CHAPTER 27
“Are you sure you want to do this?” Michael asked with hesitation.
Fate sadly stared at him. Then she tried to smile and afterwards nodded. ”I just hope that you know what you are doing,” he uttered as he gently shook his head with disapproval.
“I don’t have any choice. I know I have to do this,” she replied with a low voice.
Michael took a deep breath. Somehow he could feel her pain. And how he wished that there was something he could do to take all the hurt away.
“But you heard what the doctor said… you’re not fit to travel yet. You’re supposed to be resting in a hospital. If I had know what you were planning, I wouldn’t have helped you in getting released from the hospital,” Michael said angrily.
“I’m sorry. But I just can’t stay there anymore. That place just keeps on reminding me of what happened. And it just keeps on reminding me of … of my baby,” she uttered as her voice quivered.
Michael looked at her worriedly. The doctor had already warned him about Fate’s delicate condition.
Even though Fate already seemed strong enough, her body was still very weak from the sudden miscarriage. Any kind of emotional or physical pressure might make her condition worse. And this was something he was most afraid of.
“You know you’re not allowed to cry anymore. We’re no longer in the hospital. So I wouldn’t know what to do if you suddenly faint again all because of your continuous crying,” Michael warned.
“Sorry. Don’t worry. I’m not going to cry, not anymore. That’s why I want to leave Japan already. I’m already tired of crying and I want to forget,” she replied.
“But. . . .” Michael wanted to say something but somehow he couldn’t make the words come out of his mouth. He was too afraid that he might actually hurt her with what he was going to say.
“I know what’s in your mind. Don’t worry…. I think I am already strong enough to totally leave him. I remember you already warned me before. But I was stubborn and determined when I got myself entangled in this fast-paced love affair. I … alone, made the decision to be with him. Now… I think it’s only fair that I alone make the decision to leave him,” she uttered.
“You’re just going to leave him without even saying goodbye? I thought you said you don’t blame him for what happened and that you’re not angry with him? So why are you doing this now? Don’t you think you’re being too cruel by just leaving him all of a sudden?” Michael asked with concern.
Even though he didn’t like the way Max had treated Fate. He was still trying to be fair on both sides. He knew how painful it was to be left by someone you love. And somehow he didn’t approve of the way Fate was handling her problem.
“I’m being cruel?” Fate asked with a surprised expression on her face. “I think I would be more cruel if I stayed… not only to him but to myself as well. Can’t you understand? If we stayed together, we will just keep on reminding each other of our baby.”
Michael shook his head. “Wherever you go, whatever you do, something or someone will always remind you of your baby. So I think it’s useless to run away. No matter where you hide, your baby will always appear in your mind.”
Fate tried to smile. “Yes, you have a point. But I still need to go. I want to forget and start a new life without him. I’ve already made up my mind. I hope you can support me with my decision.”
He stared at his friend and the only woman he had loved. He knew it was impossible to change her mind now. She was the kind of person that always stood by her decisions. Once she had already decided on something, she always makes sure that she sticks with it.
“Fine. If you really want to leave, then there’s nothing I can do about it. But just promise me one thing,” he uttered slowly in total defeat. “What?” she asked curiously.
“Promise me, once we’re out of Japan, you will follow everything I say and rest for a whole month before returning to racing,” he answered.
Fate smiled sweetly, then nodded her head in agreement. “Yes, sir. I will gladly follow sir,” she said as a joke.
Michael couldn’t help but laugh with Fate’s silly gesture. He then quickly took her into his arms and held her tightly. “I promise whatever happens I will always take care of you,” he softly uttered.
Fate just closed her eyes and allowed herself to feel secure in Michael’s arms. She couldn’t explain what she was feeling. It was like different emotions were all locked up inside her. But one specific emotion was trying to come out no matter how hard she tried to hide it.
Sadness was filling her entire soul. She loved Max but she knew she couldn’t stay anymore. She needed to learn how to forget and how to move on. Yes, it is painful now. But everything will eventually change once she was already far away. Both she and Max … as time passes by… will learn how to live without each other. Both of them will eventually find someone new and forget all the bad memories. She knew it was the best for both of them. The pain was just for a while and would soon disappear.
“Calling all passengers of Flight 17 bound for Frankfurt, Germany. Please proceed to departure gate 15B for boarding.”
Michael quickly released Fate, then he looked at her again. “That’s our flight. Are you ready?” Fate nodded and just quietly followed him. This was what she wanted. There was no turning back now…
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As the plane flew higher and higher, Fate felt like her heart was getting heavier and heavier by the minute. Full of regret and anguish, she looked out of the airplane and just stared at the darkening sky.
Tears flowed from her eyes. She told herself that she would never cry again. But here she was drowning herself in sorrow and pain. She was finally leaving the only man who had taught her how to love and the only man who she will love for the rest of her life.
“I’m sorry I have to leave you, Max. Please take care of yourself… Always remember even though we will be apart, I will always keep a special place in my heart just for you… I love you… and goodbye.”
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