죽어있는 것 (Dead At Heart) - Super Junior
CHAPTER 17
Fate sadly stared at the sun as it slowly sets in the sky. It has been four days since the last time she saw him. Her heart was aching as she remembered what had happened that day. She still couldn’t understand what was happening to Max. She couldn’t understand why he suddenly changed from a sweet and loving man into someone so uncaring and despicable.
She sighed again as she slowly leaned forward on the railings of the balcony. She then stared at how high she was. “The people below look so small. They just seem to continuously move on and on . . .” she uttered to herself. “What if I suddenly fall from here? Will Max even care?” she asked herself as the strong wind continuously brushed up her face.
“Fate! What are you doing?” Michael shouted as he quickly grabbed her by the waist.
“Michael . . . what are you doing?” Fate shouted as she was totally surprised by Michael’s sudden action.
“What am I doing? I should be the one asking you that question. What are you doing? Are you planning to commit suicide or something?” Michael asked angrily.
“Suicide? Who?” Fate asked suddenly. She couldn’t understand what Michael was talking about.
“Yes . . . suicide . . . and it’s you! Do you know the position you were in just a few minutes ago? Just a little more . . . and you would have easily fallen down the balcony. Are you losing your mind? Before you lost yourself while driving a car . . . and now while you’re in your own hotel room? God! Do I need to hire a bodyguard just to keep you safe?” Michael answered with anger. Fate’s angry reaction immediately switched to a more calm but sad expression.
“Oh, I’m sorry. I wasn’t thinking again,” she slowly uttered.
Michael’s tight grip on Fate’s waist slowly eased until he finally released her. He then gently turned her around to face him.
“What’s wrong Fate? Why are you acting like this? Please tell me what’s bothering you,” he said with concern in his eyes.
“Michael . . . I . . .” Fate tried to decide whether she was allowed to tell her problem to Michael.
Michael’s face softened. He could easily sense Fate’s hesitation.
“Fate . . . I know I’ve done a very stupid thing a few days ago. And I don’t really have a good excuse to clear myself up. But please . . . try to understand . . . I only did it because I love you. And I just wanted to finally let it all out once and for all. Do you know how scared I was that day? I was thinking that you were going to die. . . without even knowing how much I loved you. I’m sorry . . . if I kissed you. I promise it will never happen again. Look, I am not forcing you to love me back. I am already contented with being just your friend . . . Since I know that it is the only thing that you can offer me,” Michael tried to explain himself.
“Michael, just stop . . . please. You don’t have to explain. Let’s just forget it . . . Let’s just pretend that it never happened,” Fate uttered with a low voice.
Michael’s heart felt a sharp pain in his heart after hearing Fate’s words. But he immediately brushed aside the pain and tried to act like nothing was wrong. He didn’t expect anything from Fate. He knew that she only treated him like a brother and nothing more.
“All right . . . Let’s just forget about it. Maybe now you can tell me what’s happening to you?” Michael asked again.
Fate looked straight into Michael’s eyes. Her hesitation and fear quickly disappeared after seeing the comforting love in his eyes.
“Michael . . . I . . . I already gave myself up,” she weakly uttered.
“What? Give yourself up? What do you mean?” Michael asked. He suddenly became confused with what he heard.
“Michael . . . I already gave myself to Max,” Fate said again. This time in a more clearer and stronger voice.
“What?” Michael exclaimed. “I’ve already surrendered myself to him,” Fate said again.
“What have you done? Are you really out of your mind? You’ve only known him for a short time and . . . you already slept with him? I can’t believe you Fate!” Michael uttered with extreme anger.
After seeing Michael’s reaction, Fate started to cry.
“I know I’m stupid. I shouldn’t have slept with him. But I love him, Michael. I love him with all my heart. That’s why . . . I gave myself to him,” Fate uttered in between sobs.
Michael tried to control his anger. Somehow after seeing Fate’s tears, his anger immediately disappeared and was replaced with pity and understanding.
Michael lovingly took Fate into his arms. He gently embraced her as if to comfort her.
“It’s all right. I was just carried away. Please don’t cry. You know I hate seeing you crying. So please stop . . . okay,” Michael tried to comfort Fate.
“I’m so stupid Michael. . . I’m so stupid!” Fate uttered as she continued to cry.
“Fate . . . I know Max loves you. So you don’t have anything to be worried about. You just have to believe in him . . . Just continue to take care of him. . . and love him . . . and everything will be all right,” Michael said with such warmth and love.
After hearing those words, Fate finally broke down into an uncontrollable cry.
Another two days passed . . . .
The race was getting nearer but Fate couldn’t concentrate on her practice. She was always staring blankly at everything and everyone.
Her strange behavior was already being noticed by everyone in the team.
“Fate . . . are you sure you can drive? Do you want to back out the race? Just tell me and I’ll help you,” Michael asked with worry.
Fate tried to smile. “I’m fine, Michael. Don’t worry about me.”
Michael stared at Fate for a few seconds. He wanted to say something but someone suddenly called him.
Fate smiled at Michael again. “Go . . . I think someone needs to talk to you. I’m fine . . . Just go. . .”
A few minutes after Michael left, Fate’s phone suddenly rang.
Fate excitedly took out her phone from her pocket. She already knew who it was . . . . It was Max.
“Hello . . . Max?” she uttered with a weak and nervous voice.
“Fate . . . I’m at the apartment. Do you think you can come here?” Max asked coldly.
Fate instantly felt the cold and angry tone in Max’s voice. Somehow she wanted to say that she couldn’t come and she was in the middle of practice for the race. But her heart was screaming his name that somehow she couldn’t say no.
“Fate . . . are you there?’ Max asked.
“Uhmm . . . yes . . . I’ll be there after an hour. I still have a practice to attend to,” she was finally able to say out loud.
“Oh . . . is that so? So you mean your practice is more important than me now?” Max asked as if he was hurt.
“Max . . . it’s not like that . . . But you know the race is just . . .” she was trying to explain.
“Look . . . if you don’t want to come, just say so. You don’t have to make up such lame excuses. I’ll just find myself another girl,” Max said angrily. “Max . . . don’t be mad please . . . okay. I’ll go there . . . Just give me half an hour,” Fate quickly uttered.
“Okay . . . just make sure you hurry,” Max uttered.
“Yes, I’ll hurry,” Fate replied as she quickly closed her phone. She then hurriedly ran to where Michael was.
“Michael . . . I need to go,” she said.
Michael quickly stared at Fate. “Why? What’s wrong?”
“I just need to go Michael . . . please,” Fate begged.
“Fine . . . go . . . Just make sure that you go back to the hotel before midnight. We still have an early meeting tomorrow,” Michael said as he tried to act calm.
Fate nodded and then smiled. “Thank you. . . . Promise I’ll go home early.”
Michael just sadly stared at Fate as she hurriedly left the racing track.
He already knew the reason why Fate suddenly left. It could only be one reason . . . . . It was all because of Max.
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