I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAP 49)

CHAPTER 49

 

 

            The next day . . . .

 

            "Lena . . ." Micky lovingly uttered while he caressed her hair. "Wake up, let's have breakfast."

 

            Lena slowly opened her eyes. She immediately saw Micky's smiling face. Somehow his sweet smile brightened up her day. "Good morning," she greeted.

 

            "Good morning . . ." he greeted back. "I already brought breakfast . . . I want us to eat forst before I go."

 

            "Go? Go where?" Lena asked curiously

 

            "We have an interview to go to at 10 o' clock. Then we have a Tv guesting at 2pm. I think we will be finished by 4 . . . So we will be back here before 5. We can have snack by then okay," Micky said sweetly.

 

            Lena felt her heart suddenly skipped a beat. She was deeply touched by Micky's sweet gesture. She smiled and just nodded.

 

            "Oh, before I forget . . . I've already ordered from a restaurant. Your food will be delivered here before lunch time. I'm sorry . . . I won't be here to have lunch with you. Promise me, you'll eat your food. I don't want you to skip your meal okay," Micky said with love in his eyes.

 

            Lena smiled, then she carefully sat up on her bed while Micky still helped her. "Are you leaving already? Can you help me to go to the bathroom first? I really want to take a bath first before we have breakfast."

           

            Micky bowed his head in approval. "Of course, I knew you might say that so I already prepared the bathroom for you."

           

            Lena smiled. Micky was really such a gentle and caring person. Somehow she felt glad that he was beside her. He was just like Daichi. . . She then remembered Daichi. "Where could he be?" she started to ask herself.

           

            Half an hour later . . . .

           

            "Micky . . . I'm already finished," Lena called out.

           

            Micky then carefully lifted Lena out of the bathtub, and out of the bathroom. She was only wearing a bathrobe that was covering her naked body.

           

            Micky's whole body felt tensed as he carried Lena in his arms. He could smell the sweet scent coming from Lena. EVen though he tried to control himself, his manly desires were still trying to take over.

           

            He tried to shake himself awake from the fantasies and thoughts that were flooding his mind. He gently placed Lena on her bed on a sitting position. Then he placed the clothes she was supposed to wear on one side of the bed near her.

           

            "Thank you," Lena uttered.

           

            Micky smiled, then he gently caressed Lena's face. "I hope you will be all right . . . while I'm gone. I'm very sorry that I have to leave you alone."

           

            "It's all right. I'm used to being left alone. Daichi sometimes leaves me alone whenever he needs to go somewhere," Lena tried to reassure Micky.

                       

            "I'll only be gone for a few hours. You can just sleep or watch TV while I'm gone," Micky uttered.

                       

            "I can still take care of myself Micky. So don't worry too much," Lena said with a sweet smile.

                       

            "I'll go out now . . . while you put on your clothes. Then I'll  transfer you to your wheelchair . . . and then we can have breakfast," Micky said.

                       

            Lena nodded. "Okay."

                       

            Micky slowly went out of the room. As soon as he was outside the room, he let out a long sigh. Then he leaned against the wall. He was losing his control whenever he was around Lena. Somehow while he was carrying her in his arms, he was feeling like he really wanted to kiss her and make love to her.

           

            He closed his eyes. He needed to clear his head. He needed to pull himself together.

           

            "Micky . . . what are you doing there?" U-Know asked.

           

            Micky suddenly opened his eyes. He then saw Xiah, Max and U-Know staring back at him.

           

            "Oh . . . I'm waiting for Lena to finish putting on her clothes," Micky carelessly answered without thinking.

           

            "What? Why are you waiting for her to finish putting on her clothes?" Xiah asked curiously.

           

            Micky started to realize what mistake he had made. His friends still didn't know that Lena's half body was paralyzed. He started to think of a perfect excuse.

           

            "I'm supposed to help her sit on her wheelchair. Then we will be having breakfast so I'm waiting here . . . Is it time to go already?" Micky asked. He was trying to divert their conversation to another topic.

           

            "Oh . . . not yet," Xiah replied.

           

            "Before I forget . . . where's Jaejoong? I haven't seen him after we had breakfast," U-Know asked Max.

           

            "Hyung already went downstairs. He said he will just wait for us there," Max answered.

           

            "Oh . . . Micky, have you told Lena that we will be gone for a few hours. Do you think it would be all right to leave her alone?" Xiah asked with concern.

           

            "I already told her, and she said that she will be all right," Micky answered.

           

            "Oh . . . what's that?" Max suddenly asked as they all heard a loud crashing sound inside Micky's room.

           

            Micky hurriedly opened the room. They were all surprised with what they saw. Lena's wheelchair and the table near her bed were both turned over. And Lena was sitting on the floor, trying to pick up the pieces of broken glass and plates that were scattered all over the floor.

           

            "Lena, what happened?" Micky asked worriedly.

           

            Lena slowly looked up at Micky. It was only then that Micky realized that Lena was crying.

           

            "I'm sorry . . . I accidentally knocked over the table. I wanted to get on the wheelchair . . . by myself. But I . . . I . . . I'm sorry . . . I've totally wasted over breakfast," Lena said in between sobs.

           

            Micky gently carried Lena in his arms. "Max, can you please arrange her wheelchair," he then said.

           

            Max immediately followed Micky's request.

           

            Then Micky carefully placed Lena on her wheelchair.

           

            "I'm sorry . . . I'm totally useless . . . I always cause a lot of trouble," Lena uttered.

           

            Micky knelt down in front of her. Then he lovingly wiped away all her tears. "Don't worry about it. I can always replace our breakfast. What would you like? I can always order . . ."

           

            Lena looked deep into Micky's eyes. "Sorry," she uttered.

           

            Micky smiled. "Stop saying sorry. It's all right."

           

            Max, Xiah and U-Know had already started to clean up the broken glasses and plates when . . .

           

            "Blood? Xiah . . . there's blood here," Max uttered.

           

            Xiah and U-Know hurriedly went to look at the piece of broken glass that Max was holding.

           

            "Micky . . . I think you should check Lena's hands. She might have a cut. We found a piece of glass with blood on it," U-Know said to Micky.

           

            Micky then hurriedly took Lena's hands.

           

            "I'm okay. I don't have any cut," Lena said as Micky carefully examined her hands.

           

            "Micky . . . I . . . I think I already know where the blood came from," Xiah said seriously.

           

            "Where?" Micky asked.

           

            "Look at her left leg," Xiah uttered as he stared at the wound that Lena had.

           

            Surprised . . . Micky looked at Lena's left leg. And there he found a long cut that was bleeding steadily.

           

            Max had already handed Micky the medical kit that they had in the apartment.

           

            "Maybe we should bring her to a hospital," Max suggested.

           

            "Make sure that you clean her wound carefully," U-Know said tried to remind Micky.

           

            "Yes, I know. I dont think it is deep. So we don't need to bring her to a hospital," Micky said seriously.

           

            Xiah, Max and U-Know exchanged glances with each other. They had already noticed that something was wrong with Lena. But they just kept silent, thinking that they were just making a mistake.

           

            Micky had already finished cleaning and bandanging Lena's wound. He then arranged Lena on her wheelchair. He made sure that everything was fixed before turning to his friends, who were silently watching in a corner of the room. "Thank you for helping," he uttered to them.

           

            Max couldn't control his curiosity any longer. "Lena . . . Micky . . . can you guys be honest with us," he uttered.

           

            Lena worriedly stared at Max. Somehow she already knew what he was talking about.

           

            "What are you talking about Max? Be honest with what?" Micky asked.

           

            Max stared at Micky seriously. "I have a feeling . . . something is wrong with Lena. How come . . . if she only has a sprain . . . then why won't she even try to move her legs. And why is she acting like an invalid or something. And why didn't she react while you were cleaning her wound? It's like she didn't feel a thing . . . which is very impossible . . . unless . . ."

           

            Lena closed her eyes. She knew this time would eventually come. "I'm paralyzed . . . from the waist down," she weakly voiced out.

           

            U-Know, Xiah and Max were all shocked by what they heard. They never expected Lena's answer could be so unbelievable.

           

            "Paralyzed? How? Why?" Max asked as if very confused.

           

            Lena just lowered her head. She didn't have the strength to narrate everything that had happened to her that might have caused her situation now.

           

            Micky looked at Lena. He knew she didn't want to say anything. So he just decided to do the talking for her.

           

            "Let's all go out. If there are things you want to ask. You can just ask me. Let's leave Lena alone so she can rest," he said to the other DBSK boys.

           

            Xiah, Max and U-Know all followed Micky out of the room. Then they went straight to the living room.

           

            "How did she become paralyzed?" Xiah asked immediately.

           

            Micky sighed. "She became paralyzed after she and Jaejoong got separated."

           

            "How long have you known all about this?" U-Know asked Micky.

           

            "The day . . . she and Daichi arrived and Jaejoong saw them, I immediately went to see them. Daichi was kind enough to explain everything to me," Micky answered.

           

            "What happened to her?" Xiah asked again.

           

            Micky slowly started to tell his friends about everything that happened to Lena right after she and Jaejoong got separated. He told them everything that Daichi told him. . . including the hardships that Lena went through just to find a cure for herself.

           

            "So the reason . . . why she disappeared for the last two months was because of what happened to her?" Max asked out loud. Somehow he couldn't believe what he just found out. It was too cruel for a fate to have happened to an innocent and kind girl like Lena.

           

            "Micky . . . what are you really planning? Don't you think it's time that Jaejoong knows about the truth? He has a right to know. He needs to know about Lena's condition . . . and about the baby she's carrying. He is the father. And no matter how hard you try to hide it, he will still know about it . . . sooner or later. I know and I understand that you love Lena. But please don't be selfish. Think about what is good for both Lena and her child. Jaejoong must know the truth . . . before it is too late," U-Know tried to put some sense into Micky's clouded mind.

           

            Micky tried to hide the pain he was feeling with a fake smile. "Tell him the truth before it is too late? Are you making me laugh? Don't you think it's already too late? He's already involved with Keiko and she's pregnant. What's the use of telling him the truth now? Do you actually think that once he learns about Lena and their baby . . . things will change? It will only make things much worst. He would only be faced with two women who are both carrying his children. Frankly I'd hate to be in his position. That kind of position would be totally maddening for me. Imagine . . . the first woman I've ever loved is disabled and pregnant with my child . . . and the second woman is also carrying my child . . . Who do you think I should choose?" Micky said with sarcasm.

           

            "No matter what or who Jaejoong chooses is entirely up to him. The important thing is . . . he should be given the chance to know everything . . . and to choose. The two of you are both our friends. We are not taking anyone's side. We just want what is best and fair for everybody involved. Please Micky . . . give Jaejoong the chance to choose," Xiah said.

           

            "A chance to choose? Do you think I haven't given him that so-called chance? I've already given him the chance to choose . . . and he chose Keiko," Micky said with anger in  his eyes.

           

            "But hyung . . . he doesn't know about Lena's condition and that she's also pregnant. The only thing that he knows is that Keiko is pregnant. So of course, he would automatically choose her," Max voiced out.

           

            Micky ran his fingers through his hair. He was totally confused. He knew what his friends were saying were right. But he somehow couldn't accept the thought of losing Lena once Jaejoong finally knows everything and suddenly chooses her again.

           

            "Micky, we are not doing this because we are on Jaejoong's side. To be honest, we are doing this because of Lena and the child she's carrying. We want to give her and her child to be happy. I know we are somehow being unfair with Keiko and her child by pushing Lena back into Jaejoong's arms. But let's all be honest with each other, we all know that Lena and Jaejoong should be the ones who end up together . . . not you and Lena . . . or Lena and Daichi . . . or keiko and Jaejoong. Micky, if you really love Lena . . . give her what she wants . . . what she loves. . . give her happiness. More importantly, give Lena's child a chance to be with his real father. Have a heart . . . pity the child. Set Lena free. She doesn't belong with you," U-Know said with a sad voice. He knew he was hurting Micky with the words he was saying. But there was nothing he could do to avoid it. He needed to open Micky's eyes . . . even if it meant hurting him. He wanted to make him realize his mistake and accept everything he was trying to say.

           

            Micky closed his eyes. His heart was pounding very hard, and he felt like it was going to explode. Everything he was hearing was bringing him unimaginable pain. As he suddenly opened his eyes, tears immediately ran down his face.

           

            "Hyung . . ." Max uttered with pity in his eyes.

           

            "All right. . . tonight . . . after dinner . . . I'll tell Jaejoong everything. I just hope . . . this time he finally realizes who he really loves."

           

            U-Know nodded his head in approval. Then Xiah suddenly gave Micky a hug to show him his support.

           

            Micky tried to control his tears. Somehow he wanted to cry out loud. His heart was aching badly. It was already time for him to say goodbye to Lena. His tears ran down his cheeks. He couldn't accept that he already needed to say goodbye when he haven't even started yet.

           

            "I love her," he weakly uttered. He felt like he wanted to die. It was really very hard for him to let Lena go. He loved her too much.

           

            Xiah tightened his embrace as Micky continued to cry. "It is for the best Micky. Just let all the tears out, it will somehow help to ease the pain. We're here for you. We will help you to mend your heart," he said as tears were also filling his eyes. Somehow he could feel the pain that Micky was feeling, and he was also hurting just like his friend.

           

            Max and U-Know just silently watched. They pitied Micky, but they knew his sacrifice was needed for more people to be happy.

           

            "Micky. . . what's wrong?" Lena asked with concern. She had decided to follow the guys to the living room.

           

            Micky slowly looked at Lena. Xiah had already drawn away from him to give him space.

           

            One step at a time . . . Micky walked up to Lena. Then he knelt down in front of her.

           

            "Micky . . . what's wrong? Why are you crying?" Lena asked as she carefully wiped away his tears, and started to caress his face.

           

            Micky gently held Lena's hand that were caressing his face, then he looked deep into her eyes.

           

            "I love you . . . Lena. No matter what happens, always remember . . . I will always love you," he uttered with so much emotion that he felt like his heart was going to stop any moment.

           

            "Micky . . ." she uttered. She pitied him, but she didn't know what to do. She knew she couldn't return his love for her. Jaejoong will be the only man she will ever love.

           

            Micky slowly embraced Lena. He wanted to feel her body next to his for the very last time. He wanted to cherish the memory of having her in his arms. . . for the last time.

           

            Lena just silently returned Micky's embrace. She wanted to comfort him. She knew he was in pain, and it was the only way she could think of to help him.

           

            "Lena . . ." Micky uttered. "Can I . . . can I kiss you? This will be the first time . . . and the very last time . . . that I will ask something from you . . . please," he said with a trembling voice.

           

            Lena's heart had suddenly ached. It felt like Micky was already saying goodbye to her. "Micky . . ." she uttered.

           

            Micky was already staring straight into Lena's eyes. "I love you," he lovingly said as he lowered his head to cover Lena's lips.

           

            Their world had started spinning as their lips met. Micky tried to keep the feeling he was having locked up in his heart. He wanted to keep the special memory of having Lena in his arms and kissing her . . . all locked up in his heart and in his mind forever.

           

            "Xiah, Max, U-Know . . . the van's already waiting downstairs," Jaejoong uttered as he suddenly entered the room.

           

            Xiah, U-Know and Max all turned to look at Jaejoong with concern and fear in their eyes. They didn't want him to see Micky and Lena kissing each other again.

           

            But it was too late . . . Jaejoong was already staring at Micky and Lena with his eyes wide open with shock and pain.

           

            "Hyung . . ." Max said with concern. He could see hurt in his friend's eyes.

           

            Jaejoong hurriedly turned away after seeing Micky and Lena. He could feel his heart was very heavy, and was somehow being crushed. He didn't want to feel such emotions. He no longer had any right to feel hurt or jealous. Lena was no longer a part of his life . . . She no longer belonged to him.

           

            As he quickly stepped out of their apartment . . . his tears appeared again. Even though how hard he tried to deny it . . . the fact still remains . . . he still loved Lena and it was killing him to see her with another man. How he wished he could wake up from the nightmare he was having . . . He wanted to be with Lena again . . . But he knew she was only a dream now that he could no longer obtain.