I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 11)

CHAPTER 11

After having breakfast, Lena and the DBSK boys all decided to watch a movie. An hour passed . . . . . Jaejoong couldn't stand Lena's silence anymore.

“Why don't you go back to your room and rest?” Jaejoong asked Lena. She was quietly sitting right next to him on the sofa.

“I'm fine . . . . Besides I won't be able to go back to sleep anyway. If I go back to bed, I'll just end up passing my time looking at the ceiling,” Lena answered while staring blankly at the wide screen tv.

“Well . . . . you're just passing your time staring at the tv screen already. Are you understanding what we are watching?” Jaejoong asked again. He had been observing her for the past hour.

Lena looked at Jaejoong, then she suddenly smiled. “Frankly . . . . no. I'm thinking about something else.”

“Would you like to talk about it?” Jaejoong asked softly.

Lena stared straight into Jaejoong's eyes. She saw the concern he was feeling for her . . . . and somehow this warmed her heart. She really needed someone to talk to. But she was thinking that he wasn't really the right person to talk to.

“No, thanks . . . . It's nothing.”

Lena felt so lonely. She needed someone to talk to about what she was feeling and everything that was running through her mind. And she was also very tired . . . . tired of trying to cope up with everything that was happening around her.

Suddenly she decided to lean on Jaejoong's shoulder . . . . and then she closed her eyes.

Jaejoong's whole body stiffened as Lena's head laid down on his shoulder.

“Lena . . . .” he uttered.

“Remember . . . . when we were young, I would always sit next to you and I would always lay down my head on your shoulder . . . then I would always fall asleep?” she asked while she kept her eyes closed.

Jaejoong smiled as he remembered their times together. “Yes . . . and I would always end up looking after you while you slept like a baby.”

“Jaejoong . . . . I wish we didn't have to grow up . . . . I wish we didn't have to grow apart . . .” Lena said then she suddenly stopped talking.

“Lena. . . .” Jaejoong uttered her name again. He didn't know what to say.

“I wish we were still young . . . everything was so simple back then . . . no complications . . . no limitations . . . . no Daichi to think about . . . .” she said with sadness in her voice.

Jaejoong's heart suddenly pounded the moment he heard her say those words. He also wished that they could go back to the times that they were very close with each other.

The other DBSK boys looked at each other, then at Jaejoong and Lena. They heard what Lena had said and they instantly knew that they needed to give Lena and Jaejoong some time alone with each other.

“I just remembered I need to call somebody,” Xiah suddenly said.

“And I also need to go online today,” Max said.

Lena suddenly opened her eyes. She then looked at the other DBSK boys and then she smiled.

“You're all very sweet . . . . but you guys don't have to leave,” she said as she closed her eyes again. “I know you just want to give Jaejoong and me some time alone.”

“We can leave . . . if you guys want some privacy,” Max said with a smile.

“It's okay . . .There's nothing important we need to talk about anyway,” Lena answered.

Jaejoong's facial expression hardened.

“Yes . . . there is,” Jaejoong said.

Lena immediately opened her eyes and lifted her head . . . then she looked at Jaejoong.

“What do we need to talk about?” she asked curiously.

“Have you really decided to marry that guy?” Jaejoong asked seriously. “He obviously has a different way of taking care of his future wife . . . . Imagine . . . asking another guy to stay in her fiancee's apartment for a whole day and night.”

“But there's nothing wrong with that . . . . You're my best friend and Daichi knows that. So he doesn't really mind,” she said with a smile.

“Yes . . . . we're best friends. But we're adults now . . . Everything's different now,” Jaejoong uttered.

Lena laughed. “Different? How? I know you . . . . Jaejoong. Yes, we're already adults. But nothing's changed. You still treat me like I'm one of the boys. So even if we stay locked up together in a room . . . . nothing's going to happen between us.”

Jaejoong felt that there was a huge lump in his throat. He suddenly couldn't understand what he was feeling. He didn't know what to say and his mind had totally gone blank.

“Why am I feeling this way?” he kept on asking himself. “What's wrong with me? She's just my best friend . . . .”

“Jaejoong . . .” she uttered his name.

Jaejoong looked at Lena. “Are you really accepting your fate with him? Aren't you even going to try and ask your parents to change their minds,” he asked softly. The questions were still running through his mind.

“Jaejoong . . . .I've tried every means to persuade my parents . . . . I've tried reasoning with them . . . I've tried begging them . . . . I've tried rebelling against them . . . . I've even tried running away from them . . . . But it always ended with the same result . . . . Nothing!” Lena answered.

She then looked at Jaejoong's reaction, and bitterly smiled.

“How many times do we have to discuss this? Do you really think that I just accepted this arrangement without any fight? . . . . I fought with my parents, Jaejoong . . . . more than a dozen times . . . All of which ended violently . . . . “ she then laughed. “Well . . . . more likely I was the one being violent. I think I broke more than a dozen priceless figurines in our house . . . . excluding the dozens of plates I broke one time during my tantrum . . . and excluding the dozens of wine glasses I broke on another tantrum episode. You do remember my bad temper right?” she asked with a laugh.

Jaejoong stared at Lena. How he pitied her.

“Yes . . . . I remember you have such a bad temper . . . that whenever you have one, everyone just avoids you,” he then laughed lightly. “Even the boys in our neighborhood are afraid of you.”

Lena laughed as well. She then shook her head in agreement.

“Yes . . . . even the boys are afraid of me . . . . Only you have the guts to approach me when I am in a bad mood.”

The other DBSK boys just quietly listened as Lena and Jaejoong talked. They all pitied Lena. They knew being in an arranged marriage was a very hard situation.

“I remember whenever you're having a bad day . . . your mother would call me and Yoora to come to your house so that we could calm you down,” Jaejoong said as he remembered everything like it was only yesterday.

“Yoora? She'll be here next week,” Lena said.

“Really?” Jaejoong asked. “Why?” he asked curiously.

Lena looked at Jaejoong. “Should I tell him?” she asked herself.

“Lena . . . .” Jaejoong uttered as he noticed that she was thinking of something.

Lena tried to smile. “She'll be here on a vacation. . . . But to be exact . . . . she'll be here for the engagement party and the wedding as well.”

“Engagement? . . . . Wedding?” Jaejoong asked with total shock.

The other DBSK boys saw their hyung's reaction after he heard the word “wedding.” The reaction on his face already gave the boys the proof that they were searching for. Now they could easily say he had feelings for her.

“When is the engagement?” Max asked.

“And when is the wedding?” Xiah asked again.

“The engagement will be next month . . . and the wedding? . . . “ she suddenly stopped and started to think. “I think the wedding will follow immediately after the engagement. I'm calculating, I'll be engaged and married in a matter of two months . . . So Yoora will be here so I can enjoy my remaining days . . . .” Lena answered.

“Remaining days? Sounds like you're dying and not getting married,” Micky commented.

Lena laughed with sadness in her eyes. “You're quite right, Micky. It does sound like I'm dying . . . . But the truth is . . . I am already dying inside . . . Getting married with someone I don't love is like committing suicide . . . . So yeah . . . you could say I am dying . . . So I guess, by the time I get married with Daichi . . . I will be considering myself dead . . . .”

“Dying . . . dead? Why are you saying such horrible words? If you don't want to marry him . . . then don't. Don't just give in and spend your whole life regretting everything,” Jaejoong said angrily.

“We're leaving . . . the two of you need to talk,” U-know said to Lena and Jaejoong.

Xiah, Micky, Max and U-Know immediately left Lena's apartment. They knew the two needed some time alone to sort out their personal feelings.