looking straight at him.

 

            Jaejoong suddenly lifted his gaze at Micky. “What do you mean?” he asked.

 

            “Lena’s left the apartment,” Micky answered.

 

            “Hyung . . . it’s raining outside. She’s already weak . . . she might get worse,” Max said with concern.

 

            “We should look for her,” Xiah said.

 

            “Jaejoong  . . . . pull yourself together. Can you please try to set aside everything that you have heard . . . We need to find Lena,” U-Know said as he gently tapped Jaejoong’s shoulder.

 

            Jaejoong looked at his friends. His mind was kind of blurry. He didn’t know what to say or think.

 

            “She might already be shivering in the rain right now. Let’s try to find her quickly,” Micky said.

 

            As  Micky said those words . . . Lena’s  image suddenly appeared in Jaejoong’s mind. He pictured her all soaked in the rain. . . . shivering . . . . walking aimlessly while crying.

 

            The though of Lena being in such a pitiful condition made  Jaejoong very worried. He hurriedly stood up and immediately ran out of the apartment. The only thing through his mind at that moment . . . . . was that he needed to find her fast.