I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND (FAN FICTION) (CHAPTER 45)

CHAPTER 45

    It was already four in the morning . . . .

    Micky yawned and tried to stretch his body. Somehow some parts of his body were aching. He wasn't used to sleeping on a chair. But he had no choice. There was only one bed in his room. And Lena was already sleeping on it. He then sighed. He looked at Lena's direction. She was still sleeping. He was about to close his eyes again, when he noticed something. He suddenly stood up and went near Lena.

    Lena was lying on the bed with her head turned on one side. Micky thought that she was sleeping soundly. But then he noticed that her shoulders were moving as if she was crying. He looked closely at Lena. Somehow she was constantly whispering something.

    "Lena . . ." Micky uttered.

    Lena just kept on whispering something.

    "Is she having a nightmare?" Micky suddenly asked himself after remembering what Daichi had told him.

    Then he noticed the sweat that were forming around Lena's forehead. He then became quite alarmed.

    "Lena, wake up. . . Lena," Micky said with worry.

    Lena continued to say something . . . something that Micky couldn't understand. Then he noticed tears were running down from Lena's eyes.

    "Lena . . . for God's sake . . . wake up," Micky said with total confusion, as he tried to wake Lena up by shaking her shoulder.

    Minutes passed . . . Lena was still in her own world. But her words were clearer now.

    "Please stop . . . . Please stop . . . Don't hurt him. . . .Please stop . . . I'm begging you," she continuously repeated while sleeping.

    Micky was already going crazy with worry. He didn't know what to do. No matter how he tried, Lena still wouldn't wake up. He suddenly rushed out of his room and went to U-Know's room first.

    "What's wrong?" U-Know asked as he tried to brush off his dizziness.

    "Something's wrong with Lena. Please you've got to help me," Micky said while panicking.

    U-Know hurriedly got out of his bed. "Okay . . . Go back to Lena. I'll wake the others."

    Micky nodded. He went back to his room, only to find Lena in a more frightening situation. She was crying and moaning, as if pain.

    His heart was filled with fear. He tried to wake Lena. But she still wouldn't respond to anything he said or did. Lena's whole body was very cold and her whole face was covered with sweat.

    Micky felt like he wanted to cry out in desperation. He was very worried with what was happening to Lena.

    Xiah, Max and U-Know hurriedly entered Micky's room. While Jaejoong just stayed at the door of the room.

    "Micky . . ." U-Know uttered.

    Micky stared at U-Know. "She wouldn't wake up. I have tried waking her up. But she . . . just kept on . . ." he said nervously. His mind was already messed up. He couldn't think straight anymore.

    Jaejoong just watched from a distance. He didn't want to get close to Lena. He was afraid of what his own emotion might make him do. But eventhough he tried hard not to show his emotions, he was still very concerned about her.

    "Let's bring her to a hospital," Xiah suggested.

    Micky was about to agree when he suddenly remembered that Lena wasn't supposed to go out of the apartment building. He then shook his head. " I . . . I'm not allowed to bring her out of the building," he uttered.

    "What?" U-Know asked. "What are you talking about? Look . . . she's sick. Don't tell me we're just going to watch her until something worst happens to her."

    Micky stared at Lena. U-Know was right. He needed to bring Lena to a hospital. He was just going to deal with the consequences later. He was about to carry Lena out of bed . . . when she suddenly screamed.

    As soon as Lena screamed, she immediately opened her eyes and started to cry. She was scared. All the terrible memories were constantly playing in her mind.

    "Lena . . . " Micky uttered worriedly. He then gently took her into his arms, and held her tightly. "Thank god, you're awake now. You scared me."

    Jaejoong felt like he was dying as he silently watched Micky embracing Lena. He then decided to turn away and return to his room. He didn't want to see Lena and Micky together. Even though he was angry with Lena, he still couldn't stop himself from feeling jealous and hurt because of Micky. He knew he no longer had any right to feel such emotions. He already had Keiko in his life. And he belonged to her now. Whatever he and Lena had before could no longer be returned. She was only a part of his past now, and Keiko was his present and future.

    Jaejoong sat down on his bed, and cupped his face with his hands. He then closed his eyes. He was totally confused. He didn't want to care about Lena anymore. He wanted her to be totally out of his life. He was already back to his normal life. His life was peaceful now. He just wanted to be free of all the pain.

    "Why did you have to return Lena? Why are you destroying my peaceful life again? Why can't you just go back to where you came from and just leave me alone? I don't want to see you anymore. I already have Keiko in my life now. She have been with me during the time that you should have been the one taking care of me . . . I thought I have already forgotten you. But why is my heart still pounding very hard whenever I see you. And why am I hurting whenever I see you with Micky? Why is my heart restless now? Am I still in love with you? But . . . even if I still have feelings for you . . . I will just have to hide it. I don't want to hurt Keiko. I also love her . . . You are no longer of my life, Lena. I have already released you a long time ago. I'm sorry . . . I can no longer hold your hand and take care of you. You were the first one to let go Lena. I tried very hard to hold on . . . But you made me give up. I'm sorry, but Keiko is my life now. . . and you . . . no longer mean anything to me. I wish you will be able to find your own happiness. The happiness that I know I promised to give you, but I won't be able to give. I hope you will find another love . . . a love you will be able to keep," the words kept playing in his mind.

    Jaejoong couldn't understand why, but his tears just kept on flowing. As his mind was trying to say goodbye, his heart was crying.

    Back in Micky's room . . .

    "Lena, please stop crying," Micky uttered as he caressed Lena's head.

    "I want to die . . . I want to die . . . I'm tired . . . I'm very tired already. Why can't the pain stop? It's driving me insane," she said with tears in her eyes.

    Xiah, U-Know and Max exchanged glances. Somehow they could also feel the pain that Lena was feeling. Pity filled their hearts. They wanted to help her, but they knew there was nothing they could do.

    Micky closed his eyes. He pitied Lena. How he wanted to take all her pain away. "Don't say such things! You have to be strong. You can't die. You have to live . . . not only for yourself, but also for your child."

    U-Know, Max and Xiah all looked at Lena with shock in their eyes. Then Max looked back at where Jaejoong was standing when they entered the room. He was no longer there.

    "Hyung has left. Did he hear what Micky have said?" Max asked himself.

    Lena sobbed. "I'm tired. I . . . I . . ." she tried to say.

    "Stop it! Have you forgotten you have a child that's growing inside you. So what if Jaejoong has another girl now? It still doesn't give you any right to just throw away your life . . . and especially the life of your child. Life doesn't end with Jaejoong, Lena. You have to learn to move on," Micky tried to lecture her.

    Lena continued to cry. She knew what Micky said was right. But she was too emotional to even think straight. She felt too weak and too useless. She just kept on wishing that everything that was happening was just a dream. And that somehow she would suddenly wake up and find everything back to that way it used to be.

    Micky continued to caress Lena's head. "Lena, I'm here for you. Just put your mind at ease . . . I'll take care of you . . . you and your baby."

    Lena just closed her eyes. She didn't want to cry anymore. But her tears just kept on falling. She felt her mind was already going to explode because of all the heartache. She buried her face on Micky's chest, that she could easily hear his heart beating. Somehow she wanted to hide and pretend that nothing was wrong.
    
    Micky was surprised with what Lena had done. It made him feel such a feeling of happiness and contentment just having her in his arms. He felt like she was perfectly made for him, and that she truly belonged in his arms.

    Xiah, U-Know and MAx continued to watch in total silence. How they pitied Lena . . . but then they were starting to think that Micky was taking advantage of Lena's situation.

    Half an hour later . . .

    Micky was finally able to convince Lena to stop crying and go back to sleep again. He carefully arranged Lena's bed first and made sure that everything was all right, before going out of the room with the other DBSK members.

    "Let's talk in the dining room," Micky said to the others. He knew he needed to explain a lot of things to his friends. But he didn't want Jaejoong to hear it.

    Max, U-Know and Xiah just followed Micky to the dining room. And as soon as they were all seated around the table. Xiah had already lost his self-control. "Micky, have you totally lost your mind?" he asked.

    Micky looked at Xiah with a strange expression on his face. "What do you mean?" he asked.

    "She's pregnant with Jaejoong's child . . . and you're still trying to take her from Jaejoong," Xiah answered.

    Micky let out a light laugh. "Let's get one thing straight. Jaejoong is with Keiko now . . . So Lena doesn't belong to Jaejoong anymore. So I'm not taking Lena away from Jaejoong."

    "Micky, don't you think it's better if Jaejoong knows about Lena's condition? At least . . . maybe he can . . ." U-Know tried to voice out his opinion.

    "He can what? He can just go back to Lena and leave Keiko? Is that what you're trying to say?" Micky asked with a raised eyebrow.

    "It's the right thing to do hyung," Max uttered to Micky.

    Micky suddenly put on a maddening smile. "The right thing to do? Tell me . . . what is the right thing to do? Is it . . . sleep with your bestfriend, tell her you love her and then after two months of being separated from her . . . find another girl to sleep with? Is that what you're trying to say?"

    "Micky, you're already way out of line. Why are you being so selfish?" U-Know shouted.

    "Me? Selfish? You should tell that to Jaejoong, not me!" Micky shouted back as he violently stood up.

    "Micky . . . we know that you love her. But can't you see? She still loves Jaejoong, and she's carrying his child. Jaejoong should be the one beside her, taking care of her," Xiah tried to reason out.

    "No! I have already let her go once. But Jaejoong didn't take good care of her. So now it's only fair that I try to fight for her now. Jaejoong has a life of his own now. He has Keiko to take care of. I love Lena and I don't care whether she's pregnant or not. I love her and I want her. And nobody can stop me," Micky said as he suddenly walked out of the room

    Xiah, Max and U-Know looked at each other. All of them sighed. They knew things were going to become more complicated. And no matter who they decided to side with, Jaejoong, Daichi, Micky, Lena and Keiko were all going to get hurt, one way or the other..